Nancy Babcock's album (vaccine deaths and injuries, 231)

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This story was written by Avery’s mom.

Don’t all moms vaccinate their kids? That’s what they do, right? No questions asked. We just vaccinate our kids because you’re supposed to. Or so I thought.

My son Avery was born in 2004 and was vaccinated on the CDC’s schedule through the age of 13 months. After every vaccine appointment, the physical and emotional changes in my child were unmistakable. Hescreamed for hours. Blood curdling, horrific screaming. Screaming so long and so hard he would nearly pass out. After every vaccine appointment, he developed hard, bloody stool. Rashes that covered his whole body. Ear infections. Sensory problems. Refusal to nurse. Refusal to sleep. Refusal to just be.

I was a first time mom and had no idea this wasn’t normal baby stuff. No one told me it’s not normal for your baby to recoil in horror when you touch him. It’s not normal for a baby to start crying the moment a stranger looks at them. At my lowest point, I contemplated killing him, or killing myself, or killing both of us. I look back upon those days with extreme shame, and try to imagine myself being poisoned to the point of losing my mind, how that must feel, how he must have felt, and wondering why no one had ever told me this was a possibility. I feel extreme guilt, extreme sadness, extreme emotions over a period of my life I am least proud of.

“I don’t want to mention the A-word just yet, but…”

…were the words Avery’s pediatrician used at his 18 month appointment. I stared at her, mouth open, wondering how any person could be so cruel. The “A-word”? Really?

Only once I researched it did I learn it was not normal for a toddler to scream for hours on end for seemingly no reason. It was not normal that he had never tried to speak, never waved, never pointed, and spent the majority of his time staring at ceiling fans. Don’t all kids shriek like they are being burned when you set them down in the grass? Don’t all toddlers flap their arms and run on their tippy-toes?

At the ped’s office, he was quickly diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder and a speech delay. I did the typical recommended therapies with our local First Steps program. But, he got progressively worse at an alarming rate. Our Occupational Therapist, after another 40 minute screaming session, snarled at me, “What you have here is a very unhappy child.”

One month before his third birthday, I took Avery in for an official autism evaluation. For two days, he screamed and cried and thrashed his way around the evaluation center. On the second day, I finally had a meeting with the psychologist, and could hear Avery wailing in the next room. The psychologist bustled into the room and almost gleefully proclaimed, “They’re just getting him cleaned up….. Don’t be alarmed, all autistic kids throw up a lot!”

Autism. The “A-word.” My mind went to mush. My absolute first thought was for my husband. He’ll never be able to play baseball with his son. In that second, with those callous words of a stranger, his life seemed to be over – before it ever had a chance to begin.

I was devastated. I’ll admit it – I wanted a “normal” child. I wanted kids like my nieces and nephews, all “perfect” and uncomplicated. I cried a lot. I mostly cried in my shower so no one would hear me, letting the huge, mind-numbing sobs overcome me. After that – I got mad! Why Avery? Why ME? Autism isn’t something I signed up for! And after I was done being pissed – I got active. Fine. Let’s do this thing.

At first Avery attended a developmental preschool and made little progress. I left him screaming at the door and picked him back up screaming at the same door. My days were filled with a screaming toddler who wanted nothing and everything and nothing all at the same time. Finally, a friend suggested ABA therapy as a replacement for the school. I told the school I was leaving, and they laughed and told me that ABA was “dog training” and advised me not to do it.

We began ABA therapy at a center. I made the 1 ½ hour drive every single day for 18 months. Almost immediately, we saw a change in Avery. I felt like I could breathe for the first time in his life. We also began an intensive biomedical program with Avery and addressed many of his nutritional deficiencies, which helped open the pathways for the ABA to do its job.

The screaming began to lessen. The obsessive behaviors started to disappear. And within six months, Avery spoke his first word, just a few months before his fourth birthday. It was 6 weeks after we had started chelation to remove heavy metals from his body. As I was sitting on the porch with my mother, he walked up to her, put his hand on her leg, and said “Grandma” like it was the most normal thing in the world. I nearly died in that moment. It was working. He was recovering.

With the help of many biomedical interventions and intensive ABA therapy, I began to realize that I no longer feared taking Avery into the store because of a meltdown. I no longer avoided birthday parties and public swimming pools and only then realized how much of life we had avoided because of the “A-word.”

This year, Avery entered 4th grade in a mainstream classroom with no aide. He’s now completely unassisted during the day. He’s made a special friend there and they have very serious, intense debates about Super Mario Brothers. He talks about his day with me. He tries. Sometimes painfully so. Sometimes I ask him a question and can literally see him formulating the words so hard in his head. I can almost hear him, Please be patient with me, as I try to speak, as I try to figure out this world around me… Please…..I’m trying.

Avery still has more recovery ahead of him. But he’s Avery. He likes video games and his Razor scooter and waterslides. He laughs at fart jokes. He tells me I’m funny.

We have been able to overcome much of what vaccines tried to steal from him. From us.

The Greater Good can’t have my child.

"When my daughter was a baby (1996), I was watching on Cspan or one of those channels a hearing about vaccines and autism. It really clicked with me. I felt there was a connection. I continued to vaccinate. My daughter didn’t speak or potty train until she was 5. We took her to a Child developmental specialist and was told she had Asperger’s and Adhd. We got another opinion and he said she just had ADHD and speech problems. We took her to Univ. of Wash and had her tested and they said she just had speech delays. We got her into speech and occupational therapy and today she is pretty normal. She was hitting her milestones until she about 16 months. I don’t know if it was vaccinations or the RSV virus that she got at that time.

My son came along and he was hitting his milestones. He was normal, engaged, a rambunctious boy. Then at 15 months we got vaccinations (Year 2000. He received Tetanus, Oral Trivalent Polio, Hib Type B, MMR). It took a few months for the change. And it was so subtle. I didn’t even catch it. First his eyes started to cross. Of course they told us it was muscle problem. I have since learned that it is a nerve problem sometimes caused by vaccinations. As I remembered back, I didn’t even really catch all the changes. But now when I look back at pictures, it is glaringly obvious. He got this remote look in his eyes. He went from being a clown in photos, to just looking out in space. In preschool he wouldn’t participate, he would just sit there in his own world. In kindergarten, he showed no sense of personal space. He would get under the desk and bark like a dog. He would use the other kids heads as braces when standing up.

In 1st-3rd grade, he was bullied by his schoolmates. The teachers would tell him to just go somewhere else, he would and they would follow. They knew how to get him and then he’d react and get into trouble. There was one kids who went around stealing things off others desks. The teachers solution was to just let him do it and then she’d go back into his desk and get the item. He would steal something from my son, and my son would scream and throw a fit. And then when the teacher talked to us, it would be about my sons reaction to the other kid. He started reacting to the bullying by hitting. At one point I talked to the doctor and he put him on Concerta for adhd. For months he had hallucinations. I didn’t figure out that is what was going on until it became unbearable for him. I started researching the medication and immediately stopped it. I took him to a psychiatrist thinking he’d talk and help him with the emotions etc. I didn’t know the difference between a therapist and a psychiatrist. He just diagnosed him as having bipoler disorder, anxiety and adhd. He prescribed him Abilify (which isn’t even approved of for children), sertraline (zoloft) and strattera. He became combative, angry, agressive, more emotional, started soiling his pants at school, obsessively licking his lips and then got whole body shakes/tremors. He couldn’t sit still at all. The other kids in his class became afraid of him. The answer to the soiling of the pants (from the psych.) was to give him Metemucil at night so he’d go in the morning. To me that wasn’t finding the answer. I didn’t do it. With each new symptom, the doc wanted to up the dosages. I took him off all meds and removed him from the doctors care. I researched the meds and found that abilify cause most of his symptoms, and causes Tardive Dyskenesia (whole body tremors/shakes) which can be permanent. Luckily it wasn’t in his case. It also causes tic disorders, which his lip licking has since been diagnosed as a tic disorder. The other two medicines had their own set of bad reactions. One of them being mania in patient who are also taking Abilify and who are bipoler. I wondered why he was prescribed these two meds together when he supposedly was bipoler. I finally got him into see a neuro psych. doctor who did intensive testing and found he is high functioning autistic, has a tick disorder (lip licking) caused by the medications and a type of anxiety that is not fixed by medications but is fixed by positive reinforcement. He doesn’t have bipoler disorder, anxiety or adhd. After getting his diagnosis, I put him on a regimine of vitamins and minerals and he has improved alot.

He is twelve now. We still have to tell him everyday how to get ready for school. We have to follow him around and keep him on track. We can’t just give him an order to go clean up or whatever, we have to go with him and tell him every little thing that needs done. His memory is about 3 seconds. If he has something to say, and we are trying to get his attention for something else or it isn’t the right time, he will practically burst trying to hold his thoughts in. He says everything he is thinking whenever he is thinking it. His topic of conversation is the only topic according to him. According to him “we are wasting his time” when we have something for him to do whether it is chores or homework. He has a few friends, mostly younger than him. A has a couple of friends who have stood by him throughout all of his trials. He is able to get on his bike and go to his friends house or school, but I do not let him go around alot of traffic. Eventhough he has alot of problems, he is so much better now than he used to be. We see small improvements every day.

Throughout all these years not one doctor ever said I should have him tested. From pre-school to 4th grade not one teacher said I should have him tested. We even lived with my cousin, who is a therapist, for 6 months and she never said I should have him tested. It wasn’t until 4th grade when he was going through all the medication symptoms that a teacher said she thought he might have Tourettes. Another special ed teacher said that he might have a processing disorder and that is what prompted me to have him tested. After going through his life in my head and looking at the before and after pictures, I am convinced it was caused by his vaccinations.


“He never treated anyone differently. Everyone was a friend.”

“He taught me that the sky’s the limit, rules are meant to be broken, and to be open minded.”

“Sarcastic and he could insult you without you even knowing you had been insulted but it was all in fun.”

“He enjoyed life and he had fun, he loved being around people but was just as comfortable being by himself.”

From Christopher's mom:

This is what Christopher’s friends said when I asked them to describe him.

I saw him as my little boy, the one who loved to build, draw, read.. playing and listening to music, skiing, golfing and with a huge thirst for knowledge. He could debate any subject: politics, religion, classic rock, environmental issues, or architecture… he loved it all.

He studied environmental law at Westminster College for one year but decided he didn’t want to be a lawyer. He said there were too many rules; he wanted to use his creativity and pursue a degree in his first love, architecture. So he transferred to Utah State University in August 2009. On October 15, 2009 he flew to Oregon with his dad to look at schools. He wanted to start with a civil engineering degree and then pursue a degree in architecture with an emphasis in sustainable architecture. They returned home on October 18th.

Christopher had always been healthy; if he got a bug it was usually gone within a day or two. He was very active in sports. His doctor visits were mainly well check ups and no issues had ever come up. He had his childhood vaccines. They were delayed but he did receive them, but he never had a flu vaccine.

We had discussed the regular flu vaccine and 2009 H1N1 vaccine. He wanted my opinion, I told him to not worry about the regular flu vaccine since he had never had a problem with cold or flu bugs. We were both unsure about the H1N1 vaccine. He was right in the age group that was most susceptible: college student, campus living and around a lot of people. I left it up to him.

On October 19th he called to say he had decided to get the vaccine and went to the local health department. He received the H1N1 Flumist vaccine. On November 4th he sent a message to his girlfriend that he felt like crap but the next day he sent another message that he felt a lot better and just had a little sore throat. He commented one time to me that he felt tired but he thought it was from staying up late and studying (or playing games or his guitar).

On November 19th, Christopher spent the evening with his friends. He talked to his dad around 10 p.m. about their plans to ski over Thanksgiving weekend. He talked to his girlfriend on Skype until about 3 a.m. One friend tried to convince him to stay up and watch a movie but he said he was tired and was going to bed.

November 20th, Christopher was supposed to pick his girlfriend up at the Frontrunner station and when he didn’t show up and she couldn’t reach him she called one of his friends who called me. I called his roommate who found him. He had passed away in his sleep.

That was the day my world stopped.

We spoke with the medical examiner about his medical history several times over the next two months looking for a cause. The only thing that was out of the ordinary was the vaccine. She called us on February 10th to say she thought the cause of death would be “unknown” but they were going to do one more test on his heart. (I remember the date. Christopher’s birthday is February 11th).

We finally received the autopsy results in mid-February 2010. Cause of death: Viral Myocarditis. The medical examiner said it was the “flu” he had in October. I reminded her he had not had the flu; it was the vaccine he had in October. I asked her to check for something in the vaccine. She said it had been too long and they would be unable to isolate it down that far.

The thing that sticks in my mind is when I was told by someone from The United States Health Resources and Services Administration that the vaccine cannot cause the flu but may cause flu-like symptoms while the immune system is reacting to the vaccine. Flu-like symptoms are a common symptom of Myocarditis.

I hear about so many young healthy people passing away from unknown causes and I wonder how many of these “unknowns” are actually Myocarditis. I also hear about young healthy people collapsing from an undetected heart condition. Is this an undetected condition of Myocarditis? So many questions and not enough answers. How many of these reactions are caused by an adverse reaction to a vaccine? So much information is withheld from a parent… they never make the connection.

In Christopher’s case I believe it was the vaccine that triggered the Myocarditis, but I also believe there are many medical issues that can be triggered by an adverse reaction to a vaccine.

I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, he was my little boy.

VaxTruth would like to thank Christopher’s parents for allowing us to share his story. For more information on death associated with the flu vaccine, please see the articles below.

Death by Flu Shot. 7 Year-Old Receives Flu Shot; Dies 4 Days Later

"8/20/14 Today started with me seeing several posts on my facebook feed of my old friends’ kids first day of Kindergarten. This was a group of ladies I worked with at Madison Center for Children, a mental health facility for kids. I was a Case Manager and felt led to that particular job after several years in the non-profit field. Looking back, I really thought I was there to help kids at this facility who had mental health issues and disorders. Hopefully I did! But now I know that God was also using the situation to prepare me for my own child. He can see what I could have never ever imagined.

There were three other moms who were friends of mine at Madison Center and pregnant at the same time I was pregnant with Devin. I had just suffered two miscarriages back-to-back before Devin’s pregnancy and was honestly terrified of his pregnancy and the possibility of anything happening to the baby I was carrying. After my second miscarriage I transferred to a high-risk pregnancy OBGYN who ran some tests and I discovered I have a blood clotting disorder called Factor V Leiden. Because of my age, I began taking Clomid to conceive and also Progesterone to assist in the pregnancy. Because of the Factor V I was also given a low-dose baby aspirin daily regimen the first trimester. In addition to that, I was Rh Negative meaning my blood type did not match my husband’s. I had a long conversation with my nurse at the time and felt a lot of pressure to take the Rhogam shot. I was told of the risk of DEATH of my unborn baby if I didn’t get the shot. I wanted to think about it and talk to my husband before taking it, but I was told that there was a window of time to take the shot and I might not be able to get it in time. I did not know that I could have most likely not taken the shot without any adverse effects on my baby. I was faced with that word death after two miscarriages and I got the shot. During the entire pregnancy with Devin I continued to work at Madison Center for Children with many daily stressors of and from patients. During this time I also had to get a TB test for employment.

Because of my age, tests were done early on and it was recommended that we also have an amnio test done. We refused the amnio because it carried a risk for miscarriage and told them we declined and would welcome our baby no matter what. The tests came back with no markers for Down’s Syndrome and we were told everything looked normal and our baby was presumably healthy! The same day we got the results back we also had another ultrasound that gave us the news that we were having a baby BOY! I will always remember that day as one of the happiest days of my entire life. I did everything in my ability to have a healthy pregnancy. I didn’t smoke, drink, do drugs of any kind, not even over the counter cold medicines. I ate mostly salads and vegetables for lunch, stopped drinking diet drinks, didn’t eat seafood and wouldn’t even eat lunch meat because of a small risk of Listeria. I was still secretly afraid of still birth because friends I had made with Factor V had that happen to them. I was determined to do everything in my power to have a healthy, happy baby. I started getting terrible headaches, but other than that it was a normal pregnancy. The headaches were so bad at times I couldn’t function at work. I had to stop working at work because I couldn’t look at the computer screen. Sometimes the pain was so bad I cried. But I didn’t take time off. I took very little OTC pain medicine (Tylenol and Ibuprofen) trying to tough it out. It turns out I was really anemic and I was put on iron supplements. The iron didn’t help the headaches very much and I continued to get them frequently.

Because my first child resulted in an emergency cesarean, Devin’s birth was to be a planned C-section. His ultrasound due date was Christmas Eve! His scheduled delivery date was set for December 18, but my water broke and Devin was born December 7, 2008 right before midnight. His birth was unusually quiet with no screaming or crying. This sometimes happens with cesarean births, but his silence was longer than usual. They took him and I waited and there was no noise, no sound. The doctor was trying to tell me something but I couldn’t hear him. I was trying to get the nurses attention and kept asking, “What’s wrong? Why isn’t he crying?” It turns out what the doctor was trying to tell me was that I was hemorrhaging and might need to have an emergency hysterectomy! I didn’t even hear him and didn’t find that out until the following day because I was so worried about Devin. Eventually he would cry, but it was short lived. He was the easiest going baby! He rarely cried, not even to be fed or changed. He was just always content. He never pulled away and enjoyed affection, but was just not ever upset. The nurses noted I was under anesthesia and drugs that could have an effect on Devin. Also, not going through the birth canal could keep a baby from crying out at their birth. I was also under heavy medication (morphine type) while I breastfed him.

Devin had the HepB shot not long after he was born as is the current vaccine schedule. He also had jaundice and had to have light therapy for it. I didn’t know exactly what jaundice was and that it was related to the liver….as is the HepB vaccine. I do not know if the HepB vaccine caused or contributed to the jaundice or if the HepB vaccine caused his autism because his liver and immune system was already compromised from the jaundice. I do believe this was the first assault on his system after his birth. His first noticeable vaccine reaction however came at the 2-month round of vaccines on February 9, 2009. On this day, he had Hib (HbOC), Pneumo (PCV), Rotavirus, and a multi-vaccine called Pediarix that contains [Diphtheria and Tetanus Toxoids and Acellular Pertussis Adsorbed, Hepatitis B (Recombinant) and Inactivated Poliovirus Vaccine Combined]. After coming home from this well visit and being vaccinated, he woke from a short nap screaming and crying this terrible screeching sounding scream like he was in excruciating pain. He had a high fever, rash and terrible diarrhea. I tried to console him, nurse him, but the screaming continued. I called his dad at work, something I never did. His dad was alarmed and upset. I called his pediatrician and spoke with the nurse on duty. She was also alarmed and seemed frantic to get the doctor’s advice and was very concerned. Her complete tone changed though when she got back on the line after speaking with the doctor. She relayed to me that the doctor said it could not be the vaccines he had received that day because they were safe and he must have a virus or something unrelated. I was told to, “wait and see” and if conditions got worse I could take him to the ER. I was told to give Tylenol for the fever and I did. I alternated Tylenol with ibuprofen. The high-pitched screaming continued all that day and I called a friend who also couldn’t believe it was Devin making that noise. That night he was still crying, but had calmed some. He had diarrhea and the fever into the next day.

Whenever I brought up vaccines and my concerns with them my doctor discounted every fear I had. He told me that vaccines were 100% safe and effective and my fears were unfounded. He recalled a doctor, Dr. Wakefield who was the only one who related vaccines to autism and told me that his work was not only debunked, but that he had his medical license stripped because of his fraud! I was made to feel foolish for being afraid of vaccines over the months that I brought them up. I didn’t know the facts at the time surrounding Dr. Wakefield or Poul Thorsen. But I did in fact feel foolish for listening to the Jenny McCarthy’s who were obviously not credible. My doctor calmed my fears at some level, but there was never a time that I wasn’t torn between giving them to save my son from terrible diseases, and not giving them at all to save him from the effects of the vaccines themselves. At times I would get afraid of news reports of illnesses being reported. At one time I literally stood in line in Michigan in freezing rain to get Devin the h1n1 vaccine because the news was so scary talking about possibility of several deaths of the young and elderly. I couldn’t let anything happen to him.

Devin had anemia when he was a baby and we gave him iron supplements. The supplements caused constipation issues. Devin also had problems with his white blood cells and we were sent to Hematology/Oncology for tests. The first tests were not good, but the second tests came back okay and we were told that he was fine. Devin met his developmental milestones, although he lacked facial emotion fairly early on. He did smile and laugh and remained an incredibly easy-going baby. But his reactionary emotions were not there. The same ladies that I was pregnant at the same time with would meet with me periodically for play dates with their babies. Inevitably their little ones would cry, throw a fit, even have a tantrum. Never Devin. He sat like a little gentleman, looking around, seemingly engaged but never getting emotional. There was a noticeable difference between my baby and theirs and I actually felt sorry for them, watching them get frustrated or embarrassed because their child was screaming or making a scene at the mall or other public place. Devin had a calm. He had a sweetness. He didn’t demand anything. He didn’t cry or scream. He was simply always content.
Not long after that I noticed Devin didn’t react to my husband and I trying to be silly with him. He had what we affectionately called his, “Nonchalant” face as we picked him up. We would make silly faces, funny sounds, and move him around being silly. He wouldn’t break a smile and he would just look at you or look around. He started talking at about 12 months. He said words like dada, bobba (for bottle), up, ow, go, and even his older sister’s name, “Chels” (for Chelsea). He started with about 3-4 words and then said more and more. But then he started going backwards. Sometimes he would say a word and lose it. Like he said the words, “Thank you” all day one day. He walked around saying it, but has never said it again…ever. Other words he said all the time, virtually everyday and for weeks and months, only to lose them over time. He also met other milestones like pointing, lifting his hands to be picked up, running to the gate when daddy got home, saying and waving bye-bye. All of these eventually disappeared.
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I was pregnant with his little sister and he was 17 months old at the time his sister was born. So I blamed a lot of things on my own behavior being sluggish and very very pregnant at the time he really started to regress. Maybe I just wasn’t giving him enough attention during this time? And maybe he was jealous or a little neglected with all of the attention of the new baby? Each and every time I went to well visits the doctor would ask the usual questions. When he asked about Devin’s speech, I would report to him that his words weren’t increasing. In fact he was losing words. I continued to question vaccines, although I continued to vaccinate him on schedule (other than the MMR which I delayed because it was “the” vaccine reported to cause problems). Each time I brought up vaccines, my fears were dismissed and I was made to feel like I was overly protective and basically ignorant to the facts of them. I think my doctor had already made up his mind that I was just “that” mom and over protective and didn’t take anything I said seriously. He continued to regress and I continued to get more and more concerned and worried about him. I literally watched him lose a word right in front of my eyes. He used to walk around our big coffee table and point to my feet because I painted my toenails and he would say, “Toe!!” He did this all the time over a long period. Then one day he pointed and tried to say the word and it just wouldn’t come out. He stuttered and tried again and couldn’t say it. He looked confused and tried but eventually just walked away. This same doctor again told me my fears were unfounded. He told me boys developed differently than girls. He even made jokes about Devin’s speech saying, “You know how women talk. He’s probably just trying to ignore the ladies!” When I pushed the issue even bringing in a checklist I had done online of symptoms Devin was exhibiting, he seemed irritated with me. He looked at Devin and said, “I’ve never seen him walk on his toes.” He had and did and often. But in that small waiting room he probably didn’t see it. But he literally laughed when I told him I thought Devin had autism. Sadly I was right.

On my urging the doctor put Devin on a waiting list with a developmental pediatrician but it could be several months, even a year before we heard from them. So we decided to go out on our own and had him evaluated. He was diagnosed October 26, 2010 with moderate autism. When we got the official diagnosis and it was sent to our doctor, he said, “Well you know it couldn’t be the MMR vaccine because you delayed it!” as if he still just wanted to be right. But in fact, Devin regressed badly from the 15-20 month time frame to the point that he would literally sit and stare out into space. I remember calling my husband over and telling him to watch as I said Devin’s name louder and louder , even yelling it and he would not respond and continued to stare off. I would then clap and make noise and he still wouldn’t respond. We fired our doctor. Since then Devin has been said by one evaluator as being on the severe end of the spectrum. He started Speech and Occupational Therapy before his official diagnosis at 20 months of age. He also received a grant for ABA Therapy and at one point we had a revolving door of therapists coming in/out of our home. We moved from MI to NC and lost ABA. We continued ST and OT for three years, but it was overall ineffective. We are now doing Mendability, a sensory-enrichment therapy as well as gfcf diet and supplements that are helping. His last diagnosis from his ST and OT was Severe Receptive Disorder and Severe Expressive Disorder in addition to the original diagnosis of autism. He also has severe Sensory Processing Disorder and is “Hypo” sensitive and sensory seeking. He also struggles with Pica. He also has digestive issues, food allergies, and skin issues. When I took him to the dermatologist for severe eczema, he was seen for a matter of seconds and we were simply told it was a skin condition and to use a topical OTC petroleum base cream on his face. But after removing dairy from Devin’s diet as well as food dyes his eczema has completely disappeared and not returned. So diet and supplements have helped.

Devin still has a ways to go. Unlike all of my old friends, I don’t have his first day of Kindergarten picture on facebook today. I am homeschooling him and don’t believe he could function in a typical school setting, especially for 7 hours a day. Although he is talking, it remains a challenge and difficulty for him and he is very low verbal, some would consider him to be pre-verbal. He still has severe sensory issues. He still has problems with social situations. Mendability has been a great therapy for Devin and we are fortunate that he has been able to be in it for a year now. He has improved dramatically in attention, focus, sleep, and repetitive behaviors. He has seen some progress as well in speech. We are adding new supplements soon. He is not his diagnosis and is such an awesome little guy!! He works on the ipad, loves swimming and his trampoline, pesters his little sister, and tries to talk everyday. He wants to talk and everyday he tries. Every time he does talk it is in the right context. He wants and tries to socialize, but he has no friends. He doesn’t want the behaviors he has and tries to control them. He is no longer that quiet unresponsive toddler! He makes good eye contact at times and remains a loving, funny and affectionate wonderful child.

I give God the glory for putting the right people in our lives to continue to help him. I keep telling his story because vaccines from day one had a devastating effect on Devin. After his reaction I kept vaccinating him compounding the assault over and over again. It was like watching someone who was being slowly methodically poisoned over years and watching their bodies react from an accumulation of chemicals and toxins, deteriorating and just disappearing into himself. I sincerely pray all of the time that my story and countless others can make their way to people in positions of power to do something about it. Parents need to know that autism IS a side effect of vaccines and it is not rare. My son is 1:50 who now have autism. 1 in 6 children in America have a type of disorder. I had nothing but good intentions doing what I thought was everything right during my pregnancy and after. But I now have nothing but regrets and wish I was told the truth about the vaccine ingredients, the fact that a subset of children cannot excrete the toxic load, lack of efficacy, that they are giving too many vaccines and too many at the same time. In my experience not one vaccine is safe. Maybe my son’s story can save future children and families from the horrific reality of vaccine injuries. The CDC knew vaccines contributed to autism in 2000. My son was born in 2008. We should have been told."

(Written on August 10, 2006 by Tamara, the day after Eden’s vaccine injury.)

Eden got her 4 month shots yesterday…seven immunizations in all, three injections. These were the same ones that she had at two months without any issues. Well, we had a horrible scare and our little one is still recouping from the mess. This was already one of those subjects with us that we questioned if we were doing the right thing, at least it was for me, but we decided to go ahead with them.

Eden was bubbly and playful at her well baby check up – She is 12 lbs and 24 1/2 inches long – a bit under weight for her age and height, but she is just a small eater and as long as she keeps growing she is fine per her pediatrician. She was even giving her doctor smiles left and right and was doing great overall while being poked and prodded…she did not even cry or whine once.

However, within 4 hours of getting her shots she was a completely different baby. She was screaming a very high pitched shrill cry and nothing we could do would comfort her. Actually, the more we tried the worse it got because she acted as though it hurt her to just be touched. She turned purple when I tried changing her diaper because she was screaming so hard and refused to eat.

After about 45 minutes of this I called the advice nurse at Kaiser. They told us to give her Tylenol and to put cold rags on her legs and to call back in 30 minutes if she was not better. The cold rags seemed to calm her down, so I did not call back. She sort of just did not want us to touch her so I gave her a warm bath to try and relax her to see if that would help. She managed that and went to sleep after finally taking a bottle.

This morning she was burning. Her leg was swollen and one of the injection sites was all red and inflamed, like a small bug bite. She had a 101.5 fever so I called the advice nurse again. This nurse acknowledged it was a reaction right away and told us that most likely the next round of shots would make it worse so we needed to talk to Eden’s doctor about either holding off, splitting them up, or just not doing them now then she told me to give her more Tylenol and to put cool rags on her head until her doctor called us back. We did this and I even took her into the shower with me and put her under the cool water.

At about noon her doctor called. I told her everything that had happened and she kept reassuring me that it was not a reaction. I told her what the nurse said and she said that reactions like that are rare. I quickly pointed out to her that she had seen Eden a few hours before all this started and that she was fine, so her telling me it was something else made no sense at all. She reluctantly agreed and told me to only give her Tylenol on demand when Eden was really bad because that too could build up in her system and cause problems if she was already being susceptible to having reactions. She agreed that we needed to keep cool rags on her and then asked if I was scared to continue her vaccinations. I told her I was and that we would be doing research and talk with her at her 6 month appointment about our options.

Chepe and I are thinking we are going to do what they used to do in Japan and hold off on all further vaccines until she is at least 2 years old. I spoke with a good friend of mine in NC whose daughter had a severe 18 month long reaction 10 years ago and she gave me lots of info and resources, so we are doing our homework on this touchy subject. I would just never forgive myself if we ignored this warning and the next time around she does not bounce back as soon from a reaction. I have spent all day trying to keep Eden comfy, working on getting her fever down, and doing research when she asleep…which seems like way more then usual since she is still not feeling well.

If it is not one thing it is another in the Morales household apparently!

Below: Trying to cool the hot mamacita off :o)

Below: Eden with her dollie, soska (pacifier), and lovie (rag)…she was tolerating the
wet cold rag as long as she had her comforting thing with her. She was too cute even
though she was miserable.
To update — Tamara and Chepe have since decided to become 100% vaccine free. They based this decision on “huge amounts of time spent researching the facts, numbers, ingredients, diseases, reactions, benefits of natural immunity and everything else vaccine related that they could get their hands on.”

The following is another blog post written by Tamara on August 20, 2010:

Vaccine Reaction
The 9th of this month marked four years ago that Eden had her vaccine reaction. That was a very scary day for us and I still can hear her high pitched cry when I reflect on those horrific moments. This high pitched cry is known as the ‘cri encephalique’ and is an indication of neurological irritation. The brain swells (encephalitis), causing an extremely painful headache which makes the baby cry in a high-pitched way.This is of the most widely recognized signs of vaccination sequelae, and is indication of a severe reaction when accompanied by persistent crying for 3 or more hours, fever over 103F, and excessive sleepiness. Eden had all of these things within four hours of receiving her four month vaccinations, seven vaccines (she weighed a little over 12 pounds).I will also never forget feeling as though we had lost our little one forever, and seeing that same fear in Chepe’s eyes. Neither of us would say it, but we knew what each other were thinking, and our silence was pain enough. Thankfully we had a more positive outcome then others and Eden is now a wonderful little four year old full of lots of energy.

Eden’s reaction led us to be proactive and become as informed as any parent can be on this topic. We still live with lasting effects of this reaction, confirmed by her neurologist. Though mild they serve as reminders that we were completely naive on this topic and we should have never consenting to anything before doing our own independent research; no parent should. Informed consent is necessary and as parents we have to do our homework, thoroughly in order to properly decide what is best for our children.

A mom named Melissa once posted:

“I’m just a mom. But I was taught where to stand in this universe. I see so many people feeling scared & pressured to get their children vaccinated; they rationalize vaccination as the default. People feel as though they have to be convinced NOT to vaccinate. You have been deceived. We should have to be convinced TO vaccinate. Take a deep breath, go with your instincts, and do your research.”

Nearly every day I read ALL about vaccines; the diseases they are supposed to protect us against, rates of infection & complication, rates of vaccine reaction, ingredients, laws, recalls, conflicts of interest, research studies, and the list goes on. I can honestly say that if I had known all that I know now prior to having children, I would no way even considered vaccinations and Eden’s reaction would have been avoided. I regret that our ignorance almost cost us our daughter, but am proud that I am now more knowledgeable on the topic and have even been able to help other parents.

“The Environmental Protection Agency justifies setting vaccine levels for Thimerosal Mercury at 50,000 parts per billion. Technically safe by conventional standards if you’re a 350 pound adult, but not for an infant.”

No one in our home is 350 pounds (insert sarcasm here), so since Eden’s reaction we have made the decision to become a non-vaccinating home. There are no annual flu shots for any of us, no tetanus boosters, not even TB tests around here. Eden has received no additional vaccination since her reaction and Lily has received zero vaccines in her life. They are both two healthy little girls that have strong, naturally built immune systems.

A fellow non-vaccinating parent shared this with me a long time ago. I have always hung on to it, since I think it is something very interesting to think about and because I am a numbers person, and remember mercury is not the only toxin in vaccines. Toxins that destroy our natural immune systems.

* 0.5 parts per billion (ppb) mercury = Kills human neuroblastoma cells (Parran et al., Toxicol Sci 2005; 86: 132-140).

* 2 ppb mercury = U.S. EPA limit for drinking water (

* 20 ppb mercury = Neurite membrane structure destroyed (Leong et al., Neuroreport 2001; 12: 733-37)

* 200 ppb mercury = level in liquid the EPA classifies as hazardous waste (

* 600 ppb mercury = Level in a currently licensed Hepatitis B, multi-dose vaccine vial, labeled as trace. This is administered at birth.

* 25,000 ppb mercury = Concentration of mercury in multi-dose, Hepatitis B vaccine vials, administered at birth from 1990-2000 in the U.S. Not administered at birth in any other developed country.

* 50,000 ppb mercury = Concentration of mercury in DTaP and Haemophilus B vaccine administered 8 times in the 1990’s to children at 2, 4, 6, 12 and 18 months of age. Current “preservative” level mercury in flu, meningococcal and tetanus (7 and older) vaccines.

But, what about Polio???

Before I end I feel that I need to address this because it is the one question that I can almost always bet I will get asked when people are made aware of our no vaccine stance. This was a question I was concerned about too in my early days of vaccine research, so here is the answer I tell people:

“Polio is most prevalent in India, where in 2009, 741 people contracted it. The population of India is 1,147,995,904. This means that in the country where Polio is seen as dangerous, the percentage of people who contract it is 0.000006%.” –Earthy Motherhood

Per the CDC, the last cases of naturally occurring paralytic polio in the United States were in 1979 and the last imported case caused by wild polio virus into the United States was reported in 1993.


"The Beginning…

My husband and I were blessed with the birth of our darling Emily on a very cold February morning in 2003. She was our second child and joined her older sister, Brittany, as a wonderful addition to our family.

The doctor visits and the immunizations…

Our darling Emily developed normally until the age of 14 months…at which time she received her first round of immunization booster shots. At this first visit, she received 3 separate immunizations. During the short drive home, it was evident that something was wrong. Instead of her normal happy demeanor, she appeared confused and even had an unusual “worried” look on her face. After arriving home, we put her in her walker so we could prepare her lunch. Again…it was evident that something was wrong as she began to pace nervously through the house and would occasionally stop and cry out for no apparent reason. Looking into her eyes…I could see repeated dilations and contractions of her pupils. In an effort to console her, we tried to pick her up but she would quickly push herself away from me. She still had the confused and worried look on her face. After putting her back in the walker, she immediately began to run up and down the hall and continued to cry. Unsure of what to do, I called the pediatrician’s office told the staff about her symptoms and added that I thought was she was having an allergic reaction to the shots. They advised me to bring Emily back in the next morning and I agreed.

At the visit the next day, she was examined by the pediatrician and the doctor’s diagnosis was that she looked fine and that her eyes didn’t appear dilated at that time. Of course, this was almost 24 hours after the immunizations. The doctor told me not to worry so much that whatever it was, it was probably over now. I left the office with the terrible feeling that something was still wrong and that my Emily was not going to be the same. As time passed, the symptoms…the confused look and the unusual crying out… did not go way. In addition, she seemed to be very depressed most of the time. Eventually, I took her back to the doctor and demanded something be done. I asked the pediatrician to check her condition via neurological testing as she hadn’t been the same since the vaccines. I also requested that they run any other tests or do some research on her as she had continued with the strange symptoms. At this request, the doctor reacted with a concerned look and she asked me to wait in the examining room for a minute so she could retrieve some information. She returned about 20 minutes later and gave me some paperwork for the Early Childhood Intervention (ECI), The Child Study Center, and the Sante’ Rehabilitation for Children with Disabilities. She told me to contact ECI first and that they would have someone come out to talk with me. As I left the doctor’s office, I was disgusted, angry and confused. I was devastated with the outcome of the visit and with the fact that doctor seemed unwilling to listen and unable to help my daughter.

Emily on floor

Emily’s conditions continue to deteriorate…and the Autism is diagnosed…

Emily slowly began to get worse in her general overall health condition. She continually had either a sinus infection or ear infection every month. At this time, according to our new pediatrician, it seemed that she also came down with another medical problem…gastrointestinal issues. As Emily had been on numerous antibiotics, she began to have bowel problems. As if that wasn’t bad enough, she also developed eye problems with continuing watering of the eyes. On several occasions, her eyes would get so bad she would have trouble just opening them in the morning. The discharge from her eyes would dry up around the edges of her eyes when she was asleep so that when she woke up, her eyelids would stick together. ECI did eventually come to our home to examine Emily and their diagnosis was that she appeared to exhibit symptoms of autism. They said that they would return later to do some more testing on her. My thought was that Emily’s problem was not autism because she was a healthy female girl until the immunizations were administered. The ECI representatives exchanged glances and they gave each other a worried look. I immediately asked why they were reacting like this and they stated that they were not at liberty to discuss their feelings about the issue. They finally relented and said that they had heard the same comments from other parents. Later that evening, I began doing some internet research about autism, I felt disheartened to learn that there were other parents who were also experiencing the same issues that I was having with my Emily.

Emily at Christmas

Trying to help my daughter…

During my autism research, I discovered the possible autism treatments with regard to a gluten-free, casein-free diet. I suspected that Emily could be allergic to either or both of these, so I ordered a special cookbook entitled “Special Diets for Special Kids”. I also bought new cookware and utensils to ensure that they were free of gluten and casein residue. I took Emily off of all dairy (casein based) products the first week. Almost immediately, we saw improvement in that Emily’s eye discharge problems disappeared and she also appeared to regain some eye contact capabilities. Then, after a week of improvements, I took her off of gluten/wheat products and switched to rice, chick peas, and quinoa-floured breads, pastas and other products. Again, we experienced some successes as Emily’s stomach pains disappeared and she had a normal bowel movement for the first time in several months. In addition, she began sleeping through the night. (Before we began the new diet, the entire family was somewhat sleep deprived because Emily would keep us awake by laughing hysterically, screaming and crying, and pouncing on all of us throughout the night). We hoped dearly that Emily would continue to improve with her eye contact and stop walking on her toes…tripping easily…and running uncontrollably into walls. It appeared to be working! As time progressed, all seemed to be going along fairly well. Emily’s overall health was still a problem. For example the following year she developed a strange bout of fevers and also experienced an array of problems whenever there was a bad ozone day.

Emily at table

The search for a cure or relief…

My repeated internet and other autism research in an effort to help Emily led me to a clinic in Austin, Texas called “The Care Clinic.” They specialized in individualized testing and biomedical treatments for people with autism and related chronic illnesses. I contacted the clinic and explained Emily’s problems, as well as our limited financial situation. The staff at the clinic advised me not to worry about the payment for now and that they would take our case and try to help us. They sent us laboratory test kits for me to do and some blood test kits to be done at the closest hospital laboratory. We completed the lab work then we visited the Care Clinic in Austin. We were amazed at all the people and children in the clinic. After filling out forms and signing papers, we were escorted into an exam room for more testing. Once done, we were moved to another room to and waited to speak to a physician and also with the founder of the clinic. To make a very long story shorter, they were very personable and explained Emily’s test results to us. Upon learning of the seriousness of the results, I became very upset. Emily had yeast overgrowth and had lymes disease. She also had a mitochondria dysfunction and could not produce glutathione. She suffered from an immune disorder she also suffered with heavy metal toxic overload. Her body did not produce the necessary enzymes to detox itself and was thus overloaded with toxins. They tried to reassure us in that the clinic offered therapies to help with these issues. They also supplied us with supplements to help Emily replenish her nutrients. We discussed the risks involved and were given all information and details. We began with an intravenous chelation therapy. We came back the next day and completed the intravenous mineral replacement treatments. Emily did great and we returned to the clinic on a monthly basis. Emily also underwent treatments of HBOT (Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy, Ozone) during his time frame. After approximately seven trips, Emily’s health improved dramatically. For the first time ever, she spoke with clear meaningful words in a full sentence. For example, upon our return to our hotel room, Emily looked up at me and said ‘I want to go swimming now’. We continued to see amazing things from Emily. She followed the lines in coloring books, was able to use scissors, understood her colors better, and could use her food utensils with more purpose. She spoke the words ‘I love you mommy’ for the first time and it brought tears to my eyes.

The downturn and the regression…

Unfortunately, all of our successes turned out to be short lived. The clinic was forced to close down temporarily due to the economy and financial reasons. As things worsened, my husband also lost his permanent full-time job and has since only been working on contract jobs…leaving us without private medical insurance for our family. Most of the biomedical treatments and laboratory tests needed for Emily’s health conditions are not covered due to laws that protect insurers for not paying for them, these biomedical treatments and lab tests are considered ‘investigational.’ Emily has regressed and she really needs these therapies in order to continue to progress and grow. Until my husband finds a permanent position, we haven’t been able to provide Emily with the treatment she needs. It has been 7 months since Emily’s last biomedical treatment and she has continues to regress. She is now only speaking in 2-3 word sentences and has returned to frequently waking up in the middle of the night. She again screams out or cries in her sleep.

We continue to fight the battle…and continue biomedical treatments and to look for ways to help our Emily become a normal little girl.

Ron, Christina, and Brittany…and of course…Emily…."


Eric was born completely normal and developed normally until he was 6 months old. When he was 6 months old, he received the DPT vaccine and within a few days he began to have seizures — up to 80 in 1 day! Other than the daily seizures, he developed normally until about 10 months of age — alert, learning to walk and talk, but the seizures took their toll. He is now 20 years old and the last time his father saw him smile was when he was 10 months old. Remembering his 1st birthday, Eric’s father wished the seizures would leave him alone — at least for that one day. His parents had to hold his head up as they blew out the candle. Eric had tests after tests done, and no answers were ever given until he was 8 years old. When he was 8, a doctor confirmed that his disability was due to a reaction to the vaccines he received when he was 6 months old. He is 20 years old today and is severely disabled and in need of continuous care and support. He is approximately the size of a 5 year old and only weighs 45 pounds.

This information was submitted by Grace’s mother. The first part of this post is a timeline constructed from Grace’s medical records.

Vaccination: Hep B : Aug 20, 2007 (12 hours old) unable to maintain body temp for 7 hours.
9/04/07: Well visit: dr. notes: Patient is female. Alert, well nourished, developmentally normal, symmetrical eyes, symmetrical ear placement, symmetrical smile, hips, legs, feet, shoulders, arms, hands. infant is calm and easy to console.
11/02/07: Sick visit: crying, fever, diarrhea.
11/07/07: 2 month Vaccinations: DTaP, HepB, HIB, Polio (even though he knew she was sick) notes state doing well, no developmental concerns. coos, follows past midline, chest off table, head in midline, attn to sounds, social smile.
1/23/08: 4 month Vaccinations: DTaP, Hep B, HIB, Pneumococcal, Polio: at visit dr notes babbles, reaches, supports on hands, heads up, steady, laughs, rolls front to back.
3/25/08: 6 month Vaccinations: DTaP, Hep B, HIB, Pneumococcal, Polio: at visit dr notes: babbles, responds, sits unsupported, no longer rolls, raking grasp, transfer object, no stranger anxiety.
4/16/08: sick visit: Rash on back of neck, chin, and head, 100.2 fever, cough, crying. (gained 10 lbs between 1/23 and 4/16)
6/19/08: Dr notes: throws objects, says Dada, sits well, pincer grasp, finger foods, stranger anxiety, scoots.
7/24/08: I contacted Dr to discuss Developmental delay, not crawling, no longer scooting, large weight gain, sleeping 14 hours.
8/6/08: spontaneous hypothyroid dx (thyroid at birth was normal)
8/21/08: 12 month Vaccinations: MMR, Prevnar, Varicella
(Dr visits and calls missing from records (Dr deleted) Gracie appeared to have “gone deaf” stopped looking at us, stopped answering to her name, stopped babbling. Hearing test was normal. First steps contacted.

9/9/08: lethargic, fever, no improvements with developmental delays.
10/10/08: Influenza vaccine
10/28/08: sick visit: 101 fever for 1 week prior, cough and chest congestion.
11/7/08: influenza vaccine
More records are missing.

All further vaccines have been declined.

These photos show Grace before her 4 month vaccines (given at 5 months) and after her 6 month vaccines (given at 7 months).
These photos show Grace at around 9 months (left) and at one year (right), following her 12 month vaccinations. She was no longer able to sit on her own, and had stopped crawling or scooting. She stopped responding to her name, stopped smiling, and stopped babbling.

Grace never regained the ability to babble (talk). She struggles with her walking and balance. She has a very hard time using her hands and struggles with grasp. We have had several genetic tests done (including 2 tests for Rett’s Syndrome, with normal results – no mutation). She had an MRI showing no concerns. She had an EEG showing no seizure activity.

Grace works hard at therapy but struggles due to weak grasp and deficits in eye-hand coordination.
Grace works hard at therapy but struggles due to weak grasp and deficits in eye-hand coordination.

Grace now suffers from severe IgE food allergies to Corn, Wheat, Milk, Eggs, Soybeans, Peanuts, Treenuts, and Sesame Seeds. She has rarely has a formed bowel movement. She wakes at night screaming in pain that I can not stop because she can not tell me where or what hurts. She is only able to eat 3 foods currently. She suffers from severe eczema. She is nonverbal so these are the major ailments that we can tell she suffers from.

Yet another allergic reaction to God knows what...thank you vaccines for creating a mess of my baby's gut causing her body to attack everything including the food she eats. Thank you medical community for leaving us alone to figure it out.
“Yet another allergic reaction to God knows what…thank you vaccines for creating a mess of my baby’s gut causing her body to attack everything including the food she eats. Thank you medical community for leaving us alone to figure it out.”

I have had to leave my career in order to stay home to care for Grace 24/7. It is unknown if she will ever lead a productive, functional life on her own. She has 3 siblings that are constantly affected by her vaccine injury. Their lives are put on hold as every event revolves around who will care for Grace, what food can we bring, and whether we afford it as our finances have been severely affected.

Worth Every Penny

Therapy now runs $120,000 a year and her diet is roughly $300 a week. I can no longer work, and my husband is a firefighter. This is bankrupting us. We are losing our home.

I did seek compensation through the Vaccine Injury Compensation Fund but was told by 3 attorneys that they are not taking any autism cases and do not know of anyone who is. The others that I contacted never returned my calls. Her statute has expired. The pediatrician to this day has refused to provide our complete vaccine records. I have made 4 written attempts and my attorney has made 3. I have contacted the IN Attorney General to begin filing complaints with the medical board. His lack of providing records also would have prevented us from filing in vaccine court. We are left on our own to find the money and resources to try to make her life livable.

"I have three sons, but from the moment I laid eyes on Gunner I knew he was special. He had this little button nose, olive complexion and a hairy little back. He was literally the most well-behaved baby I have ever seen! He was always happy and smiling, never fussy. He met all of his mile stones, started crawling at 7 months and was walking before he was a year. He had all the typical baby words, mom, dad, bottle, his brothers name (cole), car. His favorite phrase was “What is this?”

Gunner was the most well-behaved baby.
Gunner was the most well-behaved baby I have ever seen! He was always happy and smiling.

A few weeks after his first birthday I took him in for his doctor visit. That day he received his MMR vaccination. Not long after we got home he spiked a high fever. I gave him Tylenol and alternated that with Advil to keep it at bay. That night Gunner woke up screaming and hitting himself in the face. At the time I chalked it up to teething. The next morning Gunner seemed different. He refused to eat, he cried a lot and he still had this fever…… I took him back to the doctor when I started to realize there was more going on. They ruled out pneumonia with an x-ray of his chest, ruled out an ear infection, and he had no cold symptoms. The doctor said it must be from his vaccination.

Gunner’s fever stayed with him for two weeks! When he was finally on the mend I noticed his attitude hadn’t changed much from when he was sick. He was regressing. He stopped looking at me, he no longer responded to his name, he no longer reached out to me, he started walking on his tip toes and and throwing his head in circles. He also ran in circles… The Gunner I knew was disappearing in front of my very eyes….

Gunner was a different child after his 12 month vaccinations.
Gunner was a different child after his 12 month vaccinations.

Gunner is nonverbal today, his behaviors are getting worse as he ages. Just last week I saw him causing self-injury for no apparent reason. He was biting himself… Gunner has a fascination with letters and numbers, so much that he bit through his baby brother’s hand and went into complete hysterics because he touched one of his magnet letters.

As a single mother of three how am I to get him the therapy he so desperately needs? Therapy he wouldn’t need if I were properly informed about the risks and side effects of the MMR vaccine? As his mother I want this beautiful boy to reach his full potential, whatever that may be. It saddens my heart that my once happy, healthy boy is now suffering and there is nothing I can do to stop it. All the wealth of our great country, and still so many people are suffering…

A recent photo of Gunner.
A recent photo of Gunner.

You know… I’m kind of new to all this (Gunner is nearly 3 years old), and I know a lot of people have lists of the changes they want, demands they have… All I want is for my son to get whatever therapy he needs. I want his country, his government to help him succeed in life and I want them to take a little responsibility for what’s happening to so many families – the same government that made it mandatory for me to poison my child… And please insist on more studies and testings of these harmful vaccinations.

Thank you for your time…

Kash’s story:
Today Kash is 15 months old and although I have not seen long-term effects from the DTaP vaccination he received at 9 months, the week that followed it was terrifying! The picture I am adding with my story is of Kash the day before his DTaP and the day of his DTaP. You can see the stark difference in the two…

Kash - Before and After the DTaP vaccine at 9 months of age.
Kash – Before and After the DTaP vaccine at 9 months of age.

After bringing Kash home from his doctor visit he spiked a fever. By bath time it was climbing and his eyes were disoriented. That night I woke to Kash’s painful screams. When I picked him up he was on fire! I fumbled around in complete hysterics looking for my thermometer. It read 105.6! He was slipping in and out of consciousness. Immediately I dialed 911. We were rushed to Mercy Hospital, where they tried to tell me he had a slight ear infection of the right ear. The doctor’s words exactly were, ” It looks a little red. We will write you up for antibiotics.”

Days went by and I was lucky to bring his fever down to 104. Feeling something else was wrong I took him back to the ER two more times, only to be sent home each time. His extremely high and abnormal fever lasted for a week.

I am extremely grateful that Kash came out of the woods alright. His brother Gunner was not so lucky. I know my baby, and I know with every ounce of me that the DTaP made my baby instantly ill. We dodged a bullet with Kash. That vaccination was the last vaccination I will EVER allow my children to receive. I thank my lucky stars every day Kash is okay and I will never again subject my children to the poisons that are being administered to babies every day.

Kash’s story has a happy ending, but it could have gone very wrong for him, as it has for so many others, including his big brother.

I can only imagine what would have happened to Kash if I allowed them to give him his MMR this past June."

This is Jeremy’s story, as told by his mother.

Jeremy received all vaccinations according to schedule, beginning at birth. Every vaccine left his immune system weaker. He had chronic ear infections and fevers. He learned to walk and talk on schedule. He would imitate us and tell us all about Pooh characters (which he still watches).

When he was 16 months old, he received MMR, DTaP and HIB in one well-baby visit. He was sick with a fever the full week after and kept holding his head. He slowly regressed and 4 months later I wrote on his calendar…”why did you stop talking?” His pediatrician said it was just because he was busy with other things. Well, it was “Autism” and seizures (dx landau kleffner at first). We enrolled him in every therapy possible. Nothing was getting through. He would drool all his food out of his mouth and could not use utensils anymore. He was not off a bottle or potty trained until after 5 yrs old – while in ABA 40 hours per week. Intensive detoxing, tests, therapies (speech, OT, Hippo), and ABA followed the next 12 yrs. He has been through so much.

When Jeremy was around the age of 12, an ABA professional told me to focus on life skills only. Basically, give up and look into residential homes. His raging frustration during ABA left him in full BARR holds by 4 adults. He couldn’t talk so he was mad and they thought they would “break” him like a horse. So, they would hold him down until he stopped crying. I am horrified now thinking about what he has been through.

These kids have so many biological problems; colitis, severe headaches, chronic constipation, food allergies, seizures… and more. Then they cannot communicate like some stroke victims. They are in there but how would you know? No handwriting, no words.

Please understand, his other 3 siblings did not receive the absurd vaccine schedule he endured and they are fine and thriving. Jeremy was bombarded and his body could not handle it.

This story was written by Jodi, mother to Jillian.

My daughter’s name is Jillian. She was born on September 22, 2005. We lived in Peacham, Vermont. Her vaccine injuries occurred in Vermont. She was a normally developing infant per doctor observations, had met all milestones. Responded to her name, had normal eye contact, good sleep habits, good eating habits, and the beginnings of rudimentary language.

Jillian was a normally developing baby prior to vaccine-injury.

This photo was taken when Jillian was 11 months old; one month prior to her vaccine-injury. She was looking at the camera, responding to her name, and smiling upon request.

She was given MMR, varicella, Hep A, Prevnar at her 12 month well-baby visit. Jillian regressed behaviorally within weeks, screaming, not sleeping, agitated, personality change. No one, including myself recognized this as an adverse vaccine reaction. She was given DTaP and Hib at 15 months. By 17 months she had no eye contact, no words, was not sleeping, exhibited constant screaming, flapping, and spinning. I hope I don’t need to tell you how devastating this was for all of us, including her big sister, but especially for Jillian.

We moved to the state of Texas five years ago, when we realized that our beautiful state of Vermont could not provide the medical, therapeutic or educational resources that the state of Texas could. We left our home on the real estate market, all of our friends and my mother and father. We have spent the last five years putting the pieces of Jillian’s puzzle together with the help of several physicians.

Jillian has endured years of physical pain as a result of vaccine-injury.

Here is what subsequent MEDICAL testing has revealed: Prior to her 12 month vaccines, Jillian was a healthy, normally developing child. Findings: NO antibodies (immunity) developed to polio, varicella, tetanus or pertussis, despite being fully vaccinated per the CDC schedule. Abnormally HIGH antibodies to measles, mumps and rubella. Heavy metal toxic, to include mercury and aluminum. She has mitochondrial dysfunction, bowel disorders, gut dysbiosis (hence the onset of 14 hour a day screaming; she was in unbearable pain), IgG and IgE food allergies and intolerances. Sensory Integration Disorder. Dyspraxia. Apraxia, severe vitamin deficiencies, metabolic problems, malabsorption issues, gut inflammation, and PANDAS. She is non-verbal. Again, by all Vermont physician accounts (several of them in the same practice), Jillian was a typically developing infant who presented with none of these health issues prior to her 12 month round of vaccinations.

The financial burden this has placed on us is immense. Tens of thousands of dollars have been spent on medical care and therapy for our child, much of it not covered by insurance. We lost our home in Vermont to foreclosure proceedings, have gone bankrupt and had a vehicle repossessed. We tried to maintain everything, but the health and well being of our daughter had to come first. Five years ago, we owned two homes, had excellent credit and many dollars in the bank. We now reside in Maine and live paycheck to paycheck. Parents bear ALL the responsibility when their child becomes vaccine injured. PARENTS. Not the doctor, not the nurse, and most certainly not the pharmaceutical companies, who are protected from liability for vaccine injury.

Vaccine injury happens. It is a FACT that the Supreme Court of the United States upholds, as it has deemed vaccines “unavoidably unsafe” in a court ruling several years ago. Parents. Unavoidable risks.

I would like to thank you for reading this, and would like to make one last point. I vaccinated my child. Then it happened, right in front of my eyes. My daughter’s life was forever changed and her health and her future taken from her in the space of a few months. Her childhood, stolen. I will never forgive myself, as long as I live, for not researching vaccines before I injected them into my children.

"Meet my son Josh. He was SO wanted. After over a year and a half of trying we finally got the little bug. A funny day of my appointment on Dec 20th 2005 — The Dr. said my water was low and we would be having a baby today! I was induced that day and he waited until 12:34 a.m. to come out so I could have my Dec. 21st baby!! (We have our birthdays a week apart, Hubby – Dec 7th, Me Dec – 14th, Josh – Dec 21st and 7 weeks later is my older son’s Feb 8th. Cool right?! ) I had NO clue about that first Hepatitis B shot they give your kids in hospital. This was also before I realized what happened to many kids who get shots.

His first shot, Hep B, was given in the hospital without my consent- NON-STOP crying.

This is my bug after we got home. Those days were not fun. He did not sleep unless you held him and he would “scream” cry. He was very fussy and seemed to have a reddish face. I am guessing a rash from his vaccine. His legs were hot and he had a HUGE bump under his arm. Like a dummy I gave him Tylenol. I know how that was SO NOT good… poor bug.

I hate pacifiers… They SUCK… (no pun) but Josh was just very restless. He nursed but was just not very happy. Even the suckie did not help much.

At 2 months (Feb 2006) Josh went in for checkup. Like a good mommy I took him in, and shots? Oh heck ya. A good mommy gets her child shots (right?). She wants him to be healthy. Josh now is NOT SLEEPING even more. I have learned that my black lazy boy rocker is not too hard to sleep in (after you get used to it). I had a friend then I used to talk to during the long, sleepless nights. She was awake at 1, 2 or 4 AM etc., and I am so grateful I had somebody to talk to!!

I soon began noticing he wouldn’t respond to sounds. I even did the old pan and spoon trick… nothing. You could talk to him but he wouldn’t look at you, he only avoided eye contact. That sucks because he has the most wonderful eyes! Grey, and I love to look at them. His newborn test for hearing was ok. March 13, 2006 hearing test was ok. We even did another hearing test on November 14, 2007 and tested fine but with us he still didn’t respond to sounds and we are left asking ourselves if he can really hear.

What I did not know was my son was having seizures from that set of shots on Feb 21, 2006. The Dr. said it was not a seizure. The doctor’s explanation for Josh’s behaviors was that Josh was drinking cold milk (Um… I’m nursing? Impossible.), then he said it was a draft, or I’m just being too nervous. Anything but a seizure. We ended up firing her.

It was not all Hell at our house. We did have a few moments of good, just NEVER sleep. Josh simply didn’t sleep. At times he was up 3 days at a time. He would nap if I held him. Later on we found out he has Sensory Processing Disorder.

At 4 months old (4/24/06), Josh received Hib b, IPV, DTaP, and Pneumococcal conj (6 different vaccines). After the shots he was very fussy and he seemed to be shaking his head more than usual. He looked red again on his cheeks and had a high temperature. He was not my son. He was lost. I could tell that already. This should have told me something but I was getting ZERO sleep. My husband was working nights so I had stay downstairs during the day and keep quiet and at night I had to keep quiet so my older son could sleep for school and Josh was SO fussy. My life was a wreck.

Little did I know my life would get worse…

At his 6 month well-baby check-up I told the doctor Josh was having issues with head shaking and his eyes rolling back in his head. They did an EEG so his shots were delayed, THANK GOD! We were able to go home shot-free.

In the days after the EEG his head stopped doing the shaking thing and he seemed ok. The Dr. said he needed to get his shots. When the Health Department called I finally went in. On 6/29/06 he received IPV, Hib, Hep B, Pneumococcal conj. No DTaP so let’s see what happens. Slowly the head shaking, that so far ONLY I had seen, comes back. Everybody thought I was nuts because I wasn’t getting sleep. But I know what I saw and I knew my son was not normal. But, just after he was 6 months old we went to the fair. My older son noticed what I had been seeing happen with Josh. FINALLY somebody saw it happen!

In the next several months, Josh began talking some and had more eye contact. He even learned to undress himself! He began driving himself places in his little toy car and he even gave sleep a try! Yep, my bug was finally going places he had not been before. He was amazing. He had some words and he even let me know when he was wet. (Wahoo!!!) Everything was great… and then the health dept called again… “YOU need to catch up on that DTAP shot.”

At 11 ½ months old (12/07/06) – DtaP and Influenza. Immediately Josh’s head started shaking again and it looked like he was just “drugged out” all the time. He was always tired, but he would stay up ALL night. It was crazy… back to living in Hell… Judge shows, Animal Planet, and Mountain Dew became my best friends.
Josh was also SICK all the time. He was always on antibiotics for ear infections and would always have to take 2 rounds – and sometimes even another after that of a different kind because the first 2 didn’t work. It was so sad to see him. He stopped talking as much. It’s like the words he had learned were gone.

At 14 months old (3/14/07) Josh received the MMR and Pneumococcal conj. Red cheeks again…

At 15 months old (4/16/07), Josh received Varicella, Hep A, and hib b.

At 18 months old (6/18/07), Josh received DTaP. His words COMPLETELY STOPPED. It’s like my son is locked up in a box.

On 10/17/07, Josh received his Hep A shot. Where is my son? Where are his words? It was like he was out in a great big world and lost.

I feel like I let both of my kids down… Brandon was and IS such a good big brother. Josh was a hand full and in the first 2 years of his life it was HELL. I aged so much. It was like my son was stuck in a glass box.

These are two pictures from his Birthday and Christmas. What a bright fun toy! Doesn’t he just look thrilled (sarcasm)? ALL of his Birthday and Christmas pictures are like this.

Because of his Sensory Processing Disorder, we had to buy him a weighted blanket and special shoes. If his shoe came off he was a MESS! He would hold his foot like it had been cut off. When he was 18 months old he started therapy, 1 to 3 times a day, Mon thru Fri. It took so much out of me running from place to place, but we finally got a few words out of him. Nothing major, though. He would not let us kiss him, and if we did he wiped it off because of the wet feeling.

In March 2008 I made him a weighted blanket. It was so needed and it helped SO much. My bug was finally sleeping!! On Sunday, May 18, 2008, after YEARS of waiting I got my first kiss from Josh! He was kissing me! And I was in tears. I asked him, “May I have another?” and he gave me one! He actually understood!!!

On Tuesday, July 15, 2008 we had an appointment with Josh’s doctor… our son has autism. I was in shock. But as days went on I realized –yep… it is not all SPD. August of 2008 we got a DAN Dr. and a script – NO SHOTS!!

My marriage became really rocky, and it was so hard for us. We are still together now, but it has been so hard keeping our family together. I will never ever blame Josh for this… He is and always will be my number 1! My boys are my world and I love them. Josh is now 5 1/2. He is in kindergarten and he is learning to read. He loves to sing and has some great friends he loves to play with!

At a dinner with a developmental pediatrician in our town, the Dr. said that shots do not cause autism. My older son said, “B.S.!” I explained Josh’s issues to him with shots and he told me in Josh’s case it sounds like shots were an issue with his autism. WOW! He told me that in front of A TON of parents!! He also said to the group, “If your child has autism they won’t: go to prom, drive a car, have a good job, go to college…” I was shocked because MY SON WILL do all those things.

My son shows me how amazing he can be. I am finding him – slowly breaking that box he is stuck away in! He still has to have socks on to sleep and a weighted blanket. Josh LOVES roller coasters, fun parks, riding horses and painted faces.

Autism WONT stop my Josh. He is amazing.

Here are a few things we do to help him:

MB12 shot about every other day

2 Omega 3-6-9

2 Multi Vitamins


and about 300 kisses a day from me!!!

I am trying to find happy, for me, but this life is hard. I know he will be ok and now to make me ok. Autism is hard for every member of our family, not just Josh. I’ll never give up. He lives in a glass box. He can see out, I can see in. I am determined to get him out!

"I had always vaccinated and felt I was doing the right thing to keep my children healthy. I always trusted the Doctors. All that has changed for our family. We no longer vaccinate and have learned so much about the dangers of vaccines and their ingredients. Autism has affected our family in good and bad ways. The good ways are it has bought us closer as a family. We learned not to take things for granted because life can change in a instant. When others are upset that their children failed math or did not win the game, we are just glad that our Son looked at us today. That he smiled today. Autism has affected our family in bad ways also. We lost friends and family became distant. Our Church turned our Son away. They had a rule that children 3 years and up had to sit in the service. Well our Son could not with all the bright lights,large crowds, and loud noises. They physically hurt him. The Pastor told us they could not accommodate our Son and to find another Church that could. We can’t take our Son out a lot into stores and such. He has meltdowns all the time. We have heard very harsh comments from people and have realized how cruel the world is. We were in a restaurant and Josiah was banging 2 cups together. There were two loud televisions on also. It was a Pizza restaurant. The old woman behind us looked at her Daughter and said, “let’s move.” That was the first time I felt isolated. My Husband walked over to her and said, “I am sorry My Son has interrupted your meal, but he can’t help what the vaccines did to him.” Then he walked away. I was at the mall and had to take My Son into the bathroom to change him. There were some older teenagers or they were in their early 20’s in there. They had their purses and bags all over the changing table. I walked to the handicap bathroom to see if there was a changing table in it. There was not so I walked back and waited for them to move their bags. They did and as they were walking out one said “That kid is like 5 years old and still in diapers.” I picked My Son up and opened the door, but they were not in my sight. I knew My Husband could see them so I told him what happened and he said something to them. When we got home and were eating dinner Josiah started sobbing a very hurt cry. My Son can’t talk, but he can hear and we think that he was hurting because of what was said. When all the children were asleep My Husband and I sat at the table and cried.

Josiah is 5 now and will be 6 in November. He had a Genetic blood test done and the results were that nothing is wrong with him genetically. His Developmental Pediatrician told me that his Autism was Environmental and not Genetic. She then told me that only 15% of cases of Autism are Genetic. Josiah is till in Diapers. He has been on a Gluten and Casein Free diet since July 2010. He has been seeing a DAN! Doctor since June 2010. His eye contact is back. He says some words, mostly Daddy. He kisses and hugs. He is still scared of his bath and of pools. Josiah is on a 2 year waiting list for therapy. Josiah has Sensory Processing Disorder,PICA,OCD,Leaky Gut Disease, and Celiac’s Disease.

What would I say to Parents that vaccinate? Please do your research. Find out what is in these vaccines. Research how many were given when you were a child and look at how many are given now. Know that vaccines are drugs and all drugs have side effects. Each child will react differently to vaccines. A well known Pediatrician who has spoke out against vaccines told me that Pediatricians know not to double up on vaccines."

"Julia was born a happy and healthy baby on 12-28-05, weighing in at 8# 2oz (SMALL in comparison to her older brother, a 10 pounder!)…..It was a scheduled C section and after a few days we all went home. Life went on. Yes, two young kids was stressful, but I had NO IDEA what God was preparing me for. Julia never really slept through the night until she was 9 months old. At NINE months……REPRIEVE!!!!!! God was Good!

Julia went in for her 12 month appointment the day after Christmas – 12-26-06….yes, TWO days before her first birthday. I was told by the nurse that we could not do her vaccines that day, as it was two days too soon. I looked at her with a face of irritation. I had taken the day off of work (I am a veterinarian)….and I KNEW that two days would not make a difference, so I asked to speak with the Doctor about the issue. I spoke to him. He said we had a “window” and that it was likely OK to give her her vaccines. She got the proquad – MMR-V- from Merck (taken off the market six months later), and a hepatitis vaccine. She screamed and cried as to be expected – her big brother rubbing her head the whole time telling her it was to keep her “safe”. I will NEVER forget this day.

Eight days later, January 4th, 2007, Julia was sent home from daycare – not acting right, whining, inconsolable, febrile, etc…I was working a 12 hour shift that day, so my now ex husband picked her up from daycare……….fed her dinner, bathed her, and put her to bed at 7pm. I got home at 830pm. Actually a little grateful that she finally got some sleep. Little did I know what was coming.

January 5th, 2007. I was in the shower, getting ready for work, and my then husband went to get Julia ready for daycare. He came running in from her room with her in his arms. He was SCREAMING……I got out of the shower, soaking wet and naked, and looked at our baby. I thought she was dead. Blue. Cold. Head arched to one side. No response to her name. Covered in feces and vomit. We put her on the bed and saw that she was breathing very shallow breaths……I called 911. Then the “circus” began.

Long story short………….she was life flighted to Miami Children’s Hospital. She was in PICU unconscious for about 10 days. She was then transported to the Neurology Ward, and stayed for a total of about a month. Diagnosis – encephalitis. Severe temporal sclerosis over the right side of her brain. More areas of “less” severe injury in both frontal lobes of her brain. When she left, she was SEVERELY left sided hemiplegic, was aspirating food unless thickened, was unable to sit up or roll over, was nonverbal, and screamed and cried 22 out of 24 hours a day. Back again to NOT SLEEPING for over three years.

I asked about the vaccine. I am a Doctor. I have seen what vaccines have done to animals. I have CAUSED the reactions that have happened to animals. I KNEW. BUT, every Dr, except one, told me to not even consider the VICP. I went with my gut, and the words of my ONE pediatric supporter, and I filed.

Over four years later – we got her settlement. The money – whatever – grateful to have it, as her expenses are unexplainable. BUT I JUST WANT MY DAUGHTER BACK. I would pay back 100 times what we got to have my beautiful Julia the way she was meant to be. Don’t get me wrong – we love her as she is. However, some days it is just overwhelming. She has improved greatly, and is functioning at an (average) two year level (still no functional communication) – though will be six in December 2011……

So, we got a settlement. I lost my husband and the kids lost their father who moved over 2000 miles away following our divorce and sees his kids two to three times a year for a few hours. I lost my house. I lost my father who just didn’t understand why I couldn’t “get over it and move on” and now doesn’t speak to me. I have lost many friends. My son has lost his normal life – now being a caregiver for his sister at only 8 years old (by his own choosing – we don’t encourage that role – he is 8glasses). And MOST IMPORTANTLY, my daughter lost who she could have become. Again, who she is now – she is amazing – and she will change MANY people’s lives – so, I can live with that – but, wow, right now it is hard.

I met a man – single, never married, no kids, no baggage………….he stepped into our lives and has taken over the “dad” role like no other and I am forever grateful. How would I do this without him. Thank you Shawn for taking this on. I do not understand the reasons, but am thankful for it."

Kerri’s narrative (Kash’s mother):

On June 23rd, we took our son into the pediatrician’s office to receive his one-year vaccines. We were getting ready to go on vacation and we wanted to get it over with since they were already late. Just like most other parents, I dreaded these appointments. I couldn’t stand taking my sweet, smiling, cheerful child into the doctor to have him poked and prodded, but I didn’t know I had a choice. I ran a home-based child care facility and I thought immunizations had to be current for that, as well as future schooling, camps, etc. Kash is the youngest of 5 siblings, all of whom have been vaccinated, and we never had issues, so unfortunately, I didn’t put much thought into doing any of my own research.

Kash was immunized, I got him dressed, and we both left the doctors office in tears. The next morning I was cuddling with Kash when he first woke up, and he began to vomit. When he finished, I turned him over and tried to get him to communicate with me, or even respond, and I got nothing from him but a blank stare. His body was limp, he was staring off into space, and he wouldn’t even acknowledge his own name. Knowing something wasn’t right, we took him to the closest ER, which was about 5 minutes away. After evaluating him the attending physician told us that more than likely Kash had suffered a seizure due to “system overload” from his vaccines the day before. We were told to take him home, let him rest, keep an eye on him, but that everything SHOULD BE okay.

Above: The last picture taken of Kash before his PICU emergency.

A couple of days later we left for our family vacation. Eight hours of driving and Kash screamed all the way. We couldn’t figure out what was going on because he was always such a delightful and passive child, and this was completely out of the norm for him. Over the next week, Kash was extremely fussy, broke out in a rash, and ran a fever. With any change in his personality or health, I called back home to his pediatrician who instructed me to treat with Benadryl and Tylenol. After a week of being on vacation with a fussy child and not in our own environment, it was time to make the long trip back home. Once again, eight hours in the car, and eight hours of Kash screaming. By the time we got home, we were all exhausted and decided to go to bed.

The following day, July 4th 2010, Kash woke up fussy and running a slight fever. I got up with him, gave him a dose of Motrin, and since we had a big day of celebrating ahead of us, I decided to lay down and take a nap with Kash. I took him into my room to nap with me while my husband and our other children went about their day. About an hour later, I was awoken by the most horrifying sound that I’ve ever heard….it was my baby screaming and convulsing at the same time. I shook him and screamed his name several times, neither of which he responded to. I didn’t know what to do, so I screamed for my husband to help, grabbed my baby and began to run up the stairs with him.

I got about half way up the stairs before my husband met me. Both of us have some medical knowledge and we know that seizures shouldn’t last long, so we stood in the kitchen holding Kash, trying to comfort him, saying his name, trying to do anything to get him to come out of the seizure, but he didn’t. After a couple of minutes we decided it was best for me to stay with the other children while my husband took Kash to the nearest ER, which thank GOD is only about 5 minutes away.

Cody’s narrative (Kash’s father):

On the 4th Kash and Kerri had awoken early so they took a nap together. About 45 minutes after they went down I heard my wife scream my name along with the word “help”. I met her half way up the stairs with Kash in her arms and he was convulsing and unresponsive. I know this sounds terrible but at the time it seemed best and it was the decision I made, I put Kash in my lap and drove as fast as I could to the E.R. (about 5 miles from our home, I really felt I could get him there faster than an ambulance could arrive at our home). The drive to the hospital felt like hours and I spoke to Kash……yelled a few times to try and get him to come to. We arrived at the hospital and I jumped out with Kash and ran in through the ambulatory entrance where the receptionist started to tell me that I would need to enter through the front door but I interrupted her with all I could get out, “help my son is having a seizure”…

No time was wasted we were in a room and had 3 nurses and the doctor that was on in the room with us right away, I remember thinking that I felt guilty about all the other patients that were going to have to wait because we demanded all the attention for something that would have probably resolved itself (odd thought process and I was WRONG). We had to estimate his weight for medication because the seizure was too violent to get a good weight using the scales. The staff tried to get a line in but could not because his veins were too small and as I previously stated he was convulsing, violently, so the doctor informed me that they would have to “drill” a small hole into his shin. I remembered arguing with him that it would to painful for him and the doctor told me that in his current state he wouldn’t feel a thing. So with the hole drilled and the line started they pushed the first dose, the drug was something similar to a Valium. The doctor told me the drug would work very fast and he would come out of the seizure quickly. At this point of the visit, Kash had been seizing for about 12 minutes and 5 minutes later the doctor whispered something to a nurse and she quickly left the room. The doctor turned to me and told me that the medication didn’t work and that they would have to administer another dose and then told me something that didn’t register because I was distracted by the nurse that had just left the room returning with the crash cart. This is all a little fuzzy but I know Kerri was still home waiting for someone to come for the other kids and my mom had just arrived when I asked why they brought the crash cart in.nThe doctor told me for the second time that this second dose of medication would stop his breathing……Once again I argued with the doctor, “don’t give him the medicine then”, and the doctor told me that seizures should never last this long (we were now at the 20 minute mark) and the longer he remains seizing the higher the chance of permanent neurological damage. So the second dose went in and he stopped breathing.

This is the part of the story that I usually stop talking at, when the lump in my throat gets too big to talk through and I know if I blink a tear will fall. I hadn’t noticed the large man, that looked more like a bouncer than a respiratory specialist, that had entered the room until he began bagging my son. Kerri arrived right around this time and so did my realization that Kash wasn’t coming home today as I finally inventoried my surroundings and noticed nurses were beginning to cry.

Sorry this is so long. Obviously, this is a story I get very involved in telling, but I will fast forward for you.

Kash spent the next ten days in a coma and it was during this time that we began educating ourselves on the risks of vaccines. Bad timing considering we were too late to do anything now and we got to learn that IF Kash ever woke up he faced certain brain damage and could be a vegetable. That was IF he woke up.

Kerri was my rock, I know I should have been that one but when it comes to my kids I am soft, cotton ball soft. Kerri is also soft when it comes to the kids but she is a much better actor than I am. How can someone be so tough but have such a soft touch? She left the hospital twice, once to shower (then she found out she could use the showers there) and the second time she left to take the other kids to dinner (Kash was in the Pediatric intensive care unit — where kids are not allowed).

It was in the PICU that we met several other very ill children and their families. There were some great stories of recovery that we got to watch as we waited for Kash to wake up… there were also some very sad stories that we were on the same floor with. In the PICU we learned about the hand plates, the same hand plates that you remember making and may still have from your childhood or maybe hand plates with your own children’s palms on them. These hand plate kits were there for the children that would not make it home. They were there to make a hand print for you to take home after your child had lost their fight. The same day we learned about the hand plates the hospital chaplain came by and I remember I got very angry because on TV they only come by to bless or baptize the dying. Again, I was wrong, I asked Kerri, “what the hell is he doing here?” and she informed me that he had been by everyday to pray with Kash.

FAST FORWARD and Kash woke up. He battled seizures for the first several days until they got him on an appropriate dose and schedule to keep the seizures at bay. Kash had reverted back to a newborn. He had no muscle strength or control (couldn’t even hold his head up) and had lost the words that he had begun to say before the seizure. BUT OUR KASH WOKE UP AND CAME BACK TO US.

Kerri’s narrative:

FAST FORWARD. A year later Kash is two and still doesn’t have many spoken words; he can actually sign more than he speaks. Kash is running, laughing, smiling, crying and gives us kisses. He did wake up a little different from before and not just with the loss of speech, or the left sided weakness, but he NEVER gave my husband kisses before the seizure just myself. Now, my husband and I get more kisses than we can manage with one face. Kash has speech therapy every week, has a state funded therapist that comes out an additional two times a month for speech, PT, and OT, sees a Neurologist, and also goes to a Spasticity specialist. We are also in the process of getting him into see a pediatric stroke specialist because during his coma, Kash also suffered a stroke and has left him with left side weakness. With Kash turning 3 in May, he will also begin his adventure in school, and will be placed in a special needs education class. With all that Kash and our family has been through, looking at his face is a constant reminder of the second chance of life that we have been given. Kash is living proof that God still performs miracles. I will NOT be passive in my journey with a vaccine-injured child. I will use this as a chance to educate other parents, future parents, grandparents, and anyone else that will listen.

"Dear Keelan,

It’s been 4 long years since I have last seen your sweet little face and heard your contagious laughter. I’m already in tears just remembering those days. It’s easy for me talk about you and what an amazing, smart little boy you were, but talking about 2 particular moments in your life is not as easy for me. The first, the day you suffered a very serious, painful, and frightening reaction to your immunizations, and second, your death. The two are not necessarily related – one did not cause the other, and yet they are forever intertwined. I hope to explain why in this letter to you.

You were born a healthy 7 pound 8 ounce baby. You loved to nurse and sleep in your daddy’s arms. Everything changed on March 5, 2007 at around 2pm when you received your first round of immunizations. You received Pediarix (a combination shot containing 5 vaccines: Diphtheria, Tetanus, Pertussis, Polio, and Hepatitis B), Hib, and Pneumococcal. 7 vaccines in 3 injections were pumped into your little legs in just a matter of seconds. From the moment you were “poked”, as the nurse so gently put it, you began to cry. Our nurse assured us you would calm down and to administer a dose of Tylenol or ibuprofen when we got you home. She left and I tried to nurse you before putting you back in your car seat. You refused to nursed and only wriggled and writhed in my arms as I tried to console you. I tried in earnest to settle you down, but could not, so I put you into your car seat and left hoping you would settle down in the car. We had been through vaccinations with your older sister, and I admit, I felt confident you would be ok. Nothing ever went “wrong” with hers.

Above: Big sister, Ellie, holding her new brother, Keelan

The ride home proved useless to console you. I brought you into the house, my feelings of worry lessening thinking you were just hungry. I carefully administered a small amount of ibuprofen. You choked a little but swallowed it. As I went to unsnap you from your car seat, my mere touch sent you into a high pitched screaming. If only I had known that your brain was beginning to painfully swell due to the mass quantity of chemicals, toxins, and metals that had reached your brain. Dread began to rise in my heart as I lifted you out and tried to nurse you. You, again, refused to eat and your screaming began to turn into airy rasps. I could clearly see you were in pain, unlike anything I had ever seen before. I placed you in your bassinet and called the doctor’s office, telling them what was happening. The nurse assured me you were okay, that this kind of reaction was common. She told me to give you another dose of ibuprofen and to rub the injection spots on your legs. I didn’t do either. I felt I had put enough foreign chemicals into your body, and I feared an overdose of ibuprofen. Massaging your legs seemed out of the question. I felt helpless as you continued to scream. Your older sister looked traumatized watching you. She was scared for you, too. After 4 hours of continuous screaming, Daddy came home from work. He tried everything he could. He held you in those special ways you loved so much, he encouraged me to nurse you again, but to no avail. At one point, I lied you down on the floor and leaned over the top of you since my touch seemed to trigger more pain. You nursed for a minute or two, but then refused again.

I called the “Ask A Nurse” at a local hospital, frantic and in tears. You had been crying for 6 hours now, continuously. The nurse tried to tell me ways to soothe a crying baby, and told me to call back if you didn’t stop after I tried several things. I tried them all: a warm bathe, a cool rag on your hot forehead, a gentle tummy massage, swaddling, walking, etc. Nothing helped. I called back after 2 hours and spoke to a gentleman nurse. He asked me ridiculous questions like, “Is he gassy? Is he teething? Did you pinch his finger?” None of them made sense, and no one seemed to listen to me when I told them this all started the moment after your vaccinations.

You continued to cry until about midnight — 10 straight hours of non-stop crying. My heart ached for you. You seemed so tired and worn out it was almost like you passed out, but you were breathing — and silent. I let you sleep. You woke up every 30 minutes to an hour crying a high pitched squeal – one I had never heard before your vaccinations– but I was always able to get you back to sleep.

As soon as the doctor’s office opened the next morning, I called. I talked again to the nurse and told her about how the evening had gone. She assured me you were fine. She said they see that type of reaction a lot. She told me that if you reacted that way again after your next round of immunizations that they would consider splitting up the doses. From that moment on I have given hours and hours of research to the topic of vaccines. I am so confident now that vaccines are not appropriate for children or adults. They cause more problems than they solve.

After those shots, you were never the same. You always seemed inconsolable, as if you were in pain. Days at home were so hard, and you seemed to never be able to get enough hugs (which I loved). As you got older, it always seemed like you thought something was inside your head. You would occasionally bang it on the floor, the wall, or with your hands. And soon after the shots is when you started to have those seizures. I didn’t realize that’s what they were until long after, but those moments when you would just snap out of reality and stare at absolutely nothing for several seconds? Those were staring seizures. You would be mid-laugh, or mid-cry, and suddenly stop and stare for so long and then continue laughing or crying several seconds later. I hope those didn’t hurt. I wish I could have saved you from all that.

When you were a year and a half old, you were placed in the arms of our Heavenly Father. There’s now a hole in my heart that will never be filled. That was the hardest day (and following year) of my entire life. I have experienced first-hand 2 of the many feared questions parents raise with themselves today: “What if my child suffers a serious and painful vaccine reaction?” and “What if my child dies?” If I had done my research before I ever took you (or your sister) into that doctor’s office, I could have spared you so much pain. You suffered for over a year. I have no idea what was going on inside your body, but I know it was painful at times. I am grateful that despite these challenges, you still developed normally and we have so many happy and fun moments to remember. You started walking at only 9 months and talking 3 word sentences by the time you passed away. I was so proud of, and I’m so lucky to be your mom.

My prayer is that your story might help another child, somewhere in this world. My prayer is that your story might urge at least one parent, somewhere, to question vaccines and to go beyond “what the doctor says.” My prayer is that so many thousands of children don’t suffer and/or die in vain. Vaccines are dangerous, and my child isn’t worth the risk. I’m sorry I didn’t know this before your tragedy, Keelan.

‘Til we meet again, my little man.

I love you with all my heart,

"Landon was born in late November of 1999. He was our third child, a surprise. He joined an older sister, then 6, and an older brother who had just turned 2. The pregnancy was harder than my previous two, although not difficult or high risk…it was just different. I felt more nauseous, more tired than previously. I believe Landon’s eventual outcome, a diagnosis of autism, began while still in utero. He was exposed to mercury through an amalgam I received late that summer and I also received the flu shot with that pregnancy. I had not done either with the other two pregnancies.

I remember going into the hospital on the morning he was born, I was being induced. He was a week over due at this point. I did not expect it to “work” that morning. Landon was born early that afternoon. Labor went quickly and he was born quickly. He weighed 8lbs 12oz and was 22 inches long. He had lots of dark hair and extremely dark blue eyes, they looked navy blue. He appeared normal, and healthy at birth. His apgar scores were normal. He nursed well, cried some, slept and did everything a newborn does. He cried heavily with the injection of the Vitamin K shot, and the Hep B. These are the third and fourth assaults on his tiny body.

We took him home after the required 48 hours in the hospital. All was well, until New Year’s Day of 2000. He was just about 5 weeks old. He was feverish, and his breathing was labored. I took him to the hospital where he tested positive for RSV. He remained in the hospital for a week, where he received large quantities of antibiotics and inhaled steroids. This is, I believe, the fifth assault on his body. Even then, I thought this was too much for such a young baby to handle or take on. His health was never the same after that illness.


Above: Landon before Autism diagnosis

He received all vaccinations on time, according to the CDC schedule at the time. Every month we were in the doctor’s office for an illness. He was hardly ever well. Respiratory infections, ear infections, fevers of unknown origin. Round after round of antibiotics. February of 2001 he was back in the hospital, this time it was vomiting and diarrhea with no known cause. He was there another week. He lost some weight, but gained back quickly.

Despite all of this, at this time, he appeared to be a happy, social boy. His development, while sometimes the last to meet his milestones, was within normal range. He did show allergies to eggs, and milk at an early age. He would have what appeared to be severe gas and stomach pains. There’s so much I didn’t know at the time and even now as I write this, memories come flooding back of the severe pain my son was in and other things I did not notice. The high pitch screaming, the arching of his back, the sleeplessness OR being too sleepy. The constipation that started when he was still an infant, but he would also have diarrhea. He did not tolerate going to places like grocery stores or Wal-Mart very well. He would cry, try to climb out of his cart. I believe now it was sensory overload for him. He would also have little or NO reaction to very loud sounds, and did not cry when hurt.

As a baby, he made great eye contact, played, interacted. He had great aim with a ball, could throw right to you. He laughed, squealed and was a part of our family in every way. He was not an easy child, but I just attributed that to having a different personality. The signs were there, obsessions with light switches, lining things up, clumsiness, and eventually he stopped making progress. According to doctor’s records, his development started to slow down and milestones were not being met on or around the age of 15 months. After he received his MMR.

Landon was diagnosed with Autism in late 2004. His younger brother, Liam, was just a few months old. I had already started vaccinating him. Liam was diagnosed with Asthma at age 6 months. I think it was just a blessing from God, that I don’t have a second son with Autism. The asthma diagnosis was not a happy time, but we have managed it and he is doing fine. He has not received any vaccinations beyond 1 year.

About 6 months to a year after Landon’s diagnosis, I dove head first into research. We had been trying prescription meds and they were not working. The effect would wear off and the dose would be increased. The potential side effects scared me and I started to see signs of Tardive Dyskinesia. I stayed up late, spent every free moment I could reading about Autism. I remember soon after Landon got his diagnosis, I heard something about a vaccine connection. I didn’t put much thought into it. I wish I had at the time. Once I finally did and I researched it for myself, looking up the ingredients from the CDC website, researching each and every one of them…I was disgusted, appalled and mad. Really mad. I felt so stupid. So guilty. But also, so fooled.

Injecting this stuff into the body’s of my children was not in their best interest and it truly went against ALL that I believe in as a Christian. In June of 2006, we began the GFCF diet with him. We noticed some improvements right away. Unfortunately, after a year on the diet, he declined. He lost weight, and some behaviors returned. We have taken him to see a DAN! doctor, but it’s been difficult financially. We have other children to care for, 6 in all, and income has been limited. We have not had any big “wows” with bio-med, but I continue with it and the diet because I know that eating healthy and taking some supplements is what’s best for him.

Landon is now 11 years old. He has additional diagnoses of Hypotonia, PANDAS, MTHFR mutation, immune dysfunction, speech delay, fine and gross motor delay. He is thin, and it is difficult to get him to gain despite a VERY healthy appetite. He struggles cognitively and socially. He still has nights he can’t go to sleep, and mornings where he sleeps in very late. He has severe anxiety and flares of OCD. He is on a rotation diet due to food allergies.

We have had two more children since Liam was born in 2004. Lauren was born in August 2008 and is a happy, healthy, UNvaccinated 3 year old. She’s had a couple of colds, but that’s it. Her development has exceeded our expectations. We could tell a difference in her early on. I had another son in February of 2011. He will remain UNvaccinated as well. His development is advanced. He is a happy, very healthy boy.

If you are pregnant, or planning on becoming pregnant, or have just had a baby…I URGE you, please research vaccine safety for yourself. They are not a “one size fits all” intervention. They have side effects and you won’t know if your child is at risk until it is too late.

I have learned so much on this journey, met some wonderful people. I have read about things I have never even heard of, and learned things I thought I would never have to learn. I also believe that this knowledge has helped me with my other children. The regrets are always there, and some days they seem so big. It was difficult to write this as so many memories surfaced and the tears flowed. I hope our story helps someone. Children are not “acceptable losses” and they are not just a part of the “herd”. They are gifts and blessings from God, and it is up to us to protect them and teach them.



This is Lily’s story, as told by her mother. Lily was born perfectly healthy in 2003 and was a happy, precocious baby who was advanced in meeting all of her developmental milestones. By 9 months old she had been crawling for 2 months and was well on her way to walking.
Lily was born perfectly healthy in 2003 and was a happy, precocious baby who was advanced in meeting all of her developmental milestones. By 9 months old she had been crawling for 2 months and was well on her way to walking.
After her 9 month vaccinations where she received a 4th dose of the Hep B shot, Lily was a different child. She became very clumsy after immediately getting sick after the vaccine. She became agitated and seemed to be in pain all the time in addition to being severely constipated. She went on to receive her 12 month vaccines but continued in a downward spiral of one infection after another, and unexplained crying for hours and hours at a time. She was slowly drifting away from us socially and emotionally as well.
By her 15 month vaccinations, which included the MMR, I remember Lily saying a few days later, “It hurts” and holding her stomach. Within several weeks after, she became completely non-responsive, to the point that we thought she may be deaf. She didn’t utter words for a very very long time. At 25 months old, Lily was diagnosed with autism. We now know too late that Lily suffered all the signs of vaccine injury. We would have realized if we had known to read the package inserts, but we were never alerted by her pediatrician, even though we were in the office almost every week for months.
I can’t begin to put into words how much our family has been devastated financially and emotionally by autism. We have spent thousands and thousands of dollars trying to undo the damage for Lily with biomedical and homeopathic therapies that aren’t covered by insurance. I couldn’t work for many years mainly because I had to be home to oversee therapies because no one else knew how to manage my child. Her siblings have never experienced anything close to a normal childhood because we are prisoners in our own home. We can’t travel anywhere or do anything that a normal family does. There is no Disney World or extended family vacations for us.

At age 10, Lily has benefited from years of therapy to improve her physical health. She still has autism.
Lily has come very far with the help of diet, biomedical treatments, homeopathy and our undying love, but she is still minimally verbal. What breaks my heart is that this didn’t have to happen to her and so many other children.

This is LoRenzo’s story, as told by his mother.

I would like to take this opportunity to tell you about my son, LoRenzo and my personal issues concerning the government’s role in dealing with the injuries my son has acquired through vaccines. I don’t consider my story anecdotal as I am an expert when it comes to my son. I was advised that the flu shot was a good thing when I was pregnant for my son. I of course, blindly trusted that as fact. I did not know the ingredients of said vaccine nor was I offered an insert listing the ingredients, side effects, or recommendations. Had that one thing happened, I may not have been writing this.

I got the shot and was violently ill. When LoRenzo was hours old he received the HepB shot which is an unnecessary vaccine for an infant. He was a lethargic baby and did not cry. At 2 months he received multiple vaccines and lost the ability to have bowel movements. He then cried all the time. At 4 months he stopped responding to noises, cooing, and lost eye contact. At 6 months he stopped crying unless he was in pain from not being able to poop. This was awful since crying was the only way he could communicate. I had to guess if he was hungry and constantly check to see if he was wet.

LoRenzo’s development was very slow from there. He could not hold his head up by himself or sit up by the time he was 10 months. He didn’t walk until 17 months. When he learned how to walk, he would stay in the corner of any given room because the world was just too big for him. He preferred to be in his crib or playpen until he was 2yrs old and he still could not talk.

At every “well baby” check I brought up my concerns citing these things happened after every vaccine but was told boys developed slower and to wait it out. Finally at 2½ yrs a friend of my sister’s told her my son had Autism after she heard that he had not had an unassisted BM since he was an infant. My doctor didn’t give me this info, a parent did. When I took th

is concern to the pediatricians, I was then told she had suspected this all along but didn’t think I was ready for the news!? He was sent to the local children’s hospital where they said it was too soon to diagnose his delay and that again vaccines were not to blame. They tested his genetics, mine, his father’s and came up with nothing. Mind you, NOBODY in either family had any kind of connection to Autism, until my son.

LoRenzo will be 9 this December. My son can only speak a handful of 4-5 word sentences. He was not potty trained until he was 6. He is hypersensitive to light, textures, noise, and even certain foods. I am on disability and cannot afford any treatment to help my son.

I did what the CDC recommended and held him down to receive multiple doses of poison only to find out that LoRenzo was at high risk – yes, he is also African-American. I told his doctor of my concerns at 8 weeks! “Wait it out” is what I was told over and over again. Now at soon to be 9 my son is Autistic, resources are next to nothing, and there is no recourse, no compensation for having to wait it out! Early intervention is key they say, yet “they” are very slow to give the parents a definitive diagnosis. I have found that I am not the only parent who feels this way. It may be too late for my son but I shouldn’t have to accept that, until all avenues of healing are explored with the expense being picked up by those who knowingly caused the harm.

To Congressman Bill Posey: Thank you for your action in this matter and please stay vigilant as the number of Autism parents is rising. Our rights to refuse vaccines should be respected until such a time a truly unbiased study on vaccinated vs unvaccinated is done.

Nathan’s story was shared by his mother.

Nathan’s story starts in October 2000, when I was pregnant with my fourth child. I went to the pediatrician’s office to have the doctor get ready to take on my 4th child. She noticed that my son Nathan was not up to date on his vaccines, so as a favor to us she decided it would be a good idea to catch Nathan up, since I was getting ready to deliver my baby. That day Nathan received his before, during, and after vaccines in one day.
Nathan was never the same. He went in perfectly healthy and left a very different little boy.
He had this head-to-toe body rash that looked like he had the measles. Then it would blister like chickenpox and start all over again. He had this rash for three years.
Two weeks after Nathan received the vaccines, on October 31st, I had my 4th child. I learned a few years later that Nathan’s MMR was recalled on that day.
Nathan continued to get worse. He had fevers of above 100 degrees daily. He would scream in so much pain, he was inconsolable. He couldn’t talk anymore and he couldn’t even walk without falling down.
He didn’t get better.
His rash was so bad that he had three biopsies done and over 200 dermatologists couldn’t figure it out. Finally the CDC was called and ended up doing a deep tissue biopsy of his rash. The findings pointed to his vaccines. Again.
Nathan kept getting worse. He was so sick.
I had 4 kids but Nathan took up all of my time. That Christmas Eve (2000), we spent the night in the hospital E.R. because Nathan scratched his rash and it became infected.
In January of 2001, Nathan’s blood work indicated leukemia. Later I found out that leukemia was on the rise after the MMR was given. Long story short, Nathan ended up having 3 biopsies of his rash, one of which was performed by the CDC. He also had an optic nerve biopsy, which indicated Central Nervous System Insult resulting from the vaccines. There were many MRIs, EEGs, spinal taps, and blood draws, and at one point he had spent more than half his life in a hospital.
Finally, in April of 2003, one of Nathan’s ELEVEN doctors grabbed my hand and said, “Nathan is very sick.” I asked him if Nathan could die. The doctor looked me in the eye and said, “Yes.”
I went in for preventative medicine and came out being told Nathan could die?
The strain of Nathan’s care was too much. My husband of 12 years left me and the kids. I missed my oldest son’s first day of high school and my oldest daughter’s first day of kindergarten because Nathan was in ICU.

I brought him home from the ICU after the doctor said, “Take him home and make him comfortable.”

In the photo above, I was so exhausted, holding onto him, but I wouldn’t let him go. The red mark on my hand was from me holding him down so he wouldn’t pull out his IVs. I personally don’t like this photograph because of the memories… but many families find find comfort in it, find hope. I pray that you share this with everyone so that they may know my story, but also so that they may find hope.
I even had to put my newborn in daycare. I have never had any of my kids, not even once, have a babysitter, and here I was was, forced to put her in daycare. I felt like the worst mother ever. I felt like I had given her away.
… a longer story short… During the time between 2000 and 2003, Nathan’s doctors wouldn’t treat him. They left him in miserable pain. It wasn’t until November of 2003 that Nathan’s care was finally put into the hands of someone who cared. That was when I attended my first DAN Conference.
Nathan was on the road to recovery.
Fast forward again…
During the time Nathan required 24-hour care, my other children were put on the back burner. Not by choice but through necessity. I ended up having to sacrifice my other kids to save the one. My oldest son said, “The day Nathan got sick was the day I lost my mom.”
My daughter, Dominique, made a video for her Honors English Class about what it’s like to have a brother with autism. Please watch it and share with anyone and everyone. I’m letting you know now, grab a tissue. It’s powerful. This video is a testimony to the struggles our entire family has had to go through. We still face problems.
My youngest, Veruschka, has had to watch her brother be bullied at school.
I have raised four kids alone and almost lost my son because I trusted the wrong people.
Autism has affected us in every way.

"My name is Alison MacNeil. My son Nick became Autistic following his 15 month shots in 2006.

This is a segment on Nick’s vaccine injury in a PBS Autism documentary I put together with my father, Robert MacNeil formerly of the NewsHour, three years ago.

After a healthy pregnancy Nick was born one month early by C-section at Beth Israel Deaconness Hospital in Boston, MA 11/12/04. He was in the Nicu for 12 hours for observation. He received oxygen for 30 minutes on a C-pap machine and two anti-biotics by IV, in the chance my early labor had been caused by Sepsis. It had not. He was born 6 lbs 9 oz and his Apgar scores were good.

Within 30 minutes of being brought to me from the Nicu he was given the Hep B vaccine. We were discharged together four days later. Nick latched and nursed beautifully. He was a well-regulated and happy baby. He slept well and delighted in watching his sister. He flirted with everybody over my shoulder and was meeting milestones beautifully.

We vaccinated Nick exactly according to schedule as we had his older sister.

Between eight and nine months Nick began talking. He also received 2 infant flu shots at one month apart and another Hep B shot. Looking back at photographs I can see that this was when the lights began to dim. He lost his smile and began to have back to back upper respiratory infections. At his first birthday I noticed he still had the first three words but he wasn’t gaining new ones. Between 12-15 months he had several bad upper respiratory colds. We gave him Tylenol quite a bit more than I had needed to with my daughter.

At Nick’s 15 month appointment the Nurse Practitioner commented at what a busy, happy baby he was, noting in the chart that he was on track for all of his milestones. She then gave him the DTtaP, MMR and a version of the Hib called the TriHib.

This photo was taken 10 days after Nick received the MMR, DTaP, and TriHib vaccines at 15 months.

Within three days Nick developed an extremely bad cold with a croupy cough with a whoop to it. He had a high fever, was lethargic and very, very irritable. Around the tenth day he was inconsolable and I couldn’t put him down, he screamed constantly, tugged at his ears and coughed incessantly. I was alarmed. That night he finally fell asleep and so did I around 10pm. At 11pm our German Shepherd woke me up because he was scratching at Nick’s door whining and barking. I went to scold the dog and checked on Nick whose lips had turned blue and he was struggling to breath. I wrapped him in his father’s down jacket next to the door and raced one block on foot to the community hospital near our house.

They gave him a shot of Decadron almost immediately after we arrived and put him on back to back nebulizers. They discharged us around 3am and had put him on an anti-biotic. They told me he needed to be seen by a pediatrician the next day outpatient. It was Sunday so I was sent to the on-call of our practice which happened to be a very prominent retired pediatrician in Boston who only did weekend, on-call coverage. He examined Nick and said, “you do realize you have a very sick boy here.” He told me Nick had a double ear infections and Bronchitis.

I gave Nick the antibiotic as prescribed, but Nick did not improve. One week later I took him in to see the Nurse for a sick visit. She said “yes Nick’s ears were full of fluid but that was to be expected after an ear infection. She said I was over-reacting because I had told her I had recently had a miscarriage.” She put Nick on Augmentin. Between 15-18 months I contacted our pediatrician six times, we were given multiple back to back courses of anti-biotics, Nick was seen repeatedly for sick visits. During this time I was told he had bad upper respiratory infections.

During this time Nick lost all eye contact. He didn’t notice if you walked in the room. He just sat about twelve feet from the tv staring at the screen. He also became obsessed with watching the spinning clothes in the washing machine, would spin his sister’s doll plates and would press his ears to the warm clothes dryer. He lost the speech he had. He had putrid, foul diarrhea, often as many as ten episodes a day all the way up his back and down to his knees, sometimes it was just liquid. He got terrible blisters from this diarrhea, once with a wound that bled and left a scar. He would only eat goldfish crackers, yogurt and chicken nuggets. He screamed and cried all day. He was very irritable. He would stare into space for long spells and his eyes wouldn’t shift if you put your hand in front of them. He was gone.

About six times during this time he would scream out in his sleep a feral cry I had never heard before as a mother. It was like nothing I had ever heard in my life, so high pitched and intense. I would race to his crib and he wouldn’t recognize me. I would hold him and he would lurch backwards out of my arms with incredible force, I was afraid a few times I might drop him. In these episodes he wouldn’t know how to latch on to nurse even though he’d been nursing for 16 months. It would take an hour or longer to calm him back to sleep. My pediatrician assured me these were night terrors. I now know he was having an encephalitic reaction in his brain. My pediatrician also told me the diarrhea was “toddler diarrhea” because he drank too much juice.” We never gave Nick any juice.

At 18 months I took Nick back to his pediatrician for his scheduled visit and I laid out all of my concerns. My pediatrician looked visibly panicked when he saw what terrible shape Nick was in. He ordered blood work, did a lead test and wrote “rule out autism” on his medical record.

We went from “meeting all his milestones to rule out autism” in three months after his 15 month shots.

Nick was in fact diagnosed with Moderate Autism at 21 months old. Nick was subsequently diagnosed with: Absence Seizures, Lymphoid Nodular Hyperplasia of the Small Intestine, Hypothyroid, Mitochondrial Dysfunction, Severe Gut Dysbiosis, Auditory and Visual Processing Delays.

At 4 years old, Nick wore a fireman's coat and sat next to the fence throughout his entire summer program.
At 4 years old, Nick wore a fireman’s coat and sat next to the fence throughout his entire summer program.

In 2010 Nick received the most complete Genetic Micro-array at the Cleveland Clinic with Dr. Natowicz. He was unable to find even one deletion. Nick did not have one genetic marker for autism.

Nick is nine years old now and has made nice improvements in his health but remains Moderately Autistic. We spend on average $30k out of pocket on Nick’s healthcare each year. Nick is in a substantially separate classroom with a 1:1 much of the day.

At 9 years, Nick remains moderately autistic, but thanks to years of hard work to repair his body, from severe vaccine-injury his physical health is now substantially improved.

We stopped vaccinating Nick when he was two years old. We no longer vaccinate as a family.

I can’t put into words the suffering Nick has been through, the deep regret that I have for listening to our pediatrician who gave us such poor care, my guilt over not picking up on the signals that we were making this child sick with vaccines and anti-biotics, my fear about what his life will be like as an adult and after my husband and I die.

Nick’s Autism was preventable. He was born healthy and 36 shots concluding at 15 months took his future away and gave him Autism.

I want justice for my son. I want the people responsible for hurting him to be held accountable. I want this dangerous vaccine schedule to be re-examined and modified immediately so that not one more child be harmed.

By the way, my former pediatrician, who did all of this damage, teaches in the Harvard Medical School Pediatrics program – so that’s as good as you get these days I guess."

Alison MacNeil

"On January 29th, 2011, I went to a gynecological appointment with my fiancé to discuss birth control pills and get my first set of HPV Gardasil vaccinations. I believed the vaccine was important. I personally had never taken the time to research vaccinations or Gardasil. I believed it was a part of the ‘healthcare’ system. I had seen the commercials and wanted to be ‘one less girl’ affected by cervical cancer. I didn’t know the ingredients, the real statistics on HPV, cervical cancer, or even how long it had been studied and tested. I knew nothing about the vaccine but trusted my doctors.

My Health before Gardasil
Prior to that visit, I had been dealing with spine issues and pain since I was a teenager. In October of 2010 I had another injury that put me out of work and aggravated my spine issues. I was prescribed heavy doses of muscle relaxers. I had been taking those medications for the six months prior, but had weaned myself off a couple weeks before my Ob/Gyn checkup. The muscle relaxers were causing gastrointestinal (GI) complications in my body, exacerbating GI issues I already had. I thought this appointment would be beneficial and I was happy I had weaned off muscle relaxers two weeks prior. I was hoping to keep what small progress I had going.

My First Gardasil Injection
Within the first few days and for the week after the Gardasil shot, I was bedridden and sick with what we thought was a bad flu. It was also possible I was having a reaction from the muscle relaxer withdrawal or the side effects of my newly prescribed birth control pills. I stopped taking the birth control pills after eight days and my symptoms worsened.

My mother and fiancé remember the physical changes when I wasn’t feeling well, but those few days after Gardasil have blurred together for me. I was so sick. The next days, weeks and months to come, I experienced the worst nausea, weakness and most severe pain in every crevice of my stomach and body that I have ever felt in my life. Even the other stomach sensitivities and spine/back issues I had experienced previously paled in comparison to what happened to me after getting Gardasil.

The Doctors
We went to every doctor appointment and tested everything we possibly could. The tests kept coming back ‘fine’. (Ironically, they never tested for heavy metal poisoning, which we found later I had. If any doctor would have known those symptoms, I had nearly all of them, perhaps I wouldn’t have suffered for so long.) None of the doctors said there could be any connection with Gardasil, but we suspected otherwise. In fact, most told us just the opposite; that my symptoms were definitely not caused by Gardasil. It was not until blood tests taken outside of my doctor’s office nine months later that we discovered the toxic stress, heavy metal poisoning and other toxins were filtering through my bloodstream. (Gardasil ingredients included; we finally connected it with certainty here.)

The Pain and Nausea
During this period of many months, for twenty four hours a day, every moment of my life, I was nauseas, sick to my stomach and alternating puking. I could not drink water or eat anything without getting sick. Digesting anything was extremely painful. It hurt to move, to walk or to do anything. I could not even wear jeans around my waist for seven months because of how painful my stomach felt. I discovered new levels of dizziness. I was losing weight rapidly, up to 15 pounds a month, with limited activity.

Nicole Alexandra Before and After Gardasil

Left: me in December 2010, one month before Gardasil. Right: a year and a half later, July 2012 after the extreme weight loss post Gardasil.

I tried to focus and meditate healing into my body to counteract what was happening. I lost 100 pounds within that first year and a half. My diastolic blood pressure dropped to the 50′s/40′s. It used to be consistently around 120′s/60-70′s. My hair fell out at the rate of my weight loss – quickly. Even my tongue turned a grey black color in the center, and my eyes turned a slight yellow.

The most challenging and embarrassing issues were the gastrointestinal problems, which were each horrifying on their own. Every time I had to use the restroom, it made me more ill than I already felt, and the pain I experienced is something I will never forget. The pain in my stomach and body was disorientating. It physically hurt everywhere. I struggled focusing, verbalizing my anxiety or frustrations because I was feeling so toxic in my own body. I was in more pain, more exhausted and more fatigued than I had ever felt. It was often overwhelming and uncomfortable, especially trying to sleep with comfort or ease. Meanwhile through all of this, I was told by my doctors that I had Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) and to go on a whole grain diet. That was the only advice they had for us, after all my symptoms, IBS. We knew we needed other help and resources.

Family Support
My family focused all of their efforts into helping me any way they could. I was already seeing an acupuncturist outside of my insurance every week and she was documenting my progressing issues as time went on.

We bought vitamins, herbs, protein powders, digestive enzymes, probiotics, and fiber supplements to treat IBS issues. We began the first of many dramatic diet changes to facilitate gut healing. After months of using these products, they were helping on a small scale by not making things feel worse, with some slight benefits. The nausea and pain were still constant. My back and whole body were amongst the most excruciating pains and because of the pain, my mobility, energy and strength were limited. As the months went by, I became further immobilized. I walked as much as I was able. I tried swimming during the summer, but it exacerbated my pain greatly. My physical therapist told me, “This was as good as I was going to get.” We didn’t stick around with her after that.

Out of Desperation
We were at our tip of desperation after I returned from a two day trip with my fiancé. We went out of town to see friends. It was traveling, something I hadn’t done during this year of many changes. We were trying to make it work even with my health complications. It was wonderful seeing my friends, but my body could not recover from exhaustion after returning. We sought additional help. The physicians we saw during this time had not helped, many would not help and denied my symptoms. It was my acupuncturist, who stuck with us and tried to heal me. She gave me the name of a chiropractor in the area. It was worth a try.

Chiropractic Health
One of our biggest blessings through this chaos was finding chiropractic care and meeting my chiropractor, Dr. McKillican. He recognized the crisis my health and nervous system were in and was the first sincere and genuine doctor that strived to help us. A chiropractor was not on any of my insurance or among the recommendations suggested to me, ever. In fact, I was advised to stay away from them earlier in life. I know with my whole being that chiropractic saved my life, especially during this crucial time of disease and sickness. I have been getting weekly adjustments for nearly two years, beginning seven months after getting Gardasil. Chiropractic adjustments have made significant and dramatic improvements in healing and strengthening my nervous system and body. Regular adjustments work on our nervous system to remove nerve interference within us and to promote the body’s natural ability to heal itself.

Vital Hematology and Nutrition
Nine months after Gardasil, I worked with a vital hematologist to detoxify my body naturally. We used a focused diet that included: juicing specific veggies, fruits, herbs, multiple vitamins, digestive enzymes, colloidal silver, olive leaf extract, glutathione, aloe vera juice. This regime greatly helped with my unbearable, chronic nausea. It seems to have reduced the intensity of pain throughout my stomach. I have had significant improvements in GI health.

This past year I also began working with a nutritionist to deal with the continuous mending needed to repair my GI issues, adrenal dysfunction, energy, appetite/food challenges and over all internal damages. I am thankful beyond words for the healing I’ve experienced, and despite the pain and the many challenges I have faced post Gardasil, my body is mending at the rate it can. I use my energy to focus on this.

Two Years Post Gardasil
The issues I am still working on healing and mending are different two and half years after Gardasil are the autoimmunity changes. These include: gastrointestinal issues, body pain, appetite dysregulation and the ability to eat enough, malabsorption of nutrients, low blood pressure and dizziness, energy, sensitivity to cold temperature and chemicals.

Food and my appetite can be very overwhelming sometimes. I often don’t want or have the desire to eat or I get full too quickly. I also get really hungry all at once, often unexpectedly and painfully. The food and appetite issues are a constant work in progress that is still very complex. They have become somewhat easier to work with now than in the years before. I find focusing on ratios of carbs, fats and protein I need helps. I have also eliminated foods with gluten, GMO or that are processed. I no longer eat foods that are spicy or acidic either. I eat raw organic veggies only juiced because my GI tract cannot tolerate the un-juiced vegetables. I watch my sugar intake, including many fruits, and other foods that I am sensitive to. I eat whole foods, organic vegetables and fruits, good fats (butter and coconut oil have helped immensely here) and as much healthy, grass fed, organic protein and protein shakes as my body needs to be balanced. All this has helped substantially.

My healthy lifestyle is vital to keep my progress going. With nutrition, vitamins, medicinal herbs, supplements, regular chiropractic adjustments, removing as many toxins from my environment, and adding as much movement, exercise, walking or stretching as I can, I am slowly improving. I also use coffee enemas and drink alkalized water (and lots of it). My body now seems to be on the path it needs to recover from the atrocity that Gardasil caused. Every day is different with pain and energy levels, but I focus on the blessings, because I know how much worse it can be.

The Support of My Family
It has taken a substantial amount of money, time and sacrifices from my extraordinary mother and fiancé to care for me post Gardasil. Without them, none of this progress could have been possible. I am more grateful and humbled than ever to be alive and for all the amazing, most abundant love and support of people I’m blessed to share my life with. I could not have come this far without these wonderful people.

Gardasil changed my health, my life, and family’s lives forever; physically, mentally emotionally, financially, and educationally. What I can give and share with others through this experience is the truth, my experiences, and the real facts and statistics regarding Gardasil. I plan to do this until this vaccine exists no more.

"Parker was born in September 1996. He hit the same developmental milestones as his older brother had two years before and was learning to walk, talk (about 15-20 words) and use a fork and spoon. He saw his family doctor when he was one year old and was prescribed an antibiotic for cough and ear infections. We were told he should have his vaccines in order to stay on schedule, and we questioned the wisdom of so many shots when he was coughing and on antibiotics. We were told that it was better to keep him on the schedule and that vaccines are always good, always better than the alternative (getting some terrible disease). So, we were sent to the county health department where they gave him DTaP, polio, flu shot – seven vaccines at one time. His leg swelled and became red and he cried a lot. In the next two or three months, his cough got worse, his ear infections got worse, and he developed red sores (lesions) on both cheeks (this is a classic adverse reaction to DTaP, but his doctor said nothing).

When he reached 18 months, he was given the MMR, plus flu shot, chicken pox, etc, eight shots at one time. Four hours later, he was red all over, had a 105 degree fever, and screamed all night. We repeatedly called the doctor and were told that “some kids just have a stronger reaction than others.” We were told to wait it out; Parker had the 105 degree fever for four days. Within 30 days, he stopped saying words, stopped using eating utensils, and stopped responding to his name. Within the next six months, he lost all eye contact with us, started hand-flapping and spinning, and almost completely stopped sleeping.

The medical people insisted that this was all due to fluid in his ears and recommended heavy doses of antibiotics, Claritin, and wanted to install ear shunts. He was placed in an Early Intervention program at school and, after a year, they recommended getting a diagnosis for autism. We struggled with this decision because we worried about him being stuck in a special education category for the rest of his life, but we decided we might benefit from special programs and grants if he had it. We got his formal diagnosis at the Oregon Health Sciences University’s Childhood Development and Recovery Center in Portland, Oregon, in 2000. When the pediatrician (Dr. Robert Nickel) told us that Parker had “moderately severe autism,” I asked him what we should do next, thinking they would have some sort of treatment program or protocol.

He said to me and my wife, “Nothing. You do NOTHING. There is nothing you can do. Autism is incurable and untreatable. Parker will be so violent and uncontrollable by the time he is a teenager that he will have to be institutionalized. There is nothing you can do to change this. The only thing we are interested in is that you, as his parents, accept the diagnosis and LET GO OF YOUR SON.”

I asked about the special diets and alternative treatments I read about on the internet. I told him we had already started the Guten Cassien Free Diet and it was having a dramatically good effect. The pediatrician said he had never heard of such a diet and that trying treatments from the internet was dangerous and useless. OHSU could run further tests but had no recommendations or treatments to offer. I later discovered that this “autism expert” publishes articles in medical journals in which he trains other pediatricians how to steer parents away from “alternative” treatments. He had completely lied to us about his knowledge on this subject.

We went through about seven or eight years of hell. Parker almost never slept more than one or two hours a night. He was hyperactive and had severe screaming meltdowns in public. His gastrointestinal tract was destroyed and he had severe diarrhea several times a day (and night) for six years. He did not speak and did not seem to understand anyone.We had constant battles with early intervention aides and teachers who thought his special diet was silly and would give him food without telling us.

Parker started seeing a DAN doctor in 2004. He has benefited greatly from the GFCF diet and now is also on a Specific Carbohydrate diet. At the age of ten, he finally stopped having diarrhea and started sleeping normally. His eye contact returned, and with it his sweet and good-natured personality. He is slowly learning to speak, and can communicate in a simple way with a laptop. His language comprehension is excellent and he fully understands 90% of what is said to him. He goes to the bathroom by himself and can shower and dress himself with minimal help. He now seldom has meltdowns or screaming fits, but as he goes through puberty he has begun to have occasional seizures.

We have tried many “alternative” treatments, and almost all have helped a little; so far nothing has been a dramatic “miracle cure.” We’ve done special diets, supplements, Secretin, Glutathione, Methyl-B12 injections, heavy metal chelation, hyperbaric oxygen therapy, cranio-sacral therapy, and many more. Parker has improved in many ways. He still needs help with all of his daily routines, but he is getting more independent all the time. He is very happy and good-natured and is enthusiastic about learning how to read and write and speak.

We believe that many kids with complex and varied conditions have been given the autism diagnosis, and they are all individuals. There is no “one size fits all” treatment or therapy. For Parker, it was essential to fix his medical problems first – address his yeast overgrowth, his bowel inflammation, and his toxic chemicals – before he was really ready to start learning and communicating again. It is obvious now that most of his behavioral issues – the meltdowns, strange postures and spinning, self-injury – were related to his level of pain, and as we have slowly fixed his biomedical problems, he has become happier and more easy to communicate with.

One thing we had not anticipated when we decided to get the diagnosis was the reaction of insurance companies. Since autism is considered incurable and untreatable, insurance companies will deny payment for almost any treatment if the word autism is mentioned. We have paid for most of Parker’s healing and semi-recovery out of our own pocket. We have come to view the autism diagnosis as a trash bin where kids like Parker are thrown so that no one will be forced to take responsibility for their healing or answer any questions about what happened to them. The advice from the pediatrician-autism expert at OHSU was a self-fulfilling prophecy; If we had done nothing and given Parker three bowls of chocolate ice cream and a bowl of macaroni and cheese every day, he would have become uncontrollably crazy and violent and he would now be locked up, and the autism expert would have been proven right.

We started this believing in the wisdom and experience of medical professionals, and we believed that we were being exceptionally smart and responsible parents by getting immunizations for our kids. We believed that we could trust the answers that physicians gave to our questions. We are now very angry and resent the medical people who have lied to us and abandoned us. We are dismayed to learn that the government regulatory agencies that are supposed to protect us are now controlled by pharmaceutical corporations, insurance companies, and vaccine manufacturers. We see the Vaccine Injury Compensation Court award damages for vaccine-induced “encephalopathy that causes autism-like behavior” while our child is told that vaccines don’t cause “autism” and his “autism” is untreatable and no one will help pay to make him better. The same corporations also control most of the media and medical journals, so they can shape what the public believes about these issues and even control what physicians believe and say to their patients about it. I’m not happy that this makes us sound like conspiracy-theorists, but I also can’t lie about what has happened to us and what we have learned.

I am an independent film maker and I have been working for several years on a documentary film about this. I had nearly given up finishing the film due to lack of funding and what I saw as a lack of interest from people who have not personally experienced autism/vaccine injury themselves. We are hoping that sites like VaxTruth and The Canary Party indicate a larger number of people speaking up and demanding change.

Parker is now 14. He has a 16-year-old brother, Tyler, who is his best friend and cares for him deeply. We will continue to help him recover from his injury 24/7, 365 days a year for the rest of our lives."

Jim and Susan Soderberg

[This story was used by permission from Payton’s mom. To read the original post please see: NatureMoms]

My journey really began on day two of my son’s life. His birth was pretty easy and when I had finished laboring I had a perfect little boy in my arms. He was calm and curious right from the start. He had many guests that day and all marveled at how serious he looked and how he didn’t cry at all. He slept in a bassinet next to my bed in perfect peace and he breastfed immediately and without trouble.

Then on day two the nurses came to get him and give him a Hepatitis B shot. At the time I had no reason to think I should not give consent. I knew nothing about vaccines except the fact that Doctors tell you need them and schools require them. Had I known he was being vaccinated against a sexually transmitted disease I might have questioned it but I am not sure. frown emoticon

The baby they brought back to me was not the same baby they left with. This was not my calm, serene baby. This baby cried furiously, refused to fall asleep in the bassinet, or even be put down. I joked several times that we had a baby mix-up going on here but I tried to dismiss all thoughts that maybe…just maybe the vaccine did this. One day wasn’t really enough time to know if there had been a REAL change in his behavior right?

When I brought him home he had to sleep in the crook of my arm to be able to go to sleep. You could not put him down for even a moment or he would scream. Family members had to help with the constant holding and since I rarely got a break…or any decent sleep…I gave up on breastfeeding after only 4 months…a decision I regretted.

He went in for more shots at 2 months and 4 months old. Each time he would become sick for an extended period of time but his Doctors assured me that I did not need to worry. He was sick so often that I decided to delay his six month vaccinations until he was 10 months old…at which time he got a DTP shot. This shot changed our lives forever. frown emoticon

He became very ill after the shot with a high fever that lasted for days. The doctors kept telling me it was normal. When his fever jumped to 104 degrees I got in the car with him and went to the emergency room. In the triage they confirmed his fever and sent us out to the waiting room. I sat and held my son and began to notice something strange. I can’t explain it other than to say that I felt that he was leaving me. He was gradually loosing eye contact and alertness and his eyes and arms were ever so slightly twitching. When I started snapping my fingers in front of him and he didn’t respond I freaked out. I ran into the triage and told them something was terribly wrong and described what I was seeing. A young nurse scooped him up and took him into a nearby room and began examining him. He also tried to get my son’s attention and when it didn’t work I could see panic on his face. Then my son’s twitches turned into a full blown, violent seizure. The nurse got on the intercom and called for immediate assistance. Two other people came and they wheeled him into another room. I stood just outside trying to see what was going on and I recall that they told me they were going to give him an anti-seizure medication and then one of them ran outside and yelled to all the medical staff, “we need to bag him!” He had gone into respiratory arrest. His room filled with about 10 people and they ushered me away.

Fearing the worst I called my husband at the nurse’s station but I couldn’t even get the words out…I could only cry into the phone. A nurse had to give him the details because I couldn’t. After he got there they explained to both of us that our son was being air-lifted to a hospital that could handle this type of situation. We had to follow in our car and over the next week he stayed in the hospital with the first days being in ICU on a ventilator.

I knew in my heart what had caused this and when I asked the treating neurologist about it…he would only say that I should trust my instincts. He wouldn’t give absolute confirmation but he wanted me to know that I was right. At a later time he would tell me that my son was not a good candidate for any further vaccinations. I also found out that my son most likely had an immune disorder at the time he got that last vaccination and really should have never received it. But medical professionals do not currently check things like that. Vaccines are one size fits all.

Unfortunately for my son this information was too late. He had many more violent seizures and he ended up with mild brain damage and since his seizures would not stop they decided to start medicating him for epilepsy at age 5 after he almost fell down a flight of stairs during a seizure. I was not happy about medicating him but I did take comfort in the fact they said it didn’t have to be permanent and that I could evaluate alternative therapies in the mean time.

In between these two events though I became pregnant again and the issue of vaccines came up on a discussion board. I was horrified to find that I still wasn’t committed to denying all vaccines for my new baby….perhaps rationalizing that my son’s case had been unique. Another mom suggested that I retrain myself and start researching vaccine injuries. I did and I found that my son’s case was not unusual. There are thousands upon thousands of children that have been harmed by vaccines. And alarmingly I found even more confirmation that vaccines had caused my son’s injury when I found hundreds of stories just like his.

By the time my second child was born I was confident in my choice to decline all vaccines. Of course that is only half the battle. Sticking to your guns on the issue can be challenging because I met with many moms and doctors that were down right militant when I expressed my opinion on the issue. They act as though they know what is best for your child and they hope to shake some sense into you so you can be the good, vaccinating parent your child deserves. They dismiss all protests that vaccines can injure children by talking about how the statistics show that the number adversely affected is so small it barely matters…..yeah right…unless you are the parent of one of those insignificant statistics. And of course they talk about all the good that vaccines do, ignoring the fact that many other factors besides vaccinations have contributed to a decline in these diseases. But if you stick you your guns…it gets easier to deal with these people.

Contrary to what others might say I do not write about these things to convince other parents that vaccines are bad and that they need to deny them. I just want other parents to know that there is risk involved. I would “think” that most parents would want to know about that. I believe in informed consent. Tell all parents both sides of the issue….the good, the bad, and the ugly, and allow them to choose for themselves. Right now most parents are only getting one half of the whole story and they are basing their decision to vaccinate on that incomplete data. Tell them that there are risks!!!

If they still decide to vaccinate that is fine…at least they know the whole story and they made a conscious decision. I will not fault them for their decision at all. I just hope that they can see why I and many other parents decided that the risk was too great and respect our decision as we respect theirs. Meanwhile I share my son’s story to help other moms see that there is another side to this issue that many don’t want you to know about. It is your right as a parent to know the whole truth.

So how is my son doing today? Much better! We have made a lot of changes in our lifestyle to eliminate further chemical exposure, we have made many dietary changes, and we have learned to adjust. I am happy to say that I after the changes we made I was confident that he could function without the epilepsy medication. Call it mother’s intuition. smile emoticon I was right. He has been off meds for 6 months and he has had no seizures. His weight loss has reversed itself and he is at a much healthier weight now and he no longer scratches his arms until they are a mass of bleeding wounds. It has been a long road but we are seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I now realize that we were not one of the unlucky ones. We were one of the lucky ones.


Above: Timmy in the NICU

"Meet Timmy. He is a loving boy with big eyes and the longest eyelashes you ever did see. Timmy’s smile makes people happy. And in order to properly meet Timmy you must meet his twin brother, Xander who is handsome and compassionate on a level that most adults fail to achieve. They are quite simply, the loves of my life.

As twins often do, the boys came 7-weeks early. Xander was the “sick” one; was intubated and I was not able to hold him for the 1st week of his life. Timmy was the healthy one; on room air within 24 hours and bottle-feeding by the end of the week. Our second night in the hospital, I was awoken at 2 am by a doctor asking me to sign vaccine consent forms and was told that they would be given in the morning. The NICU nurse confirmed that they were given that day. After a couple weeks in the NICU Timmy was close to coming home or so we thought. He was the epitome of good health: out of his incubator, breastfeeding, crying appropriately, healthy blood work, no bradycardia and gaining weight.

But then suddenly a couple weeks later, his health began to decline and was nowhere near ready to come home. He stopped crying; he stopped making any noise. He could not stay awake for more than 10-15 minutes. He could no longer bottle-feed much less breast feed. He had to have a nasal gavage put back in. And then his head began to grow rapidly. Everyday it was bigger. Everyday it was a different shape. I, not the doctors or nurses, discovered this. Every day I went to the NICU and took pictures of my twins. Every night I went home and hooked myself up to the breast pump and would flip through the pictures on the camera. It was kind of like looking at an old-fashioned flipbook because I would change the pictures so quickly to see how they grew each day. Then one night I panicked. It was not Timmy’s body that was changing; it was his head. His head grew so rapidly in a few days that I could see it on camera.

I called the NICU at 2am and said they need to get the doctor because something was seriously wrong. By the time I got into the NICU in the morning, they said that after an ultrasound of his brain, they saw no explanation for the head growth especially since his Grade1 IVH had completely resolved. I asked if this head growth was related to his this decline and these multiple changes. They said they did not think so but that even though those were all common matters in the NICU they were still concerned that they were happening. Timmy’s head continued to grow. One day his head was so misshapen that I had to leave the NICU to throw up; I was terrified. And he was definitely not coming home soon. Xander came home at 4 weeks. Timmy however did not come home until his 5th week since he continued to have feeding problems. We were at a level 5 NICU, at what is considered to be a top-notch hospital. I trusted them when I should not have.

It was not until years later that I discovered the truth behind my son’s first serious regression. But since I had assumed what I had been told was true, I continued to vaccinate him. 4 years later (too many vaccines later and too many regressions later) I finally pulled his NICU files, read through them with horror and had a few new doctors look over them. All three doctors have told me he was clearly vaccine injured. It never gets easier to be told this.

What I found out from his hospital files was that he did not have a Hep B shot on July 16 like I was told. Rather he was given the Hep B shot on July 31, a few days before he was going to come home. At this time, he was 2.5 weeks old meaning he was still 4.5 weeks prior to his due date. Within a day he started having negative reactions; slept constantly, could no longer breast feed and stopped making noises. Shortly thereafter he could barely bottle feed and was re-gavaged. Within 5 days of the Hep B vaccine you could visibly see that his head had grown inches. Within 7-8 days he and his brother both had a blood transfusion because their vitals were too low and they were both having bradycardias again. Xander went home at 4 weeks. Timmy finally came home on August 18 after a 5 week NICU stay.

Once home I could never get him to breastfeed again even with lots of help from the lactation consultant, but I continued to pump. On September 15, which was 9 weeks after he was born and only 2 weeks after his due date he was given DTAP, IPV, Prevnar, and HIB. His head size increased even more and he could barely lift it anymore. He had been struggling with tummy time but now it was nearly impossible; his neck and core muscles had not strengthened quickly enough to match the size of his head. As a result he developed torticollis and we began physical therapy and quickly added Occupational Therapy. Thus began our life of figuring out what therapies he needs and what doctor to see next.

By 6 months his head was so big that the Neurologist sent us to the Neurosurgeon to look over his MRI to determine whether he needed a shunt. Luckily the growth had tapered off by then and he saw no extra fluid on the brain to indicate hydrocephalus. He was very weak, had low muscle tone and was not developing like his brother in any way. The doctors kept telling me that he would catch up. He did not sit up on his own until his first birthday. By two years old he still had not said a word and was delayed developmentally. Plus he was not walking and there were no real signs that he would soon. Around that age his PT was doing an assessment and noticed his hand flapping. She asked me slowly if he did this all the time. I said it was brand new. We went over the list and she looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, I think my company needs to refer you to someone who can provide you with more help than “just” OT, PT and ST; we needed hours of ABA. I made her say the words, “autism”.

We started ABA when he was 2.5. He began to make improvements and he began to say a few words!! Just before age three, his personal Neurologist and Regional Center’s Neurologist both diagnosed him with Autism. Just before his 3rd birthday he started walking. Then one month after his third birthday he had another major regression. He lost all his newly formed words, he lost all interest in watching TV, he no longer could do simple puzzles, he barely responded to his name, he was barely sensitive to pain. So much of him was lost that month. I don’t know what caused that regression but his current doctor believes it could be due to seizures.

Today, Timmy does OT, PT, ST and ABA therapies. He has done numerous biomedical treatments to help heal his health issues. Timmy is still non-verbal. He has seizures. He has PANDAs. He has gastro-intestinal issues. He is hypotonic. He is still very delayed. But in the past few months there have been so many improvements: he has started making an approximation for “Hi” from time to time, he can now do simple puzzles much better, he is looking at books for the first time ever, he can now walk up and down the stairs, he is starting to dress himself, he shows affection to his family, he is sleeping better, he is a pretty happy boy. But he is still fragile, he is still vaccine injured.

Some days I struggle with releasing myself from guilt. I should have looked over all the hospital files when in the NICU. I should have seen what is now so blatantly obvious; I should have figured all this out before I continued vaccinating him. I should have….. Guilt gets you nowhere and becomes debilitating if you let it. I don’t have time to be debilitated. Timmy does not have time for me to be debilitated; he needs me pushing to help heal his body, he needs me energized to help him teach him how to put his pants on, he needs me happy so I can love him without guilt.

The Hep-B Vaccine injured my son. I did not have Hep-B and there for I could not have passed it to him at birth. My baby did not have promiscuous sex or do IV drugs and I don’t know of any babies who do. There was zero reason for him to have the Hep-B vaccination. NONE. I share my story with you in hopes you will think twice about giving your child this vaccine or any other for that matter. The Hep-B Vaccine injured my son; don’t let it injure your child."

Timmy’s Mom

When Lu Jiarun was just 7 months old she could stand and would wake up each morning calling "papa". Lu Weiwei felt he was among the happiest men in the world, but a vaccine meant to save his little girl from getting sick did the complete opposite and ended his happiness for good.
In 2009, her mother took the little girl to a local health center to be vaccinated against meningitis. On returning home, the girl began crying before going into convulsions. After treatment at different hospitals, her condition deteriorated and medics said it was caused by a reaction to the vaccine.
After numerous twists and turns in claims for compensation, finally the family got 120,000 yuan from the local government. But the money could only support her treatment to the end of 2012, when they faced extreme hardship again. After years of treatment, the child did not recover.

In 2009, 17-year-old Fei had a good opera voice and was eager to join an art college. In November, she asked her parents whether she should get the H1N1 flu vaccine. Her father had already received the vaccine and advised her to do so. But it was a decision they regret.
After the injection, she started getting pains in her joints. The next day she started bleeding from her eyes and was diagnosed with a blood disorder. Doctors said the only possible treatment was a marrow transplant. But a successful marrow match was not found in time and on March 8, 2010, her illness deteriorated and she died.
Later, the girl's mother found the production company of the vaccine was suspended for making fake vaccines.
"How could the fake vaccines pass examination and be purchased by the government? How many more families like me have lost their children because of fake vaccines?" asked the mother.

Profile: Dong Zixin, female, born in Shangqiu city, Henan province on May 4, 2009.

Vaccine: A Meningococcal Vaccine

In May 2009, Dong's birth brought great joy to the family. Seven months later she was vaccinated against meningitis, but soon developed complications. On the same day, she got a fever and later went into convulsions.

A few days later, the doctor told them the child had untreatable irreversible cerebral lesions. The family was awarded compensation of 300,000 yuan.

Profile: Zhang Wen, female, born in Jingmen city, Hubei province on April 11, 1997

Vaccine: Measles Vaccine, Live

Zhang Wen was once a healthy child who played the drums and was eager to enter art college.
In October 2009, a measles vaccine changed her life. A week after the injection, Zhang began coughing and a runny nose. Later she got back pain and had difficulty going to the toilet Zhang said felt like she was wearing scalding shoes and would rather die. She asked to give up treatment several times.
After years of treatment, Zhang is still weak and can only go to school for a half day. The drum kit is discarded in the basement covered in dust.

"My daughter was born Dec 20th. I had a natural birth. She had a little baby eczema that would flair here and there. They asked me if I wanted to vaccinate in the hospital, I declined. I talked with her pediatrician and we decided to put off her shots because I was still unsure about them. I have a son that is 3 that is developmentally delayed. I believe vaccinations had some ting to do with that as well but that's a whole other story. Anywho, I decided to wait until kat was 3 mos old to start her vaccinations and that she would only receive 2 at a time so we decided to de her dtap and the rotarix. The day she had her vaccinations her skin immediately started to change. By the second day she had open oozing wounds all over her face, neck, chest and back. It was all over her but those areas were the worst. I haven't vaccinated her since then. I know this is long, lol.

"My daughter Audra's vaccine injury story.. 

11 years ago when my daughter was 10 months old she had a severe adverse reaction to the Hep B and DTAP vaccines. Audra received her vaccines on a wednesday and was totally paralyzed and on life support by Sunday. We dissected the prior month of her life and just couldn't figure it out until Dr Noorani asked "Has she received any vaccinations within the last 30 days?" and we were like " Yes this past Wednesday." 

Thats when our life changed forever. After the doctors arguing over what was wrong and how it happened they finally agreed she needed an MRI. Thats when they seen it all. The vaccines had attacked her immune system and destroyed the myelin around her spinal cord.

She was then diagnosed with Transverse Myelitis and acute demyelinating encephalomyelitis secondary to the Hep B and Dtap vaccines. The CDC was called and On her firsts 4th of July she was in surgery receiving a tracheostomy. We spent 4 solid months in ICU and inpatient rehab. Then 2 months in almost home PICU. 

Audra remained trached and vent dependent for three years. Then she was strong enough to be off the vent and eventually had the tracheostomy closed. Sadly we were not so lucky with the paralysis. To this day she still remains paralyzed and confined to a wheelchair . She has neurogenic bladder that requires her to be cathed 3-4 x a day. She has problems with her bowels and has to take miralax and at times has to be "helped" to have a bowel movement. 

In the years since we have been in and out of the hospital and in 2012 the spinal surgeries began. Due to the paralysis she has dextroconvex scoliosis that puts pressure on her left lung and heart. 

She had to have VEPTR rods(titanium rods) placed in her spine and ribcage that have to be grown and / or replaced every 6 months until she stops growing. This is a confirmed and proven vaccine injury case. It was reported to VAERS and we took it to vaccine injury court. The federal court deemed that without a doubt vaccines done this to her. 

You cannot sue the doctor, nor the pharmaceutical company. They have a compensation fund set aside just for this. If this was one in a million why the funds? Vaccine injures are real and can be even worse than what Audra and our family goes thru. 

We could have lost her. She flatlined 4 times during the fist week of her hospital stay. After she was diagnosed it was my mission to find out everything I could about vaccines. IT MADE ME SICK.. What they are made from how they are grown and how safe THEY ARE NOT. 

During our stay there were 4 other families with vaccine reactions. so that means 5 families in June of 2003. Thats not one in a million because we weren't the only ones that year. All I can say to parents is educate yourselves and RESEARCH RESEARCH RESEARCH. You don't have to vaccinate , you have the right to decline and yes your child can attend public schools without vaccines (Exemption forms). You can also choose to delay until older. And also you can do them one at a time. If you have any questions about Audra or anything I have written I am always open to talk. I help in any way I can. Just remember ultimately its your child AND YOUR CHOICE. Don't feel pressured or bullied, and DONT ever be ashamed of the choice you make for YOUR CHILD."

"...His scream was cry-encephalitis, also known as the DTaP scream. It is brain inflammation. It is literally an allergic reaction to vaccines in the brain. It is not uncommon. Had I taken him to the ER, it would have been documented with an EEG. Instead I was lied to by my pediatrician’s office until the event had passed..."

"...Our whole world changed the day we took him in for his 12 month well baby check-up. We didn’t know then that we were about to make the biggest mistake of our lives. After receiving his MMR 
vaccine in the muscle of his leg (I later learned that 
MMR is to be given subcutaneously, not intramuscularly), the injection site became inflamed and red, and tender to the touch for several weeks. Gabriel was irritable like never before. He seemed agitated and cranky much of the time, wanting to be held constantly..." 


"...Stevens-Johnson Syndrome often begins with flu-like symptoms, followed by a painful red or purplish rash that spreads and blisters, eventually causing the top layer of one’s skin to die and shed. My daughter was basically burning from the inside out and her skin came off. She had to be intubated and placed in an induced coma to ensure her oesophagus didn’t close up, as with burn patients..."

"...When my son was injected with the DPT-vaccine in 1981, he suffered 10 days of fevers that came and went, accompanied by vomiting. He also regressed back to crawling, having started to walk at the age of 13 months. However, no one (including my doctor) believed me that this was caused by the vaccine. When my son was two-and-a-half years old, he was diagnosed with PDD – Pervasive Developmental Disorder..."

Donaldo said he got his flu shot on Oct. 14, the same day he started to inject insulin for his diabetes.

"I started changing," he said. "I started getting mean with my partner and the kids. I did not sleep well. I don't know what's going on. I'm just scared."

His heath deteriorated over the next month. The lower part of his legs started going numb. He thought his diabetes was acting up..."

"This is my beautiful daughter Isabella. Bella developed normally up until her six month vaccinations. They were done late as she had been sick. Within 12 hours of having her shots she started having seizures. However I did not recognise them as seizures. 

Although my gut told me not to give her any more vaccinations I eventually succumbed to pressure from her doctor and gave her the 12-month-vaccinations. At this time her seizures went from 20 a day to over a hundred a day. She also stopped trying to crawl, stopped pulling to stand etc. 

My following two children have not been vaccinated and both are healthy and fine. Bella is now in a wheelchair and a pediatric neurologist has told me that her condition was 'triggered' by her vaccinations. I have started on a homeopathic program to try to recover my precious girl. .."

"This is a photo of my son about 3 hours before getting his shots. He passed away 13 hours after his shots. "

"....The parents, now estranged, marked the date of what would have been their child’s 2nd birthday in solemn remembrance of their son; born August 4, 2009, died June 21, 2011. The father duly noted “Each time he was given shots he seemed to have seizures…overdose symptoms were heart block, coma, death.” Max, may you rest in peace...."

"How did Celine die?
As of September 1st, Celine will no longer sleep in her bedroom. She will never sleep in it again. Celine, at four years old, died after receiving a contaminated vaccine, according to her father's posts on Facebook in which he begs his daughter's forgiveness."
They were emigrating to Canada. Celine begged not to have the jabs and he held her down, telling her it was for her own good, for a better life. He keeps asking her forgiveness and the forgiveness of the family for what he did.

From Krista Nicole Gardner "I want to share my story.. I will not let my daughters death be for nothing! My daughter Skyler Rayne was born may 17 2012 at a healthy 8lbs 6oz. She was perfect.. I had not been warned or told of the dangers of vaccines.. We took her in for her four month shots-big one was the dtap..she got shots in both legs and one in her mouth.. Took her home and she never got a fever but she was not herself. She was sleeping a lot more and super cranky.. I assumed she was just growing and teething.. I was wrong. Three days later after I put her down for a morning nap I had no idea it would be the last time I got to see her pretty smile. After two hours I told my husband to go check on her.. I will never forget the scream that came out of my husbands mouth. It haunts me to this day.. We never had blankets or anything in her crib.. We followed every safety guideline.. She was pale and not breathing. I knew when my husband found her she was gone. He proceeded to do CPR until the ambulance got there which by the way seemed like hours.. We rushed her to the er where the doctors went above and beyond to try and save her.. It was too late.. Her perfectly healthy lungs just quit working and thank god she passed peacefully in her sleep.. The coroner pulled us aside off the record and told us he knows it was the vaccines but sadly its very hard to prove that so he had no choice but to call it SIDS...I wish I knew now what I did not know then...I have a perfectly healthy 15 month old rainbow boy who has never had one shot and he is the healthiest smartest kid and he has never been sick or even been to a doctor.."

"...Wiatt was born in October of 2004. He received shots on November 1, 2006. He got his fourth dose of pneumococcal, DTaP, and HIB.

When we got home that day, he was already running fever. I gave the Tylenol and Motrin as the doctor recommended, alternating every 4 and 6 hours. He wouldn't eat and was very lethargic. I thought it was because of the fever. He didn't eat much for about a week and he cried (screamed) inconsolably for the most part of every day for almost two weeks. When he wasn't crying, he was blank or depressed. He seemed almost "drugged" or altered somehow. He wasn't talking or even babbling. He wouldn't play with his toys or with his brother, who he never let out of his sight. He sat with a blank stare. He wouldn't make eye contact and had very dark circles under his eyes that ranged in color from purple, to bright red, or sometimes yellow..."

Baby dies after injection of Hepatitis B vaccine

A 44-day-old baby, named Nguyen Ngoc Minh, died around 2 p.m. on Friday, six hours after having been injected with Hepatitis B vaccine at Ngoc Thuy Ward medical station in Hanoi’s Long Bien District.

According to Dr. Nguyen Thi Thuy, director of Long Bien District Preventive Health Center, the baby’s family agreed to let the Forensic Department conduct an autopsy on the infant to determine the cause of death.

The center also demanded the Bac Giang General Hospital to temporarily cease using the Euvax B vaccine, as well as requesting health officers monitor the health of the 193 babies who were also injected with the vaccine, produced by South Korean-based LG Co.

Source:, news report, 6th January 2008.

One of the most moving, inspiring moments I've ever been a part of happened tonight at Claymont's homecoming game. Emily Page, who suffers from Immunization Encephelitis, was crowned homecoming queen by her peers. Page is unable to talk, requires total care and has been wheelchair bound since kindergarten. Good job Claymont students! You provided a great moment for an incredibly strong young lady!

Sadly we were informed today of another baby that lost her life this past Monday after getting the 4 month vaccines. She died at 19 weeks old and received the injection(s) 2 weeks prior. We will share more info as it comes in. Those that should be held responsible are not held responsible. The death was ruled SIDS and the mother was blamed for sleeping too close to baby. The mother knows this is not what happened and it was the vaccines. She is the little angel on the right in this photo. Our heart goes out to this family and all of the others who no longer have their healthy little ones to play with and watch grow up. Sad moments remembering these innocent lives taken from vaccines.

By Crystal Butler, Chicopee Massachusetts

My daughter, Skylee, was a healthy young lady prior to vaccination with Gardasil – she had the occasional cold but no major health issues. Like many of her peers, she enjoyed music and going to concerts. She enjoyed being a teenager simply hanging out with friends in and out of school. All of this changed after she was vaccinated with Gardasil.

Skylee had her 13 year old physical on 21st August 2013. Her doctor recommended the Gardasil vaccine. I didn’t know much about it, so I texted my sister-in-law, who is a nurse, and asked her if she was going to get it for my niece. Her reply to me was yes, she had already had this vaccine. Then, I asked the doctor who strongly recommended it. She said she was going to get it for her daughter as soon as she is old enough. I figured it must be safe if they are both recommending it.

I was unaware of all the side effects that are listed in the prescribing information pamphlet that the doctors do not show patients as that comes inside the box containing the Gardasil vaccine. I was only aware of the minor side effects listed on the paper they hand out that lists pain, swelling itching and bruising at injection site, as well as fever, nausea, dizziness, vomiting and fainting. I allowed her to get her first and only dose of the Gardasil vaccine.
Twelve days later, on the 2nd of September 2013 Skylee’s symptoms started. She had pain down her entire spine from the top of her neck to the bottom of her tailbone. This pain increased as time went on. Every couple of weeks she would get new symptoms, some lasting days, weeks and even months.

These symptoms included:

Pain through her whole back, including her arms and legs; shoulder pain
Chest pains, stomach pains
Headaches, stabbing pains in her head
The need to constantly crack her fingers, toes, ankles, back and neck
Chronic Fatigue; weakness; walking from class to class is too much sometimes; shortness of breath
Dizziness; seeing green and red spots; the words on the paper moving at times and not making sense; not being able to comprehend what she is reading; constant need to move her eyes
Nausea, vomiting, and fever
Dry eyes, dry mouth
Light sensitivity, has to wear dark glasses inside the home and at school
blurred vision – at times unable to read or write because of dizziness, vision problems, (teachers and her peers have to read and write for her)

Jittery, mood swings, fast talking, forgetfulness, irritable

There have also been some strange episodes when all of a sudden Skylee will have a blank stare and is unable to speak or walk. During these times she can hear and see what is happening around her, but unable to move. She can laugh and is able to move her eyes and moan though, so we have found a way to communicate with her during these episodes. The episodes last from 15 minutes to 2 hours. She has had numerous episodes in many places including the ER, school, home, in the car, and in the shower.

There was one time when we were taking her for bloodwork and Skylee was – well, out of it. We had to pick her up from the truck, put her in a wheelchair and then put her back into the truck the same way after the tests had finished.

All of the symptoms listed below she has experienced over the past year. Sometimes she will have only a few; sometimes it will be ten at once. Symptoms can last for hours, days, weeks, or even months. What is so strange is that the symptoms are always changing with new ones still showing up.

Burning eyes;
Hot flushes, night sweats, heavy periods;
Tightening of her chest; tingling in arms, legs, fingers and toes;
Poor balance; motion sickness; room spins; difficulty in focussing;
Nose bleeds; eye pains; easily bruised;
Legs, hands, feet and ankles cold to the touch;
And many of the symptoms identified above
The one symptom she has had every day after that one injection of Gardasil is the constant pain the entire length of her spine. The pain usually runs between 8 and 10 on the pain scale. When she takes Aleve or Ibuprofen the pain level goes down to a 6 on the pain scale. She has to take these medications daily.
Skylee has been to see numerous doctors including the Pediatrician who she has been with since birth, two different neurologists, a spine and sport facility, an orthopaedic specialist, a urologist and eye doctors, a rheumatologist and physical therapist and a holistic practitioner.

She had to be taken to the ER on three different occasions. She has been subjected to many tests including an MRI scan, X-rays, ultra-sound, full eye examinations and numerous visits to the laboratories for extensive blood work including testing for heavy metals.
The results of all of this testing and some official diagnoses are that Skylee has a complex cyst on her left kidney which will be monitored every 6 months; her EEG’s showed seizure like activity with very sharp brainwaves and spikes in her brainwaves.

They also discovered that she has an arachnoid cyst on her brain which has been followed up, and thankfully it is not growing. This will continue to be followed up annually to make sure it does not increase in size. We have been advised by the neurosurgeon that this cyst would cause a different set of symptoms, mainly a change in her coordination level.

Skylee also has vitamin D deficiency. The results from the heavy metal testing were high.
In addition to the above she has been diagnosed also with these disorders:

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome;
Chronic Pain Processing Disorder;
Depression – this has only come about because of all that has happened to Skylee since she was vaccinated with Gardasil;
Psychosomatic disorder – this is what they would prefer to be the official diagnosis.

Skylee has been on a few treatments and in a lot of cases these have been stopped because she had an “episode” at school not long after taking pain medication. She has also been offered Prozac and Amitriptyline for Fibromyalgia and the latter for chronic pain/depression which we have refused.

Gardasil has changed Skylee’s life
She has missed 56 days of school since her injection and has gone in late a lot. She was dismissed from classes multiple times for not feeling well or having to leave school to attend doctors’ appointments.
Skylee often says she feels like she is 80 years old. She is unable to live life like a normal teenager.

She needs constant supervision due to her “episodes,” so she cannot go places with friends on her own. Skylee cannot shower alone as being alone. Her ”episodes” make it impossible. I sleep with her in case she has an episode during her sleep.

Skylee’s biggest complaint through all of this is the inability to read and write due to the dizziness, head pressure, vision problems and stabbing pains in her head. She says she would rather deal with daily pain rather than not being able to read. It is embarrassing for her to have to rely on her teachers or peers to read and sometimes write for her. She feels she is a burden to the other students and is holding them back from getting their own work done.

Through all of this she tries to keep her spirits up as much as possible and not let Gardasil get the better of her.
We are now in the process of getting Skylee a tutor through school so she can stay at home and still get her 9th grade education. She does not really want to stay home with a tutor. She would rather be at school with all of her friends. She is very outgoing and gets a long with everyone but we feel this is the safest option for her as of now.
Gardasil has affected our family
Because my daughter cannot be left alone due to the serious health issues she is experiencing, I have had to quit my job. I had been with this company for almost 6 years.

My husband, Wayne, has also had to leave his work early and some days has missed work altogether.

I don’t sleep in bed with my husband as I now have to sleep with Skylee just in case she has an ”episode” in her sleep.

Skylee’s illness demands we sometimes pay more attention to her than her 11 year old brother (Sabastian) and I’m sure that must bother him.

I know it sometimes bothers Sabastian to see Skylee deal with all of the things she goes through. He too has had to miss school or be dismissed early because Skylee has taken unwell or had to go for a doctor’s appointment.
The Gardasil vaccine has changed Skylee’s life in so many ways and we do not know how many more symptoms will show up and change her life even more than it has already done. Our whole family has been affected by this vaccine and all of our lives have been turned upside down that terrible day in 2013.

If only the doctors would recognize Skylee has gone from being a healthy young girl to an invalid when the only major change in her life occurred on the day she had that single shot of Gardasil.

Christina Richelle Tarsell – Maryland

November 1986 – June 2008

Born in November 1986, Christina had the world by the tail. Chris was an honors student throughout high school and college. She had just completed her Junior Year in Studio Art, at Bard College in New York, and was looking forward to returning to her summer job at the Center for Curatorial Studies. She was anxious to begin work on her senior project.

Art was her passion. She loved texture, light and color. Chris not only had vision, she had talent. She served as art editor of two literary magazines, one in high school and another in college. Her personal talent was evident by the many awards she won at juried art shows.

Chris did not stop with one passion, she was also an avid and accomplished athlete. She played baseball on the boys’ team in middle school, varsity softball during high school and tennis in college on an award winning team.
As if that were not enough, Chris took her spare time to devote herself to community service. She was active in church, Girl Scouts, the National Honor Society and Amnesty International. Any organization she participated in was proud to count her as one of their team.

All of that ended 18 days after her third injection of Gardasil, when she was found dead in her bed at college. Chris’s abrupt departure from this world has left a multitude of people wondering what happened to this sweet, spirited, generous and caring individual who was a credit to the human race.

Chris’s mother says, “Christina was my only child. I hope no other parent has to experience what it is like for the police to come to your door and tell you your child is dead.
Chris was the light of my life. It made me cry when I later learned she wrote on Facebook that I was her hero. There is no greater love than that between a parent and a child. The lives of those she touched will never again be the same. We miss you, Chris.”

Written by: Norma Erickson


December 1993 – December 2008

Written by: Norma Erickson, Vaccines Examiner

From the day Annabelle was born, she was an exceptional child. She had a heart as big as all outdoors. Her family viewed her as a gift. Loving daughter, grand-daughter, friend and confidante to all, it didn’t take long for everyone she touched to feel the same way. Annabelle was indeed a treasure.

Early on, Annabelle showed she was determined to make the world a kinder, gentler place. The first sign was her great love for animals. It was not unusual for her to rescue any stray animal she found. As soon as she was old enough, she helped groom race horses with her grandfather. At only 12 years old, she worked as a volunteer for the SPCA. Benevolence was her nature.

Her kind heart was not reserved for animals. When called upon to be a godmother, this young woman took the job quite seriously. Annabelle had already set out to change the world, one small step at a time.

Annabelle’s life had but one guiding principle, “All that is necessary to achieve, is to believe.” Annabelle believed she would become a veterinary surgeon.

9 December 2008, 15 days after her second shot of Gardasil, that dream ended. Annabelle went to take a bath less than 10 feet from where her family was sitting. 30 minutes later, she was found dead. No cry, no unusual sound, she left the world in silence.

Annabelle lived in Canada, where the parents do not need to be informed when vaccination takes place. Her family had heard the advertisements for Gardasil for two years prior to when she actually received the first shot. They had discussed it and agreed that based on the advertisements, the vaccination would be a good idea.

16 days after Annabelle’s first shot, she suffered from aphasia (the inability to understand spoken or written language), weakness, amnesia, inability to speak and difficulty standing. Not knowing she had received a Gardasil shot, her parents took her to the hospital to find answers.

No one at the hospital asked if she had recently received a vaccination. Even though many of her symptoms were neurological, her brain scan came back normal. All they could say was that it was not normal for such a previously healthy girl to suffer these symptoms. There were no answers.

Almost two years later, Annabelle’s family still has no answer from the coroner as to her cause of death. The coroner could find no reason.

In the name of Annabelle, and all of the girls across Canada, her family fights for a public investigation into the circumstances surrounding Annabelle’s death. They want to see no more reports of fatalities after HPV vaccinations.

For more information, read Annabelle’s mother’s story here.

Freek Hagoort – The Netherlands

8 years old at time of death

Following are excerpts from an article written by Anneke Bleeker. 

Family of criminal decides whether he should be punished? Is this possible in our country, in the time we live in; or, is it a sign of the time in which we live? A criminal who has a lot to answer for, is not judged by independent judges, but by his own family!

The verdict is clear: you don’t hand over your own family to a possible prison term, even when the offense warrants exactly that. Who would believe this scenario could happen?

Unfortunately, it appears that is just what is happening. Freek was an ordinary boy, like thousands of others his age. He played with his friends, went to school, played football and performed all kinds of activities boys his age do. He was a normal boy, part of a family; he had a father, mother and brother. Freek Hagoort did not become ‘special’ until after his death.

Freek Hagoort died just before his ninth birthday, only three days after he received his MMR and DTP vaccines. He died on 9 March 2009. This is reported in various ways, through newspapers, books, radio and television shows, and lectures. Only after his death is his name known. He is now a ‘special child.’ Freek is a special boy who died as the result of vaccination, recognized by everyone except the Government!

It seems government health officials feel the information should not be brought forth, not under any circumstances! If indeed, should information appear in the newspapers that Freek’s demise was a result of the national vaccination program, the wider implications are known. The vaccination program would be staggering even more than it already is.

You see, Freek died at the same time questions were being raised about the HPV vaccination ‘feast.’ He died at a particularly poor moment, just because of the media frenzy over whether vaccines are reliable, or not. Do they have added value; or are they downright dangerous? 

Those issues were in focus at that moment, so, the fact that a boy died because of vaccinations that have already been given for decades could not come to light. His death could not have happened at a more inconvenient moment.
When Freek’s parents contacted the general practitioner because the boy had become so very ill, they admitted that this reaction could be a result of the vaccinations, which were given the Thursday before. They were told this type of reaction had been confirmed a couple of times, and one needed not to worry, he would get well.
Following his death, upon contacting RIVM (National Institute for Public Health and the Environment), the pathologist received a clear message that this death had nothing to do with vaccination, so he didn’t have to do an investigation into it. Out of the question!

The parents were treated like capital offenders, who had abused their own child and that was it!

So, at first, according the the GP, Freek’s being so ill could be related to the vaccinations. Death was not considered at the moment. Then, after his death this relationship was out of the question according to RIVM!

The National Vaccine Program for every new-world citizen is launched even before they are born, when the pregnant mother is advised to get the pertussis and flu vaccines. Day one, the HepB vaccine is waiting for the newborn. If parents object, or question–they are told loud and clear that they are being irresponsible.

Who is irresponsible? The Government that wants the population filled up with vaccines, without properly knowing what all it brings about; OR, the parents who want to know all of the facts before vaccination?
(NOTE: The SaneVax team has been informed that the Dutch Institute for Health (RIVM) did the original autopsy and concluded the vaccines had nothing to do with Freek’s death. The parents wanted an independent autopsy conducted, but to this day, the Dutch authorities refuse to provide the necessary tissue samples. Our question is this, “If the vaccines were not related to this young boy’s death, why are the authorities refusing to provide samples for independent appraisal?”

Santana Gabrielle Valdez – New Mexico

October 1988 – August 2007

Written by: Norma Erickson, Vaccines Examiner
Santana was born with a smile on her face, October 28, 1988. Her enthusiasm and zest for life were apparent from the very beginning. She had a certain gift for bringing joy to those around her.

As she grew, you could always find her surrounded by a group of children eager to be entertained by her stories and games. She loved them and they loved her. Her 2 year old niece was just one of her constant companions. But, children were not her only fans. Santana attracted people like a magnet. Evrryone wanted to be a part of the zest for life that permeated every aspect of Santana’s existence.

Santana was one of those rare children who always believed in Angels. She knew they were here to watch over and protect us. She never questioned the spiritual side of life; she just knew.

Santana’s was her mother’s best friend They did everything together and shared each others’ secrets, dreams, hopes, and desires. Santana knew mom always harbored a secret desire to travel. Mom knew Santana was aftaid of death. No parent could ask for more.
Santana had a habit of calling her mom several times throughout the day, just to check in and see wht mom was up to at the time. One day, she didn’t call and mom became concerned. She went home to find her best friend had died in her sleep.

The date: August 31, 2007 — less than four months after her last injection of Gardasil.

Santana left behind a family desperately searching for answers. The coroner could find no cause of death, she was dumfounded. Mom needs to know why her healthy, vibrant, loving best friend is gone. Her niece wants to know when Santana will ‘come back from heaven.’ She is only four years old now, and still thinks the cemetary is heaven. Her brother spends his time trying to fill Santana’s shoes. Her grandfather’s health has been steadily declining since Santana’s demise. This is a family searching to find out why they were left with a huge hole where Santana used to be.

Santana’s mother says, “Her memory will live on forever, through the eyes and hearts of all who knew her. She touched so many in her short life! We needed more time with her!

These girls’ lives are being cut short by other people, but nobody will take the blame. They are allowed to continue doing so!

I loved Santana so much! Half of me died along with her on the morning of August 31st, 2007!

If you are considering an HPV vaccine, please investigate before you vaccinate.”

For more information, read Santana’s mother’s story here

Jessica Ericzon – New York

March 1990 – February 2008

Written by: Norma Erickson, Vaccines Examiner
Jessie was born ready to tackle the world. It didn’t really matter what activity people were involved in, you would find her right in the middle of things. From the very beginning, she excelled at everything she tried to do. She was born believing life was a challenge she was ready for.
Jessie grew up across the road from her grandfather’s dairy farm. She learned to milk cows, drive a tractor and put up hay. Hard work was no stranger to her, in fact, she relished the prospect. She knew it took hard work to get things done, but that did not bother her in the least.

Jessie loved people. It was her personal mission to come to the aid of anyone who was being picked on. In her world, everyone deserved a fair chance. She tried to make sure everyone around her had one.

Jessica loved the outdoors. Whether it be cheerleading, snowboarding with her brother, working on the farm, or practicing her pitching for softball, she tackled it with an enthusiasm that could rarely be matched.,

Jessica loved Spaghetti-O’s, pepperoni, lilies, listening to her iPod and making her friends laugh; not necessarily in that order. Her family and friends always came first and foremost in her heart and mind. She was a girl with all of her priorities in the right place.

Her zest for life extended to academics. Jessica was an honor student, a senior in High School, looking forward to going to college at SUNY. She planned to major in psychology. She was pursuing her greatest ambition, to become a New York State Trooper. Jessica had the world by the tail.

All of that promise came to an abrupt end on February 22, 2008, when Jessica’s parents came home from work to find her dead on the bathroom floor. Their shocking discovery occurred only 2 days after Jessie’s third and final injection of the HPV vaccine, Gardasil.

Once again, Gardasil seems to have lived up to their marketing campaign promise. Gardasil has taken one of the best of the best and made her ‘one less.’

Jessica’s mother, Lisa would like to add, “Losing your daughter at the age of 17 is indescribable. It is something that I will live with for the rest of my life. Knowing that it could have been prevented is a guilt I will carry also. Jessie was the All American teenager – happy, healthy, never did drugs or smoked. She was so full of everything life could offer her and did everything life would allow. She participated in all the sports and cheer leading in her school. Jess was an honor student and #8 in her class. 

I could go on and on because she was someone who I was ALWAYS proud to call my daughter. She was the best of the best and was on the road to becoming a success story in today’s world. Now she is gone and my life is empty without her.

Gardasil killed my daughter Jessie and it is my hope that Gardasil will end soon, so no other family has to suffer with losing their daughter.”


Jenny Tetlock – California 
1994 – 2009

Jenny was a 15 year old girl battling a rapidly degenerative disease that some MD’s think may be linked to the HPV vaccine she received shortly before symptoms appeared. (Although there is no scientific proof one way, or the other, Dr. Diane Harper, lead researcher, who helped design and carry out Phase II and Phase III safety and effectiveness studies prior to Gardasil’s approval and acted as a consultant to Merck, believes that the possibility of triggering a genetic disorder within a family has to be seriously considered.)

The following is an exerpt from Jenny’s Journey, a website maintained by Jenny’s family and friends to help locate similar cases:

On a sunny afternoon in May 2007, a tearful Jenny told her mother how her seventh-grade gym class laughed when she tripped on a hurdle that everyone else cleared easily. A few weeks later came the odd limp. Gradually, weakness spread; her muscles atrophied; her world shrank.

Jenny’s parents frantically rushed her to an ever wider range of specialists, to no avail. By spring 2008, Jenny was a quadriplegic who could breathe only with machine support. She clung to life for almost a year but she never made it to see another spring.

No one knows exactly when Jenny’s disease began—or what disease she had. World-class neurologists suspect Lou Gehrig’s disease, or amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS). This relentless killer spares the mind, while methodically destroying the body’s motor neurons until the patient’s body slips into total, irreversible paralysis.

Yet medical opinion is not unanimous. The CDC estimates the odds of ALS among teenage girls at 1 in 3 million, less than those of being struck by lightning. A far more common cause of paralysis among teenage girls is autoimmune disease.

Jenny passed away on 15 March 2009, surrounded by her family.

Moshella Roberts – North Carolina 

20 years old

Moshella died after Gardasil vaccination, 5 April 2008, her first day on the job at Trinity Home Health Care. Shelly appeared to have died in her sleep while on the job that morning.

Shelly was a student at Fayetteville State University in her sophomore year. She was a funny, quiet and easy-going person. Although she had a ‘laid back personality,’ she loved to help other people. In her spare time, she enjoyed doing hair and spending time with family and friends.
In High School, she was a varsity cheerleader, an active volunteer for her commuity (Special Olympics, make-up artist for a major play, and various civic functions). She received her CNA while maintaining honor status at college. She was majoring in psychology at Fayetteville State University.

During her sophomore year, she sought employment through a home health care agency. She died suddenly her first day on the job, coincidentally, only four days after receiving Gardasil.

Brooke Petkevicius – Florida

19 years old

Written by: Cynthia Janak

Brooke was enrolled at the University of California, Berkley where she studied social work, majoring in Social Welfare. She was involved in many extra-curricular activities, including co-ed volleyball and ballroom dancing. She played on an intramural volleyball team and went to kickboxing classes.

Brooke died 14 days after her first injection of Gardasil from a pulmonary embolism, or blood clot, on 26 March 2007. There was no family history of this problem.

Brooke’s Story: “Brook did not smoke,” said her school friend, Megan Sedowski. “She was possibly one of the healthiest people I’ve ever met. She never did drugs, and rarely drank alcohol. She worked out daily, and took a lot of classes at the gym. She never complained about anything, really–certainly not her health. She was an amazing, upbeat, caring, healthy young woman. Her death was a complete shock!”

Brooke had dressed to go running with a friend because they were training for a half-marathon. She walked to the elevator, collapsed against the wall and had a seizure. Brooke was rushed to the hospital and passed away.
Brooke never had any problems with blood clots, nor did her family have any history of clotting problems. 

Subsequent tests of her younger sister and her mother showed nothing genetic. Brooke had no allergies, no tobacco use, and no past substance abuse problems. Drug tests came back negative.

Cynthia Janak, author, spoke to all of her family. They told her what a wonderful, kind-hearted young woman she was. She had dreams and aspirations for her future. They spoke about how her laughter was contagious and how her smile lit up a room. This was a girl who had it hard growing up, as many of us, but became a stronger person for it. As Cynthia likes to say, “She took sour grapes and made fine wine.”


Amber Kaufmann – Missouri

16 years old

Written by her mother.

Amber was a perfectly healthy 16 year old girl who collapsed on her way into work, with a seizure. Then her heart stopped. Amber played vollyball, track, bowled and loved hanging out with her boyfriend, family and friends. She was upbeat, fun and loved life. She was the last in the nest; she was my best friend. She looked forward to joining the military like her older brother and sister.
Amber’s Story: 31 March 2008, Amber went to the doctor for a sore throat and at the same time she was administered her second shot of Gardasil. She also had a shot of Rocephin and was put on Erythromycin (Z pack). Being her mom, I asked if she should have the shot since she was sick, and her nurse practitioner said it would be no problem. She was also in the middle of her menstrual cycle when she received the shot.

She stayed home from school a couple of days as she complained of headaches, being tired and slept a lot. I attributed it to her illness.

She went to school on 3 April 2008. Amber was on her way to work after school and I was on my way home. She called to let me know that the road to our house was closed due to water. That was the last time I ever talked to her. About 15 minutes later, I got a call from her work saying she had collapsed on her way into work.

I live only a few blocks from where she works. When I arrived, they were just getting ready to start CPR. Amber was taken to the hospital about 15 minutes away. They did not get a heart beat until they reached the emergency room. She was transferred to St. Louis Children’s Hospital, where she did not come off life support. Her brain had swelled and without a breathing tube, or tube feeding her, she would not be able to live. She was brain dead.

Amber was an organ donor on April 7, 2008. I sat at her head in the surgery room while they removed her breathing tube, she tried breathing for a while. I’m the one that had to tell her to go and to just be at peace. I was the one with her at the end.

No mother should have to do that for her child. It was the hardest thing I have ever done, or ever will do, in my life! I am so glad Amber saved at least five other lives. I get up every day because I know she would want me to let others know not to get this vaccine to prevent this from happening to any other young women, or moms.

Megan Hild – New Mexico

20 years old

Megan loved children, especially her nieces and nephew. Her family was her life and she never missed an opportunity to spend time with them. She especially liked to be at home just hanging out with family and friends.
Megan was a student at CNM working towards her Associates degree in radiology and general studies. Megan’s beautiful smile will be greatly missed by all who knew and loved her.

She was a very healthy and happy young lady, and loved going to college.

Here is an excerpt from an email her mother sent:
“On her death certificate, it will read – cause of death unknown. She’s my daughter and I loved her!!!! I will never see her graduate college. I will never see her wear a wedding dress and hold her babies in her arms.

We have a sixteen year old son who says, ‘Life does not matter; what you do in life does not matter.’ This is how this vaccine has changed our family’s life forever!

Megan was 20, happy and healthy. She was attending college with a promise of marriage after graduation. She held her life in the palm of her hand. Now, all this family has is a certificate with an unexplained cause of death on it.

Something that was to protect her health may have taken her life. There needs to be an investigation right away–before more young women are injured, or worse, die. Please do not allow another family to have to live the life we have been made to live.”

Megan’s symptoms included rash, severe stomach pains, severe headaches/migraines, extreme fatigue and vaginal bleeding.


Jasmin Soriat – Germany
April 1988 – October 2007
Less that one month after her last Gardasil injection, Jasmin’s friend discovered her body. She had evidently died in her sleep, succumbing to respiratory paralysis.
Jasmin was fit, happy and fun-loving. She had never experienced any serious illnesses, had no lung disease, and had never smoked. She also had no previous problems after any of her normal vaccinations.
Searching for answers, her parents meticulously reconstructed her final hours of life. According to their investigations, “She was at a concert, a Spanish band. Before midnight, she was at a fast food restaurant. She then drove with her flatmate home, via taxi to Dobling. At approximately two o’clock in the morning, she drank som tea.”
The next morning, her girlfriend came by to check up on her, but Jasmin, according to her friend, “must have died a few hours earlier in her sleep.”
(This is a rough translation from a German Document.)

Jasmine Renata – New Zealand
18 years old

This information is from Jasmine’s mother and the report filed with the CARM database (New Zealand’s version of VAERS)

“My 18 year old Daughter had all three shots and not long completed the third, she complained of weakness in her arm, headaches, dizziness, heart racing ,and pins and needles in her hands . All within the last 6 months ,we reasoned all the tell tale signs. She died in her sleep on the 22nd of September 2009. She had none of these symptoms with any other immunization. We are all still filled with disbelief as she was so healthy, never smoked and hardly drank, a workaholic, Jasmine luvu4eva!!”

Jasmine’s medical records show that she had her first HPV vaccine on the 18th of September 2008 around the 20th of October she developed warts on her hand and very dry skin on both hands and lips – the Doctor noted that it was not eczema and prescribed ‘multivitamins to increase immunity, and burnt the warts off with liquid nitrogen – her temperament changed and she became very agitated over this time – it was put down to having ugly warts and rough skin – “she hated them”
She had her 2nd HPV vaccination on the 18th of November 2008. Her file states “ok after last injection – no problems.” By January the warts had returned and there were some under her nails which were really painful – the dryness on her hands was still there and she felt dizzy at times with pins and needles in her hand – she also suffered quick bursts of memory lapses and pains in the abdomen. On the 28th of January 2009 she had the warts burnt off her fingers with liquid nitrogen. Her 3rd and final HPV vaccine was given on the 17th March 2009 and despite the previous issues the doctor wrote ‘No concerns after 2nd dose, no contraindications.’

During this time, Jasmine was receiving the Depo Provera injection for birth control – at the time I did not know how this would affect the HPV vaccination, if at all, excepting that the toxic load from both vaccines would have been a heavy burden on her system.

This is what happened after her 3rd and final HPV shot – in her mothers words…

“Pretty much immediately straight after the third vaccine, Jasmine’s temperament became even more agitated and she was a lot snappier. She complained every so often about a weak arm and tiredness during the day, but we thought that was her doing more shifts for other people than in the past. She slept in the day, whenever possible.
However, the arm pain continued and she used to get pins and needles and tingling in her hands for no reason. Jasmine started sleeping in longer in the morning, and also going to sleep in the middle of the day before her afternoon shift. She started dropping things.

She also started to eat more than normal, but wasn’t putting on weight.

Jasmine started waking up at night in sweats, and sweating in bed, even when it was a cold pillow, it would be sopping.

From June onwards, Jasmine started to complain of feeling clumsy. She started saying things like, “God, I’m getting clumsy!” and she was knocking things over, and dropping stuff. She complained that she was dropping things at work as well.

About the same time, we started to notice that Jasmine’s thinking wasn’t right. For instance, she asked me if I’d like her to grate some carrots. I said, “Yes, please.” She got out the grater and the carrot, looked at me, and said, “Which way up does the grater go?” Having grated carrots, cheese and stuff hundreds of times before, that was a surprise. Even Jasmine would say something like, “Gee how dumb is that!” This wasn’t a one-off.

In other little things too, where in the past she’d just do it, she didn’t seem to know how. It was like re-teaching a child.

And then she’d ask me, “What should I do with my money this week?” This was a girl who certainly knew what to do with her money in the past.

Looking back, it seems she’d just lose the plot occasionally. She stopped being able to make her own decisions or work out how to do simple things. She was even asking me whether she should do other people’s shifts at work. I got to the point where I thought, “This girl is losing her marbles… where is her decision making gone? Why can’t she do simple things any more?”
In July, Jasmine intermittently complained of chest pain, and a racing heart. We’d ask her if she was stressed but she said she wasn’t.

At the beginning of August, Jasmine got a cold. Normally, her colds might last two days and she had never needed anything for them before this one, but this one just got worse, and worse. She also complained of a sore achy back and abdominal pain. And the warts returned again.
Jasmine’s cold never got better, and on 21st September, the day before she died, she was still complaining of a runny nose, which wouldn’t stop. She also had quite a few headaches during that cold, and leading up to her death. Her skin changed, with a lot more pimples than normal, which really upset her.

Jasmine also talked about going to have more liquid nitrogen on the warts.

In a photo the day before she died, she doesn’t look right. Her hair was lanky and she was very tired. But even so, she was constantly hungry and eating a lot more than normal. Eating more than normal didn’t seem to fit with a constantly tired sick girl, who had had a cold for more than six weeks.

On the 22 September 2009. Jasmine Renata Died in her sleep overnight.

“The Renata’s received from the coroners office (after pushing them for answers), a letter from ESR , which listed samples delivered to them, and the results. Basically, they confirmed what everyone knew – that Jasmine didn’t take opiates, P, acetaminophen, alcohol etc, and there was nothing “self-inflicted” in her system which could have caused her death.”

Visit Gardasil Killed My Daughter, by Rhonda Renata.
Two other girls from New Zealand have also died in their sleep after Gardasil vaccinations, but their families wish to retain their privacy while attempting to cope with their grief.

Meet Alexander (from his parents)
In August of 1998 our son, 2 year old Alexander was diagnosed with medullolastoma, a highly malignant form of brain cancer. Sadly he died from the cancer in January 1999. We decided to have some testing done on the tumor tissue following his death. These test showed that SV40 was in Alexander’s brain tumor and that the virus was active in creating the cancer. TheCDC has admitted that polio vaccines in the past have been contaminated with SV40 but it has since been removed. Alexander had received the oral polio vaccine just 8 months before developing his cancer. The typical gestation time for medulloblastoma is 7 months. The oral polio vaccine was discontinued the following year, sadly too late to have prevented Alexander’s death.

From Mikala: 

"My daughter, Carliie, was vaccine injured after receiving the Dtap shot at her 2 month appointment. She started having a Grand Mal seizure within 2 minutes after injection. She was hospitalized and for weeks because we couldn't get her fever below 102°. Of course her pediatrician tried to play it off- act like the vaccine wasn't to blame and some other factor(s) had caused her seizures. She is now medically exempt from vaccines.

When we had our son, we switched pediatricians. He asked us if we'd be vaccinating him; we told him no, and told him why... The first thing he said was that he was sorry that vaccines caused my daughter to suffer and that he would prefer not to administer them anyway. 

A few months before our son was born, my husband went and got his boosters. He'd been successfully vaccinated, with no issues prior to that... this time was different. After about 10 minutes he went into anaphylactic shock- he broke out in hives, started vomiting, then gasping for breath and blacked out due to lack of oxygen. They had to intubate him in order for him to get more oxygen. He also dealt with a mild case of encephalitis, which thankfully didn't cause any permanent damage. 

We decided to stop vaccinating everyone in our family because of what happened to my husband and daughter. We were lucky, because neither of them have any permanent neurological damage as a result, but other families weren't as lucky as we were. "


Meet R.J. son of Former NFL Player Rodney Peete and Actress Holly Robinson Peete.

Holly took the twins in for their 2-year-old checkup. They’d had ear infections and were both coming off a course of antibiotics. Holly asked the doctor if he would delay their next round of immunizations because she thought loading them up with that much medicine while they were still a bit weak from the antibiotics might be too much for their little bodies. She believes the doctor brushed off her concerns as those of an overly cautious first-time mom. Something about this disturbed what she calls her “mommy gut,” an instinct that moms have that goes beyond what professionals say. 

She asked him if there was any way he could break up the measles/mumps/rubella vaccination so that they would not have to get such a potent cocktail all at once. The doctor said that that couldn’t be done. Besides, the nurse said, the twins were behind in their immunizations. 

Holly got even more concerned when she found out that they might be receiving more than just the MMR vaccine. She wanted to know what was in the shots and how many of them there would be. She remembers the nurse looked at her like she was psycho mommy, and told her to relax while she took R.J. in to be weighed. Holly was sitting in another examining room holding on to Ryan, when she heard R.J. screaming, “No! Mommy!” She ran to R.J. and saw that the nurse had given him the MMR plus the second hepatitis B and the polio vaccines.

The nurse said that it usually was easier with the parents out of the room. Maybe it was easier for the nurse, but for the next eight years, nothing about R.J. would be easy for our family. At home that night, R.J. had a terrible fever and started shaking violently, just short of something like a seizure. Holly called the pediatrician to ask him what could have caused this. Should we take R.J. to the hospital? 

The doctor was unruffled and told us that it was not a reaction to the shots. He recommended that we give R.J. some Tylenol to help him with the fever and he promised that R.J. would be fine. R.J. had a terrible reaction to the Tylenol and we rushed him to the emergency room late that night. We believe he went into some kind of toxic overload shock. After that, we didn’t hear the words “Mommy” or “No” for about four years. 

That day of the vaccination marked a major turning point for R.J. Within a week of the shots, he stopped responding to his name. Shortly after the shots, R.J. withdrew. He stopped making eye contact and he didn’t laugh much. Often he’d just lie curled up in a ball staring at his hand or the wooden slats of the crib, lost in a world of his own. We asked our pediatrician what was happening with R.J., and he acted as though what we described was no big deal. He reminded us that boys develop differently than girls. R.J. was later diagnosed with autism.

"My name is Sarah and I have 3 children, 2 were vaccine injured. My oldest has permanent nerve damage in his face from vaccine induced Bell's Palsy after he received both flu and varicella vaccines to go on a Boy Scout camping trip when he was 12. 

My middle child is 5 and is recovering from autism. We didn't realize hers was from vaccines until we dug further and luckily it was before our 3rd child was born that we discovered the link. Our 3 year old was not vaccinated and so far is neurotypical.

We keep to ourselves about vaccines most of the time, not hiding, but we've found that people who haven't experienced reactions firsthand are less likely to see that vaccine reactions are real and can be devastating.

I found my daughter's 2 month "well child" sheet and this helped me start putting the pieces together. She was 2 months old. She was 5 weeks premature. She was sick the day of her shots and she received not one, but 8 vaccines. She was given Tylenol. When I got home, she had a fever and a rash. Without even getting her out of the carseat, I drove back up tot he doctor's office and showed the nurse her rash. She was annoyed and said give her some benadryl and let her sleep it off. Her brain swelled and sent her down a path we weren't even prepared for. I wish I had known then what I know now."

From Allyson Lassen

I am a mother of three beautiful children. My girls are 24 and 21, and my son is 11 years old. This is our vaccine injury story.

When my oldest daughter was born, I wanted nothing more than for her to be happy and healthy. I took her to every well child check up and always followed her pediatrician’s advice. My daughter was perfectly healthy until her 2 month well child appointment. This is when she received her first round of immunizations. That afternoon, she developed a fever and was not acting like hers usual self. Instead of putting her in her crib to sleep, I let her sleep on my chest while I sat up. My daughter stopped breathing twice while she was lying on my chest. We rushed her to the emergency room where they diagnosed her with pneumonia. The doctors put her on antibiotics, but then she developed an ear infection, which required more antibiotics.

Her six months shots produced a similar response, in that she again stopped breathing, developed pneumonia and an ear infection that followed. The next few months were filled with ear infections and sickness, leading to pneumonia.

My daughter was not feeling well at her 15 month well child check up, so the doctor delayed her vaccinations. I brought her in for her 18 month visit and the doctor talked me into giving her the 15 month and 18 month shots at the same time…a double dose of Polio, DTP, and HIB, along with her 1st MMR. Her reaction was almost immediate, the inconsolable crying, the screaming, and the high fever that lasted for days. She got so sick from her 18 month vaccinations and her fever was so high for so long, along with the harsh chemicals in the vaccines, that it damaged the hair follicles in her head and her hair started to fall out…like a chemo patient. When it finally grew back in, it grew in coarse, like troll doll hair. Her beautiful blonde curls were gone.

Her doctor assured me that when she stopped breathing after her vaccinations both at 2 and 6 months and suddenly, over the course of a few hours, developed pneumonia, that it was NORMAL and it didn't have anything to do with her vaccinations earlier in the day. TWICE!!! I was dismissed by the doctors and I was sent home from the ER with a very sick baby, who was perfectly fine just a few hours earlier. I still continued with her vaccinations after that, not realizing that my daughter had suffered adverse reactions to immunizations. No one shared with me that the ingredients in vaccines could be harmful. No one told me that there was mercury, formaldehyde, aluminum, and other known neurotoxins that are used as adjuvants in vaccines and that they could cause harm to my child. No one told me that there are children who have adverse reactions to vaccinations that sometimes include death. It wasn't until I was pregnant with my youngest child, that I started doing research on vaccine ingredients and side effects and realized what had happened to my daughter! I’m thankful that I followed my instinct and was holding her both times when she stopped breathing and that she is still alive today. I am thankful that I was able to celebrate her wedding in September of 2014! 
If vaccine injury happened to us, it could happen to anyone! Educate before you vaccinate!

"Dan got his second dpt shot at 4 mos. Within 3 hours I heard a horrific scream . When I held him he tightened up in a fetal position and just kept on screaming. I later found out he was having seizures due to the vaccine. He talked till he was 2 then all speech stopped, but the seizures kept right on.

He was never toilet trained. We now know he was autistic. 5 yrs ago he had a procedure that gave him a stroke. He died from congestive heart failure april 29 of this 2014. We sued the government and won but it wasn't enough to keep him taken care of for 37 yrs. Miss him so very much. He was truly a huge part of my life. " 

Mom: Daughter paralyzed because of flu shot

TAMPA, Fla. – A Bay area mother spends her day caring for a bedridden daughter who can no longer walk and has very little vocabulary. She blames it on the flu vaccine.


"She (used to) love school, she was running, playing signing in the church choir," said Carla Grivna.


In their home in the Town 'N Country area, Grivna says the nightmare started last November when she took her daughter to get her routine flu shot.


Four days after getting the vaccine, Marysue fell ill with a rare viral infection of the brain called Acute Disseminated Encephalomyelitis (ADEM).


How did an otherwise healthy 9-year-old suddenly become so paralyzed that her father has to carry her?


Her family says it was because of the flu shot.


"It can be triggered by a virus it high fever or by a vaccination," said Grivna.


Mother blames flu shot for daughter's ailments


The disease, which is similar to multiple sclerosis, may appear following vaccination or bacterial infection.


"It can just appear out of the blue or after maybe a surgical procedure, said Dr. Juan Dumois, director of infectious diseases at All Children's Hospital. "It's otherwise unexplainable."


He says developing the illness, for which there is no way to predict or prevent, from a flu shot happens.


With that said, he does not recommend not taking the flu shot because the disease can be contracted that way as well.


"If I get the flu I'm far more likely to get ADEM than from the flu vaccine," said Dumois, who treats a few similar cases at the hospital every year.


He also said that recovery is possible, but many times not likely if improvements are not see within six months after the onset of the initial symptoms.


While most common in children, adults are also susceptible to contracting the disease.


Dumois insists that the number of cases per year is rare with the incidence rate is about 8 per 1,000,000 people per year.


This campaign is raising money for "Help build My Room After A.D.E.M."

One year ago, Marysue Grivna was a happy and healthy nine-year-old girl.

But just three days after receiving a flu shot, she was suddenly paralyzed and diagnosed with a rare disease.

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Carla Grivna, Marysue's mother, spoke to Tucker Carlson and Clayton Morris on "Fox and Friends Weekend" this morning.

Grivna said doctors won't confirm or deny a link between her daughter's paralysis and the flu shot, but Grivna and her husband are 100% sure that the shot is what caused Marysue's condition.

"There was no underlying condition," Grivna said. "So many tests at the hospital to try and find something else that could have caused it, and they could not find anything."

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Now confined to a wheelchair and with a very limited vocabulary, Marysue has been diagnosed with Acute Disseminated Encephalomyelitis (ADEM), a rare inflammatory disease of the central nervous system, which affects approximately 8 in 1 million people per year.

"I'm saying to parents: hear my story, understand what happened to my daughter, ask questions, be informed and make an informed decision with your doctor's guidance," Grivna said.

From Israel and Nikki Portillo:

"Three years ago today, I took my son in for his 4 month old check up. He was flown to Phoenix children's hospital on the 5th and left us on the 7th. We miss you, Eli"

Logan, at 2.5 years old got his MMR and within 2 weeks was dead.

Here is the story of 4 month old Vance Vernon Walker.

Two days after little Vance’s 4 month “well baby” visit in September 2007 where he received all the routine innoculations, he was found by his mother Shelley not breathing in his crib.

Blood was crusted under his eyes and a dark bloody foam was coming out of his mouth. There was so much bloody foam coming out of his mouth that his clothes and teddy bear were soaked with it.
An autopsy pronounced his death as SIDS, but his mother knew better.

She knew it was the vaccines. She had worked for several years at a local healthfood store and had been exposed to the vaccine controversy by many customers hoping to convince her of the danger. It had never occurred to her, however, that vaccines could actually kill her child.

In a true SIDS death, a child inexplicably stops breathing with no sort of trauma, but in Vance’s case, there was blood coming out of his eyes and mouth.

Clearly, there was some sort of internal bleeding and damage that occurred prior to baby Vance’s death. This death was much more than just SIDS and such a backhanded autopsy report seems an insult to anyone with a shred of intelligence.

Here’s what Vance received 2 days before his death at the pediatrician’s office:

A shot of Pediarix, a 5-in-1 shot for diphtheria, tetanus, pertussis, hepatitis B and 3 strains of polio
A shot of Prevnar, consisting of seven pneumococcal viruses plus diphtheria toxoid
Rotateq, the new rotavirus vaccine given orally which contains four viruses associated with infant diarrhea.

In less than 15 minutes, Vance had been injected with or taken orally 19 different pathogens!
Complete and utter insanity.

What’s more striking is that Vance’s family lives in northern Idaho and within just a few weeks of Vance’s death, 2 other baby boys died of SIDS also within days of their 4 month vaccinations.

A cluster of SIDS deaths where the deaths occurred right after the babies’ 4 month shots attracted local media attention, which, to its credit, did an outstanding job covering the story in a unbiased fashion.

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The top two photos are of Tom and Tracy Colosimo on their wedding day, and of Tom in uniform. The bottom two photos show Tom's condition years after receiving the anthrax vaccine; and what he looks like when he blacks out and falls to the ground.

Tom Colosimo's story is one of the most well-known stories in the anti-anthrax vaccine movement, and one comprised of tragedy as well the the determination of the human spirit. "Colosimo's good days have been few and far between since he received his fourth anthrax vaccination in September 1999, the same month he married Tracy. Three months later, he began suffering from fatigue, sores on his head, tunnel vision and his first blackouts. To date, he's blacked out more than 700 times."
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Trent Michael Blackburn 4/29/12 - 12/21/12

Son of Christina Moore and Brent Blackburn. Christina took her happy and healthy son to his well baby visit at Seymour Medical Center in Seymour, TN when Trent was almost 8 months old. He passed away in the night, less than 13 hours after his mother was bullied at the doctors office to give him 5 vaccines, even though she only felt comfortable with one at a time. 

Christina wrote "I argued with the nurse practitioner for 30-45 minutes. They would not split the shots up! They bullied me, told me I was retarded, told me he needed all the shots that day, told me they could not split the shots up, told me it absolutely would not hurt him! He was injected with 4 needles and given the Rotavirus oral vaccine. He died less than 13 hours later. I'm upset that I argued with them and they bullied me into something that I did not want in the first place and the same thing that I told them might happen, did happen!"

She was not even given an apology when she went to pick up his medical records and saw the person who did this. A claim was filed with the Vaccine Injury Compensation Program but since the parents couldn't find an expert witness to prove Trent died from the vaccines, they settled their case for $20,000 before it went to trial. They had one of the best lawyers and still almost lost any chance at receiving any compensation. More than 2 out of 3 claims are denied and parents have to prove the vaccines harmed their child. That's what his life was worth to those responsible. Most never see a penny. Trent's younger sister he never got to meet is vaccine free. Trent is greatly loved and missed. They said he died of unknown reasons.

This is my Quavia Ectionn'e Turner
On April 17 I put the deposit on our new place.
She and my son were out growing our tiny 1 bedroom apartment. 
She was just 4 months old but already she was scooting, playing, thinking she could do more than she could. She was trying to keep up with her brother.
So we found a bigger place.
I was supposed to go get my sister the morning of the 18th but I just couldn't do it.
Somethings didn't sit right with me and I already had so much to do. I was thinking I may get pulled over on the road or something. 
So that night I cooked, we all ate, we're messing around and playing.
We were up. 
Like we normally are, we adapted to her sleeping habits, instead of forcing her to sleep normal times.
At about 3 am she was up playing. I was like you finna go to sleep little boy, she just giggled like she Normally did.
She was jumping like my mom taught her to.
So I changed and fed her and put her in bed.
My son wanted them to sleep in the living room with us but we were trying to get them to sleep in their own room and bed. So I told him no to get in bed. He gotta start sleeping in his own room like a big boy.
I tossed and turned all night. 
I called my mom at 5am and told her to tell them I wasn't coming. Around 7 went in there fed and changed her. She snatched her bottle and smiled. That was the last time I saw my love alive....
I got up went and looked in at them around 10 they were knocked out, so I decided I would continue to clean, wash, and pack.
Around 12 my son woke up.
I checked my phone,called my dad, went to the bathroom, and called my mom.
I went in there messing with her. Normally when I pounce on the bed she moves but she didn't this time. I rubbed her head she didn't embrace my touch. I just starring at her, something didn't look or feel right to me. I was looking for the stomach going up and down, nothing. 
I remember just screaming, my baby gone. She gone.
I remember Duke screaming. 
I remember Jarvis coming in grabbing her trying to do cpr.
I remember me trying, trying to clean her mouth, her nose.
I called 911.
It's like they took forever. 
I remember about to go out the door with no pants on.
When they came they laid my baby on the ground I flipped. 
I remember my Dad pulling up.
I remember the look on Duke face, Jarvis face when they told us we could not go with her.
She was alone.
We sat around waiting. 
I remember telling Jarvis, baby I gotta go, tell them take whatever she needs from me, and you give her the blood. I remember him saying please no.
I remember. 
I remember them tellingtelling us that my aunt could go be with her so she won't be alone.
Then telling us that gave us hope.
Only for someone to come tell us, that she didn't make it.
I remember Jarvis punching bricks off the wall, before I fainted.
My daughter received her 4 month shot on Monday and she was gone on Friday morning

Ian Gromowski was born on 6.25.07 healthy (pic 1). He was given his Hep B (as required to leave the hospital as a newborn) while having a fever of 102 and a weird rash occurred with n hours of the Hep B shot (pic 2). Within 48 hours his body was in anaphylactic shock. His entire life was medically documented. I sued the 'government' VICP (vaccine injury compensation program) and they settled at almost the max amount given for a death lawsuit. He never came home from the hospital and died on August 10, 2007.

Above: Payton in the ICU after vaccine injury
My journey really began on day two of my son’s life. His birth was pretty easy and when I had finished laboring I had a perfect little boy in my arms. He was calm and curious right from the start. He had many guests that day and all marveled at how serious he looked and how he didn’t cry at all. He slept in a bassinet next to my bed in perfect peace and he breastfed immediately and without trouble.

Then on day two the nurses came to get him and give him a Hepatitis B shot. At the time I had no reason to think I should not give consent. I knew nothing about vaccines except the fact that Doctors tell you need them and schools require them. Had I known he was being vaccinated against a sexually transmitted disease I might have questioned it but I am not sure.

The baby they brought back to me was not the same baby they left with. This was not my calm, serene baby. This baby cried furiously, refused to fall asleep in the bassinet, or even be put down. I joked several times that we had a baby mix-up going on here but I tried to dismiss all thoughts that maybe…just maybe the vaccine did this. One day wasn’t really enough time to know if there had been a REAL change in his behavior right?

When I brought him home he had to sleep in the crook of my arm to be able to go to sleep. You could not put him down for even a moment or he would scream. Family members had to help with the constant holding and since I rarely got a break…or any decent sleep…I gave up on breastfeeding after only 4 months…a decision I regretted.

He went in for more shots at 2 months and 4 months old. Each time he would become sick for an extended period of time but his Doctors assured me that I did not need to worry. He was sick so often that I decided to delay his six month vaccinations until he was 10 months old…at which time he got a DTP shot. This shot changed our lives forever.

He became very ill after the shot with a high fever that lasted for days. The doctors kept telling me it was normal. When his fever jumped to 104 degrees I got in the car with him and went to the emergency room. In the triage they confirmed his fever and sent us out to the waiting room. I sat and held my son and began to notice something strange. I can’t explain it other than to say that I felt that he was leaving me. He was gradually loosing eye contact and alertness and his eyes and arms were ever so slightly twitching. When I started snapping my fingers in front of him and he didn’t respond I freaked out. I ran into the triage and told them something was terribly wrong and described what I was seeing. A young nurse scooped him up and took him into a nearby room and began examining him. He also tried to get my son’s attention and when it didn’t work I could see panic on his face. Then my son’s twitches turned into a full blown, violent seizure. The nurse got on the intercom and called for immediate assistance. Two other people came and they wheeled him into another room. I stood just outside trying to see what was going on and I recall that they told me they were going to give him an anti-seizure medication and then one of them ran outside and yelled to all the medical staff, “we need to bag him!” He had gone into respiratory arrest. His room filled with about 10 people and they ushered me away.

Fearing the worst I called my husband at the nurse’s station but I couldn’t even get the words out…I could only cry into the phone. A nurse had to give him the details because I couldn’t. After he got there they explained to both of us that our son was being air-lifted to a hospital that could handle this type of situation. We had to follow in our car and over the next week he stayed in the hospital with the first days being in ICU on a ventilator.

I knew in my heart what had caused this and when I asked the treating neurologist about it…he would only say that I should trust my instincts. He wouldn’t give absolute confirmation but he wanted me to know that I was right. At a later time he would tell me that my son was not a good candidate for any further vaccinations. I also found out that my son most likely had an immune disorder at the time he got that last vaccination and really should have never received it. But medical professionals do not currently check things like that. Vaccines are one size fits all.

Unfortunately for my son this information was too late. He had many more violent seizures and he ended up with mild brain damage and since his seizures would not stop they decided to start medicating him for epilepsy at age 5 after he almost fell down a flight of stairs during a seizure. I was not happy about medicating him but I did take comfort in the fact they said it didn’t have to be permanent and that I could evaluate alternative therapies in the meantime.

In between these two events though I became pregnant again and the issue of vaccines came up on a discussion board. I was horrified to find that I still wasn’t committed to denying all vaccines for my new baby….perhaps rationalizing that my son’s case had been unique. Another mom suggested that I retrain myself and start researching vaccine injuries. I did and I found that my son’s case was not unusual. There are thousands upon thousands of children that have been harmed by vaccines. And alarmingly I found even more confirmation that vaccines had caused my son’s injury when I found hundreds of stories just like his.

By the time my second child was born I was confident in my choice to decline all vaccines. Of course that is only half the battle. Sticking to your guns on the issue can be challenging because I met with many moms and doctors that were down right militant when I expressed my opinion on the issue. They act as though they know what is best for your child and they hope to shake some sense into you so you can be the good, vaccinating parent your child deserves. They dismiss all protests that vaccines can injure children by talking about how the statistics show that the number adversely affected is so small it barely matters…..yeah right…unless you are the parent of one of those insignificant statistics. And of course they talk about all the good that vaccines do, ignoring the fact that many other factors besides vaccinations have contributed to a decline in these diseases. But if you stick you your guns…it gets easier to deal with these people.

Contrary to what others might say I do not write about these things to convince other parents that vaccines are bad and that they need to deny them. I just want other parents to know that there is risk involved. I would “think” that most parents would want to know about that. I believe in informed consent. Tell all parents both sides of the issue….the good, the bad, and the ugly, and allow them to choose for themselves. Right now most parents are only getting one half of the whole story and they are basing their decision to vaccinate on that incomplete data. Tell them that there are risks!!!

If they still decide to vaccinate that is fine…at least they know the whole story and they made a conscious decision. I will not fault them for their decision at all. I just hope that they can see why I and many other parents decided that the risk was too great and respect our decision as we respect theirs. Meanwhile I share my son’s story to help other moms see that there is another side to this issue that many don’t want you to know about. It is your right as a parent to know the whole truth.

So how is my son doing today? Much better! We have made a lot of changes in our lifestyle to eliminate further chemical exposure, we have made many dietary changes, and we have learned to adjust. I am happy to say that I after the changes we made I was confident that he could function without the epilepsy medication. Call it mother’s intuition. I was right. He has been off meds for 6 months and he has had no seizures. His weight loss has reversed itself and he is at a much healthier weight now and he no longer scratches his arms until they are a mass of bleeding wounds. It has been a long road but we are seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I now realize that we were not one of the unlucky ones. We were one of the lucky ones.

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We had a perfect pregnancy with Saba & an easy natural birth. Saba was a very healthy little girl who had a loving, cheeky & strong-willed personality. She started walking independently at 11 and a half months and was able to say ‘Mumma, Dadda & Nanna’ along with meeting all the other developmental milestones for her age. She was very ‘knowing’ and hardly ever cried. Saba slept well and enjoyed the company of her older brother Cooper and was beginning to socialise with her friends. Saba would light up a room with her beautiful smile.

In the year of 2010 the Western Australia Health Department put out a letter to families promoting the flu- vaccination for children from 6 months – 5 years of age. We followed this advice and decided that it was in our best interest to protect our children from the flu virus. So on the 19th April (exactly a week before Saba’s 1st birthday) at 12.30pm we went as a family to our GP to receive the flu-vaccination & the type we received was ‘Flu-vax’ by CSL.

That afternoon Saba presented normally, was playing & was very happy. She had her 1.45pm bottle of milk and went to bed at 2pm (like normal) and slept for 2 hours. That night she ate all of her dinner, drank her bottle of milk & was then put to bed. It was at around 8 pm that evening that she could be heard on the monitor making a soft continuous moaning noise. When we checked on Saba she was very limp, pale & had a temperature of 40.2 degrees. We then called the ambulance who arrived and she was rushed to Princess Margaret Hospital. We spent the next 2 hours in the Emergency Department and then were sent to the ward but Saba was still having seizures and it was not until 4am that Saba was taken to the Paediatric Intensive Care Unit of Princess Margaret Hospital.

In ICU Saba was intubated (put on life support) to breathe, had a tube put up her nose into her stomach for milk and medications. She was put on anti-seizure medications, blood pressure medications and many different antibiotics. Blood tests were taken and they did a MRI and cat-scan which showed us that Saba had suffered severe brain damage and multi-organ failure.

The following morning we were taken into a room in ICU and told that they didn’t expect for Saba to live and that if she somehow did, she may never walk or talk again. We rallied together in support and held strong belief that Saba could do this, that she was so strong in spirit that she could make it. The next day her blood results showed that her organs were responding more positively and then a few days later Saba began to breathe by herself. She had decided to pull through!!

Since the original incident, Saba has been admitted into PMH 40 times for mainly respiratory (breathing) problems, seizure activity that we cannot get under control or for general virus’ that she just cannot handle without medical assistance. We also almost lost her in September 2012 with a severe bout of pancreatitis (from one of her anti-seizure medications) whereby she spent six nights in ICU.

Saba has been diagnosed now as having cerebral palsy from an Acquired Brain Injury caused by the flu vaccination (‘Flu-vax’ by CSL). She is a spastic quadriplegia (GMSCF level 5 – the worst) has epilepsy and respiratory weakness.

• After 11 days in ICU we were moved to the ward to begin rehabilitation with our little yet ‘very different’ princess Saba. We began the busy timetable of physiotherapy, occupational therapy, speech therapy and many other interventions at PMH.

Saba now has a very intense rehabilitation timetable which includes seeing a private physiotherapist, occupational therapist, speech pathologist, chiropractor, naturopath, hydrotherapy sessions, massage therapist, vision specialist, conductive educator and acupuncturist which we are able to access through fundraising. Saba will need to access these therapies for the rest of her life.

Saba also needs 24/7 care & can never be left alone as she is totally dependent for all care requirements including all of her daily living activities. Our need for help in the home & specifically the assistance with Saba’s care & mobilisation will only increase as Saba grows older & bigger.

Virginia Young's daughter:

Weighing in at 4 pounds and 9 ounces at 34 weeks and 5 days gestation at birth she was tiny, but the epitome of health. The nurses came to me with funny stories about her and Matthew before I even had the chance to hold them. One said, "I have never seen anything like it. She is covered with tubes and had been stuck countless times and cried a little but then I swear she looked up and smiled. Then twin brother is getting stuck with needles right next her and she looks over at him like "Hey, Dude, get over it..look at'll be ok". Well we all know that newborns don't smile...and if it looks like they do it must be gas. The stories kept coming though...from nurses and even a doctor...although the doctor was reluctant to admit it was a smile. It was more like "if I didn't know better I would think she just smiled at me".

It's a very good thing she had her attitude about life from that early age because at ten days she would be stuck with the Hep B regardless of what her father and I wanted to do. I didn't like the fact that Matthew was too small for a circumcision but they could be injected with that stuff. They weren't even old enough to be considered term, but the doctors swore that nothing could go wrong...NOTHING. 

Within 24 hours she was covered head to toe with the rash you see here..and she was writhing in pain..screaming...covered in hives...and scratching at herself until she bled. To this day she deals with the aftermath of that vaccine. The rash has lessened, but it is there. As she said as a little is part of her. It is part of what and who she is. It is her story. But the fact that we have watched other children suffer with the same illness following vaccines and some not live to tell about it is not acceptable.

Vaccines repeatedly left her speechless, but it didn't last. Vaccines took her memory from her. She didn't know her name or age after the Menomune at three years...but it didn't last. Praise God! That's all I can say.

She has suffered things I really don't care to mention here, but I can say that I have seen her blow vomit out her nose only to look up at me and say "Well, you don't see that every day!" and chuckle with her sweet smile. I have seen her drift off in the most intense pain as if she is succumbing to it saying "God help me" then losing consciousness only to recover later cracking jokes and making the funniest faces you could ever imagine. Even more importantly throughout it all she has cared and thought of others first before herself.

I share this now because somewhere out there is someone suffering much the same and he/she/they need encouragement. Right now. Hang in there...God bless you!

To learn more about urticaria pigments, or as Marie used to say "Put the piggie in the toaster" and mastocytosis...go to To learn more about vaccine dangers...well I could list about 100 sites so I will keep it to just two...www.nvic.organd My family can be reached through those sites or you can message me on Facebook.

Gina and Harry Tembenis - 

My husband Harry and I brought our son Elias in for his four-month wellness appointment. It was December 26, the day after Christmas. My husband was holding him when he got the shots. When the nurse stuck him with the needle my son just stiffened up like a board and screamed. My husband asked, "What did you give him?" and they ran down the list, four shots for nine different diseases. My husband said, halfheartedly joking, "You know what? That would kill an elephant, let alone an infant." Boy, did he hit the nail on the head because when we brought him home, the beginning of the worst had begun.

They gave us the precautionary, "He might run a fever…a little swelling," the usual "blah blah blah" spiel they give.
So the fact that he was fussy when we put him to bed didn't seem so out of the ordinary. He kept waking up. So I kept going in, and checking on him but he was fine. My husband had to go to work in the morning and asked me if we could turn the monitor off. I said, "No, no, no, don't turn it off. Let's just turn it down low so at least I can still hear him." So, Elias finally fell asleep but then I heard him make this weird noise so I got up and started walking towards his room. When I walked in, I saw my boy convulsing in his crib. He was having a full-blown seizure.
I started screaming to my husband and he jumped out of bed and we put a blanket around him and ran out of the house. There was an ice storm happening but we lived really close to a hospital so we didn't even think to call an ambulance. We just grabbed him and jumped into the car. But when we got into the car, it was frozen. This whole time he was still seizing in my arms. I started freaking out and both of us ran to our other car and were desperately trying to get into it.
We finally got in, and foam was coming out of his mouth. I just kept saying to him, "stay with me, stay with me, stay with me."

MILWAUKEE (WITI) — Two sisters in their teens just starting to grow up say they’ve been robbed of their womanhood when faced with a life-changing diagnosis.

There are few relationships in life as strong as that of sisters. It is a bond formed at birth strengthened through time. Maddie and Olivia Meylor are separated by just 13 months — sharing clothes, a love of sports, and in 2007, a life-changing doctor’s visit.

“We went to the same physician throughout the years,” said Joen Meylor, Maddie and Olivia’s mom.

At their annual physical, the doctor suggested a new vaccine.

“She said it would prevent cancer. I jumped on board and said ‘absolutely. Anything to prevent cancer,’” said Joen.

“I just remember the first shot. It hurt really bad,” said Olivia.

The initial pain was nothing compared to what they say happened next.

“As the years went on, Madelyne never got her period,” said Joen.

Time passed, and Maddie’s development took a turn.

“I still hadn’t had my period, which I thought was weird,” said Maddie.

After multiple doctor visits, her diagnosis was in.

“We did some testing and sure enough, I had POF,” said Maddie.

Maddie was diagnosed with premature ovarian failure. She was going through menopause at just 16 years old.

“I do remember just being confused and like, emotional,” Maddie said.

Maddie relied on Olivia for support. Only to find out months later the sisters shared the same fate.

“I was also diagnosed in July,” said Olivia.

“We were devastated,” said Joen.

“It’s rare at their age and it’s very rare that two sisters would have premature ovarian failure,” said Joen.

The sisters went through the same genetic testing, looking for answers. They say all roads led back to that doctor’s visit in 2007.

“I realized it was the Gardasil vaccine,” said Joen.

The Meylors believe the HPV vaccine is to blame for their rare disorder.

Tuesday’s incident took place at an anganwadi centre in Ujjain district’s Bandka village.

The death of two kids in the span of 10 days raises questions on the standard of medicines being used in government programmes. Three-and-a-half month old Krushna was taken to get a DPT (Diphtheria, Tetanus, Pertussis) vaccine shot in the morning.

The child’s father, Dinesh Panchal, said the boy started frothing at the mouth within half-an-hour of receiving the injection.

“When we informed the anganwadi assistant there, she said it was common and the child might cry for the rest of the day,” the father said. When the child’s health worsened, the parents decided to take him to the district hospital where he was declared brought dead.

The child died because of the vaccine and the callous attitude of the angandwadi assistant, the parents alleged.

District immunisation officer KC Parmar said his department will investigate the matter. “If anybody is found guilty, action will be taken and if any defect in vaccine is found, we will probe the matter,” Parmar said.

Earlier this month, a Madhya Pradesh-registered drugmaker was blamed for tainted antibiotics that killed 11 women in a Chhattisgarh sterilisation camp. The Congress had on Monday alleged that drugs made by blacklisted companies were being sold in Madhya Pradesh.

Another mother, Brandi Richardson from Augusta, Georgia just came forward.

My Jakob Wright Richardson 7/11/07-9/20/07 died 2.5 days after his first set of shots. I even called to tell them he was acting funny. Screaming. They said this was normal. I was told to use Tylenol and DON'T bring him in unless he's non consolable for 3+ hrs. So I didn't. And he didn't wake up.

My son's "official" cause of death was interstitial pneumonitis (a double lung infection) in the walls of the lungs. Around the air sacks. But he died 2. 5 days after his vaccinations. And the ME said that he couldn't write it in because there was no obvious cause of death (COD). HE believed it greatly contributed to his death.Vaccines were not mentioned on his report at all.

He started acting funny after he got his shots and I even called the army hospital! Like they said to! And no one would listen that something was wrong! We were denied a 100% link so could not file a vaccine injury claim. I will not vaccinate my youngest two for risk of them having a reaction like their older brother did. Their pediatrician is on board with this decision.

Via VacTruth: 

Nicholas Lee Copenhaver (March 7, 2013 - July 15, 2013).
He passed away less than 3 days after receiving the 4 month vaccines. Neurologist's report clearly states that, in his opinion, vaccines were the likely cause of death. Ruled SIDS.

His mother, who works in healthcare, shares with us,

On Friday morning July 12, 2013 I took my son in for his 4 month well-baby checkup. The doctor gave him 7 vaccines - DTaP, IPV, Hib, PCV and Rota. He was cranky of course after, but doctors tell you to give Tylenol and teach you that these reactions are normal. 

Saturday, he was still fussy and tired and didn't nurse as much as usual. Saturday night, my sister in law watched him overnight so we could go to work. I picked him up Sunday afternoon, after I woke up. We didn't do much that evening but nap. Looking back it seems that he was extra sleepy but I didn't notice it then. 

Sunday night, I dropped him off at a very close friend’s house around 10pm, so that I could go to work. Not knowing that this was the last time I'd see my son alive.

She said he never went to bed without a fight with her but that night she said he fell asleep on his own. He was used to being fed at the breast to fall asleep when he was with me. She said he woke in the middle of the night so she got up with him. She fell asleep in the recliner holding him. When she woke up he was gone. 

They started CPR, but of course it was no help.

I vividly remember the scream down the hallway in the middle of the night, at work, telling me to leave. I was a CNA at a nursing home, working overnights, when my coworker yelled down the hall that something was wrong with my baby. That was the absolute worst night of my life.

There were no obvious signs that something was wrong with him. Nothing outside of the "normal" that doctors lead you to believe is ok after your baby receives the vaccines. My son received his shots Friday morning and by late Sunday night- early Monday morning, he was gone.

The coroner did rule his death as SIDS.

I had to do my own homework and I was referred to a vaccine injury lawyer who listened to my story and took on my case. 

The neurologist's report we have gotten for our case clearly states that, in his opinion, vaccines were the likely cause of death. We were lucky because often times, vaccines are never mentioned. The neurologist that did our report for the case actually did the autopsy also. Unfortunately, if I hadn't looked into things further on my own, I may have never known his cause of death.

Thank goodness Missouri automatically does a full autopsy on children because when we later went back to file with VAERS, etc., they had exactly everything they needed. We are still waiting for our case to go through with the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program (NVICP), which we are told could take a very long time. 

The doctor who did the autopsy even stated that he feels vaccine causation exists in our case wrote this in our neuropathology report. We will have to wait to find out if our case is awarded but no amount of money could replace our son. The maximum they give for vaccine related deaths is $250,000. That’s what our children are worth to them. Most claims are denied and those that do get awarded are often settled for less. 

My son was vaccinated on schedule. He was given Hep B at birth, 8 vaccines at his 2 month well baby visit (DTaP, IPV, Hib, Heb B, PCV and Rota) and 7 vaccines at his 4 month well baby visit (DTaP, IPV, Hib, PCV and Rota). These are the vaccines on the current schedule.

I'd like to tell other parents to heavily do their research, because unfortunately, I didn't. I had no idea. I thought like most that I was doing what I was supposed to by taking my child in to get vaccinated. Especially working in healthcare, they hammer it into us everybody that you HAVE to have your shots. I didn't question it one bit, and now I regret it. 

I have heard from so many other people now after the fact that the same thing happened to them. I want people to know that this does happen and that it's a lot more common than they realize.

I can only hope sharing our story will save someone else the heartache and pain of losing a child. I want to tell the world and save them the heartache that we have been through.

Rest In Peace Our Precious Angel...

Amanda Copenhaver

Health Impact News Editor Comments

The sudden death of a 12-year-old girl in Waukesha, Wisconsin, just hours after receiving the HPV Gardasil vaccine has shocked the girl’s family, and sent local media out asking questions as to how this could happen. Here is a report from WISN 12 News.

Dr. Geoffrey Swain of the local health department was interviewed to give the standard CDC reply, which is similar to almost every other vaccine, stating that severe reactions like this resulting in death are “very rare,” and about “1 out of a million”.

Assuming that there is some data to back up the claim of only “1 out of a million,” how many doses of the HPV vaccine are administered every year? According to the latest statistics (July 2014) published by the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services here (page 7), over 9 million per year. So the government admits that at least 9 girls per year are killed by the HPV vaccine. How many parents know this prior to taking a doctor’s advice to administer this vaccine that is supposedly a protection against cervical cancer caused by the human papillomavirus, a sexually transmitted disease?

Apparently, when the news broke that 12-year-old Meredith Prohaska died after receiving the HPV vaccine, at least one other parent contacted a local news station in the area to report she also had a serious adverse reaction to the HPV vaccine with her 17-year-old daughter, who needed urgent care at a local hospital. The local news affiliate asked the question: “So what are the odds another local girl had a similar reaction after getting the shot?”

Here is the report:

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The sudden death of a 12-year-old girl in Waukesha, Wisconsin, just hours after receiving the HPV Gardasil vaccine has shocked the girl’s family, and sent local media out asking questions as to how this could happen. Here is a report from WISN 12 News.

Dr. Geoffrey Swain of the local health department was interviewed to give the standard CDC reply, which is similar to almost every other vaccine, stating that severe reactions like this resulting in death are “very rare,” and about “1 out of a million”.

Assuming that there is some data to back up the claim of only “1 out of a million,” how many doses of the HPV vaccine are administered every year? According to the latest statistics (July 2014) published by the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services here (page 7), over 9 million per year. So the government admits that at least 9 girls per year are killed by the HPV vaccine. How many parents know this prior to taking a doctor’s advice to administer this vaccine that is supposedly a protection against cervical cancer caused by the human papillomavirus, a sexually transmitted disease?

Apparently, when the news broke that 12-year-old Meredith Prohaska died after receiving the HPV vaccine, at least one other parent contacted a local news station in the area to report she also had a serious adverse reaction to the HPV vaccine with her 17-year-old daughter, who needed urgent care at a local hospital. The local news affiliate asked the question: “So what are the odds another local girl had a similar reaction after getting the shot?”

Here is the report:

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Fighting the Vaccine Battle with Half a Brain

by Anne Abbot


Our daughter, Roz, was born a happy, healthy little girl on June 17, 2010. She developed just like all children her age and hit her milestones on or before the target age. My husband and I decided to do vaccines one at a time on a delayed schedule after our first family doctor gave her PediaX vaccine with a combination of vaccines. At the age of one, we began with her DTap vaccinations and spread them out over a period of time. Then at her two-year checkup, we decided to begin her MMR vaccinations.

On June 12, 2012, Roz was given the MMR vaccine. She had the normal fussy period, as she did with the DTap, but after a week, she began to seem a little off, not as responsive, and she continued to be fussy. She began to run a low-grade fever on June 27. On June 28, Roz had been outside for a short period of time. After her shower, my husband put her in the chair. He walked in after about five minutes and noticed she wasn’t moving and was in a staring state, unresponsive. We immediately rushed her to the ER. After 30 minutes, the doctor confirmed she was having a seizure and had a fever of 101.1. They ran a series of tests and found nothing in the ways of infection, virus or bacteria. They transferred her to Children’s Hospital, where we spent the night for observation. The doctors told us that she had had a febrile seizure. They told us not to worry because febrile seizures are common in children.

On November 1, Roz woke up acting strangely; then she suddenly began to seize. I administered Diastat. She woke up an hour later and went into another seizure. We found ourselves back at Children’s with croup this time. Beginning in December, she had seizures about every month, and they began to get worse. Instead of having partial complex seizures, she began to have partial complex that generalized and Tonic-clonic (TC) seizures. By April 2013, she was having seizures every week. In the middle of April, Roz had three major TC seizures within a week’s time. We decided to take her to Cincinnati Children’s to get some answers. Throughout all the seizures, Roz continued to develop according to her age except for a speech delay. Over a period of time, her seizures changed but became more frequent.

Our neurologist suggested that we meet with the epilepsy doctor to see if Roz would be a candidate for brain surgery. On October 7, 2013, Roz was admitted for a week of VEEG monitoring and major scans that concluded she was a candidate for resectioning surgery of her right occipital lobe.

She would have to have half of her brain removed.

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NEW YORK (CNN) – A 26-year-old health care worker died just days after getting sick with the flu. Her family says she got a flu shot but it didn’t work. Now, the newly-wed’s family hopes her story may save someone else.

"Her mom said as part of her job she had to get a flu shot. Tragically, it didn’t keep her from getting sick. 
However, Kenosha County’s health officer say the vast majority of people who get a flu shot are helped by it.”

Adam Michael Westfall (June 2, 2011 – August 7, 2011)
He passed away less than 2 days after receiving the 2 month vaccines. This was the last picture taken of him. Ruled SIDS.

His mother shares with us,

It’s so hard to re-live the worst day and hardest time of my life. Adam was born in Michigan on June 2, 2011 weighing 8 pounds and 10 ounces. He got his Hep B shot at birth because I was told it was best for him and on Friday, August 5, 2011, I took him in for his 2 month well baby check-up.

During this visit, the doctor gave him 8 vaccines for (DTaP, IPV, Hib, Heb B, PCV and Rota). He got 2 shots in one leg and 1 in the other, plus the oral Rotavirus vaccine, totaling 8 vaccines given to my baby, in one visit. This is what is listed on the CDC’s vaccine schedule in the US. 

I thought the shots were safe, I thought they were to protect my precious baby. I wanted to space them out, but was told there was no need to. I was told that it was fine to give them all at once.

After Adam received the vaccines, all he did was sleep, he didn’t eat much, he had a little fever, his legs were red, swollen and puffy where the shots were given, and he cried more than usual. The doctor assured me all of these symptoms were normal.

On Saturday, the day after Adam had his shots, he slept almost all day. He wasn’t up long each time he woke up and he didn’t finish a whole bottle at once and he didn’t play much.

I went to sleep Saturday night, exhausted from house chores, only to wake up in a panic. Adam wasn’t crying. He always ate at 7 AM. I went in to get him and when I looked at him, he was lifeless and his little face, I’ll never forget. Adam had passed before I woke up to find him.

I performed CPR while on the phone with the police. When they arrived, the officer did percussions for me while I did the breathing. When he stopped, I ended up yelling at him to help me. Then the paramedics arrived and took him down to the ambulance. I was not allowed to follow. When they returned, my worst fear was confirmed, my baby was gone. 

They also asked if Adam was a donor and if I wanted to donate his organs, I refused. They kind of checked me out and the police officer stayed until my family arrived. He was very nice, he asked me a couple questions and did admit that he knew Adam was gone but helped me because I was trying so hard to revive him. 

The police were told he had his shots because they asked if he was sick or was given any medication and I informed them that I didn’t give him anything, but he was just recently vaccinated.

He came back later and asked some "routine" questions and took pictures of our room which had clean clothes all over because I just moved in with my mom. But if my day wasn’t the worst already, CPS showed up and began to question me, made me do a mouth swab and my husband, even though he was working when Adam passed. 

CPS then started accusing me basically, asking if I harmed my child, saying maybe I put too many blankets on him, maybe I rolled over on him, maybe I got frustrated, maybe my daughter got ahold of him, asking if I did drugs, if I had been drinking, did I drop him, etc. 

The paramedics had already said he had no trauma whatsoever. CPS kept accusing me of doing something, even on accident, for 3 days this went on. They wanted to talk to everyone in the house, even though no one was there but my grandma, me and my kids. They called me and kept showing up at my house until Wednesday, when the preliminary autopsy report came back, the ruling was SIDS.

The CPS guy came back after getting the results, to tell me my case would be closed and to tell me it was all protocol. So it’s there procedure to hurt a grieving mother even more? I never got a sorry for my loss or a sorry for the accusations. The police said there was no need for CPS to contact me again and if they did, I was to let them know.

I wanted to die when I found out my baby was gone. I was so upset the way CPS was treating us. I really wanted to die after the accusations and I started blaming myself for not being able to protect my baby boy or to save him. 

When he passed, I thought it was the vaccines because my baby Adam was never sick. He was perfectly happy and healthy before he got those vaccines. When I was told he died of SIDS and that’s its very rare a child would suffer a severe reaction to the shots, I honestly didn’t know, I was so confused. I was always taught vaccines were safe.

I expressed my concerns to all of my friends that had also vaccinated their kids, but my friends had no answers. After losing Adam, some have postponed the shots and some have denied them. I’ve just really felt so alone and that I couldn’t talk to anyone. It seemed no one was able to give me any answers. 

I had started researching vaccines but it was too hard to deal with. In my mind I felt it was the vaccines, but I kept being told by doctors that the shots were safe and I was made to feel like a bad mom if I didn’t continue to vaccinate. 

I was still pressured to vaccinate myself after Adam passed away. I actually cried because they made me feel bad if I didn’t listen to their suggestions and get the pertussis vaccine and they bullied me until I got it. I did refuse the flu shot they also tried to convince me to get.

Then I became pregnant with our third child Natalie. The doctor had me get the pertussis vaccine while I was pregnant with her. I was told she would have some immunity from me getting it and my doctor pushed me to get the flu vaccine too, but I refused it this time as well. 

I’ve been vaccinated twice with the pertussis vaccine since Adam passed away. The truth was withheld from me. They don’t just vaccinate for pertussis, what they really gave me was the Tdap shot for Tetanus, Diphtheria and Pertussis, a 3 in 1 combo vaccine. If you are pregnant, regardless of when you last got this vaccine, they coerce you into getting it again. 

It didn’t matter they already gave this to me once after Adam passed. I’ve since learned they don’t test any of these vaccines on pregnant women but then make you feel bad if you say no. I was told the vaccines were safe for me and my baby but the package inserts even state they aren’t tested on pregnant women. I didn’t know this at the time.

When I gave birth to my rainbow baby Natalie, which is a baby born after a baby lost, almost 3 years later after Adam passed, I expressed my concerns about the vaccines again and was told its unlikely they caused any harm to Adam. I was reminded that my oldest 6 year old daughter Lilly was fine with them and that Adam had passed from SIDS, not from the shots. I trusted them again with my child’s life, over my instincts and let them vaccinate Natalie.

Natalie was given the Hep B shot at birth
- 8 vaccines at her 2 month well baby visit (DTaP, IPV, Hib, Heb B, PCV and Rota)
- 7 vaccines at her 4 month well baby visit (DTaP, IPV, Hib, PCV and Rota) and
- 8 vaccines at her 6 month well baby visit (DTaP, IPV, Hib, Heb B, PCV and Rota) 

They tried to push the flu vaccine on Natalie at her 6 month well baby visit and I refused. These are the vaccines on the current CDC schedule in the US.

After Natalie had her 2 and 4 month round of shots, which I agreed to vaccinate her only because I was told that Adam’s passing had nothing to do with the vaccines, Natalie’s heart monitor went off constantly for 3 days. I couldn’t even lay down before it went off again. I had to basically hold her the whole time. It didn’t go off like this after the 6 month shots.

Natalie was put on a sleep apnea heart monitor for my comfort because I lost Adam and I wanted to take any measures to ensure this didn’t happen again. I can’t sleep unless she’s on it. When they mentioned I could get one, I jumped at it and she’s been on it since day one. Her monitor would go off once or twice a night, sometimes two nights in a row. I was told this could possibly be due to her having apnea or it could be because it’s set to sensitive mode.

When I noticed the monitor picked up major changes in her after the shots, this confirmed my suspicions the vaccines had something to do with Adam’s passing. Even though I was weary, I thought OK, they are doctors, maybe they are right, but then after looking into vaccines more, I discovered that it had to be the shots.

After Natalie reacted to her shots, I started researching vaccines again but didn’t fully understand the side effects until just a couple months ago, just after her 6 month appointment. I have already told Natalie’s doctor I will not be getting any further vaccines. Natalie is currently 8 months old and has stopped receiving any more shots. She has been doing great. I do worry if the vaccines harmed her.

Please don’t look down on me for being so naïve about my youngest daughter and having her vaccinated. I honestly believed the doctors when they said that it’s very very rare to suffer a severe reaction to vaccines and that my daughter would be fine because my oldest daughter was fine and that they highly doubt the shots harmed Adam, etc.

I’m glad that I’m not the only one that feels it’s true, that my intuition about the shots was right, all along, I just didn’t have the right support or information to recognize adverse reactions caused by these vaccines. I think every baby should be sent home with a heart monitor, until a certain age, especially if you vaccinate.

I don’t want my children getting anymore vaccinations. And I don’t believe babies should be made to get them so young, nor should they get that many. We shouldn’t be bullied or forced into getting them. Parents must have a choice when it comes to vaccinations. There are major risks that come with them.

It’s been 3 years and I still never got the copy of the final autopsy report or the police report like I had requested. The death certificate I did receive stated SIDS/possible suffocation. I was told a part of his brain forgot to tell him to breath. My baby wasn’t even covered up when I found him, his blanket was at his feet and his little face was facing me. I will be contacting them again soon.

I didn’t know about reporting these vaccine reactions to VAERS and no doctor brought it up or reported them. No doctor even acknowledged these vaccine injuries. I had to do my own research. 

I only found out recently that there was a National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program but it was too late to file a claim for Adam. The statute to file is only 2 years after a parent loses their baby to vaccines. So I never filed a claim because I didn’t know about it.

Adam passed away in the early morning hours on August 7, 2011, less than 2 days after he was given those 2 month vaccines. He was 2 months and 5 days old. I thought I was protecting him and doing what was right. Instead, I was made a fool of, for thinking that they knew what was best for him. The day that Adam passed was the worst day of my life. 

The picture of Adam in the red shirt is the last picture taken of him. This picture was taken 5 days before I woke up to find him lifeless with his shot marks still on his legs. 

I just want my baby. And I was so stupid to think the CPR was working because I heard what I thought was breathing, but it was just the air coming back out. I live with guilt every day and can’t leave my daughters side. I have separation anxiety and I can’t sleep if she’s not near her monitor, so I can feel assured she is safe. It’s just not fair. 

My only baby boy, my only angel up in the sky with my brother, both gone to soon. My brother, also named Adam, passed from cystic fibrosis when he was 7 years old. He would be 22 years old next month. I feel like I have no one left. 

I feel so stupid for allowing any of my children to be vaccinated. I feel like a bad mom for listening to the doctors and thinking maybe I was just crazy, that maybe I was just being paranoid because of losing Adam, which I am, but now I have tons of info proving I’m not thinking irrationally about this, the doctors are. I just feel that they bully you into getting the vaccines and ignore the reactions they cause. I used to think I’d get in trouble if my kids were not vaccinated. I didn’t know I had a choice.

I feel like no one remembers or ever wants to talk about my son, for fear of hurting me. I wonder who he would be today. And I wish my son Adam, my brother Adam and all the other children and babies were still here. I am so sorry and always heartbroken for anyone that loses a child.

My cousin also lost her baby boy to SIDS two years before Adam died. We were not real close because we live far apart. I didn’t learn she lost her baby until the day my baby passed away.

Adam was and always will be my baby boy, my little lizard, my hunny bear, bubby and my precious little man. Adam was always so happy, and so full of life, not a care in the world. He hardly ever cried or was fussy. He would watch hours of Heartland with his sister and I and always stuck his tongue out like a lizard with a smile so big. 

Adam was the light of our lives and as his sister always said " the best little brother ever" now he’s our precious angel baby. Even though it’s hard to tell our story, if I can help save even one baby from here, then it’s worth it.

Natalie is my 8 month old rainbow, Lilly is my almost 6 year old sunshine, and Adam is my (would be 3 year old) angel. All 3 are my pride and joys, they are my life. It’s so hard to go through all of this and to not have him to hold and watch grow.

Rest in paradise, we love and miss you Adam

Cayla Westfall

Mother Shares Her Story
His mother Amanda Copenhaver, who works in healthcare, shares with us,

On Friday morning July 12, 2013 I took my son in for his 4 month well-baby checkup. The doctor gave him 7 vaccines – DTaP, IPV, Hib, PCV and Rota. He was cranky of course after, but doctors tell you to give Tylenol and teach you that these reactions are normal.

Saturday, he was still fussy and tired and didn’t nurse as much as usual. Saturday night, my sister in law watched him overnight so we could go to work. I picked him up Sunday afternoon, after I woke up. We didn’t do much that evening but nap. Looking back it seems that he was extra sleepy but I didn’t notice it then.

Sunday night, I dropped him off at a very close friend’s house around 10pm, so that I could go to work. Not knowing that this was the last time I’d see my son alive.

I sent pumped milk with him once I started going back to work, since he was 12 weeks old. He was used to being fed at the breast to fall asleep when he was with me. My friend said he never went to bed without a fight with her, but that night she said, he fell asleep on his own.

She said he woke in the middle of the night so she got up with him. She fell asleep in the recliner holding him. When she woke up, he was gone.

They started CPR, but of course it was no help.

I vividly remember the scream down the hallway in the middle of the night, at work, telling me to leave. I was a CNA at a nursing home, working overnights, when my coworker yelled down the hall that something was wrong with my baby. That was the absolute worst night of my life.

There were no obvious signs that something was wrong with him. Nothing outside of the “normal” that doctors lead you to believe is ok after your baby receives the vaccines. My son received his shots Friday morning and by late Sunday night- early Monday morning, he was gone.

His death was ruled as Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS).

The vaccines were not mentioned in Nicholas’s autopsy report because at the time the autopsy was being done, the pathologist was not yet made aware that Nicholas recently received his shots. It all happened so fast and of course, at that moment in my life, things hadn’t clicked yet that it was the vaccines. I was meant to believe they were so safe and this wouldn’t happen.

Nicholas didn’t have his airways blocked and did not suffocate when he passed away. I had to do my own homework and I was referred to a vaccine injury lawyer who listened to my story and took on my case. I had to request a report in order to file a vaccine injury claim.

The neurologist that did our report for the case actually did the autopsy also. Unfortunately, if I hadn’t looked into things further on my own, I may have never known what took my sons life.

The doctor who did the autopsy even stated that he feels vaccine causation exists in our case and wrote this in our neuropathology report. The report we have gotten for our case clearly states that, in his opinion, vaccines were the likely cause of death. We were lucky because often times, vaccines are never mentioned and parents are not given truthful answers.

It seems most babies that die soon after vaccination are ruled as SIDS cases or some other vague cause of death. It doesn’t make sense when all of these children are passing away after getting vaccines why the vaccines are never listed as the cause of death. Surely this needs to be considered more.

Most parents that have suffered the same fate mention that vaccines aren’t even listed on their child’s autopsy report, even when the person doing the autopsy is informed the kid was recently vaccinated. Why?

Thank goodness Missouri automatically does a full autopsy on children because when we later went back to file a vaccine adverse event report with VAERS, etc., they had exactly everything they needed. We are still waiting for our case to go through with the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program (NVICP), which we are told could take a very long time.

We will have to wait to find out if our case is awarded but no amount of money could replace our son. The maximum they give for vaccine related deaths is $250,000. That’s what our children are worth to them. Most claims are denied and those that do get awarded are often settled for less. We’ve already been informed things are still slow moving on the case and of course the government isn’t budging.

We were told we can either attempt to settle beforehand or fight this case in court, which might happen in the latter part of summer 2015. We would also have to make arrangements to fly to Washington D.C. because the U.S. Court of Federal Claims is there, across from the White House, to attend the court case which is different than regular court cases. Outsiders cannot attend and there is no jury. An appointed special master decides whether our case will be awarded or denied.

My son was vaccinated on schedule. He was given Hep B at birth, 8 vaccines at his 2 month well baby visit (DTaP, IPV, Hib, Heb B, PCV and Rota) and 7 vaccines at his 4 month well baby visit (DTaP, IPV, Hib, PCV and Rota). I don’t think many parents are aware these are the vaccines on the current US schedule.

I’d like to tell other parents to heavily do their research, because unfortunately, I didn’t. I had no idea. I thought like most that I was doing what I was supposed to by taking my child in to get vaccinated. Especially working in healthcare, they hammer it into us everybody that you have to have your shots. I didn’t question it one bit, and now I regret it.

I have heard from so many other people now after the fact that the same thing happened to them. I want people to know that this does happen and that it’s a lot more common than they realize.

It’s not about just one “accident”, this is becoming more common and it’s not right. Losing a child is something that absolutely nobody should have to go through and these vaccines are putting too many families through this.

I can only hope sharing our story will save someone else the heartache and pain of losing a child. I want to tell the world and save them the heartache that we have been through.

Rest In Peace Our Precious Angel…

Amanda Copenhaver


Kristen Philip
A few years ago I took myself out of the vaccination debate. I learned a long time ago not to bite when baited by the "pro vaccine" camp which included doctors, nurses, friends, family and even strangers. However, this recent hysteria surrounding the measles and the downright nasty, vile, abusive and outrageous comments that followed after and are continuing to pour in on my news feed have me more than a little upset. Because my dear sister Katie has a dog in this fight too, here is her story. Take it for what it is.

My sister Katie was born in the spring of 1982. Long before people like Jenny Mccarthy or Andrew Wakefield were ever on anyones radar. A healthy normally developing baby up until she was 11 months old. She developed a fever and as a result suffered a febrile seizure. She was taken to emergency and seen by a physician who assured both of my parents that this sort of thing is common in some children and to merely be more vigilant anytime she spiked a fever in the future. She was then sent home. What my parents did not know at the time was that this ER physician had taken it upon himself to write a letter of caution to their family doctor that stated that he felt it was in my sisters " best interest not to continue receiving her vaccinations because of what he felt was her increased risk of an adverse reaction".

Life went on as normal for my family until at 18 months old my sister went for her routine vaccination (DTaP). The doctor never disclosed the letter she recieved and went ahead with her shots. Within days my sister was hospitalized with encephalitis (yes, she is your one in a million). Doctors said the swelling in her brain was so severe that the lining between the brain and the skull had literally fused to her skull. Since then my sister Katie has suffered from daily seizures and has progressively gotten worse as the years go by. Multiple pneumonias yearly due to the loss of being able to swallow without aspirating. Brain surgeries, a bought with life threatening sepsis that left her on life support in 2012 are among the many things she has had to endure. 

My sister is resigned to a hospital bed and now requires a feeding tube and 24 hr care. The letter was eventually found many years later in my sisters records and was the key piece that sparked a human rights lawsuit and my sister was added as part of an already ongoing class action suit. 

A judge determined much like the sentiments we hear from the "pro vaxxers" that what happened to my sister and the rest of the families involved was considered an acceptable loss for the greater good. My sister "took one for the team" and then the team turned its back on her though she never volunteered as tribute. Considering all that my sister has survived im sure she would have licked measles too. 

So to the Jennifer Hibben-Whites of the world and as she so eloquently wrote on her facebook before she set it to private after her post went viral. Fuck you. Fuck you right back. I no longer have the time or patience and simply do not give a fuck to waste time explaining or defending my rights or my choice to not vaccinate my child to people like you. I am too busy spending my time taking care of my sister and trying to give her the best quality of life I can for everything that was robbed from her. She gave her life so that your child wouldn't be threatened by whooping cough or god forbid the measles. So next time show a little respect. There, I feel better now.

I know this post will cause me to lose more than a few "friends". I am no longer scared and I don't care. To those that leave please remember god forbid if your childs or your grandchilds number ever gets called please look me up. I will be the first to lend my support and love.

From Christine:

I am an “anti-vaxer”
I wish my child lived long enough to get measles but sadly she died a few hours after receiving a vaccine. At a routine ‘well baby’ appointment, she had her first shots. I had no idea adverse reactions were even possible. I trusted my doctor, completely. I trusted my doctor blindly.
The doctors believed it was the pertussis vaccine that caused her death, but they did not know for sure because there was a combination of 4 vaccines, given at the same time. How could we possibly know which one caused her death? 
I lost the most precious gift of all, to “The greater good.”

I sacrificed my beautiful child, …for your child.

What did I get in return? I was labelled an “anti vaxer” 
You see, I have a very healthy 11 year old son that is completely unvaccinated. He is alive! 

Did I attend Google University? Or Get my advice from Jenny McCarthy? Absolutely NOT! I spent years pouring through the peer reviewed medical journals, FDA, CDC, WHO and Health Canada files and speaking to doctors and politicians. I had to PAY to access my daughter’s vaccine records through freedom of Information, at health Canada. I did all this to figure out the FACTS, so that my other children did not also die! I did this so that your children do not die, from vaccines! 
In Canada we do not have a vaccine injury compensation program, so legal recourse is not an option. 

The vaccine compensation program has paid 3 billion dollars for injuries and deaths in the US, while Canada has paid NOTHING! They simply deny that vaccine injuries exist. A company that publicly reports yearly profits, in the billions, is not held accountable, for vaccine injuries and deaths. The manufacturers of vaccines conduct their own, very limited, safety studies and many vaccines are licensed and used without any safety studies. Health Canada told me it is more cost effective, to release vaccines, and then watch for reactions later.
There are serious problems with many of the vaccines; starting with the fact, their own studies show the vaccines are often ineffective. After the previous pertussis vaccine caused thousands of deaths and brain injuries, many mothers worked together to demand change. The pertussis vaccine was then replaced with a different one, which was less reactive but also turned out to be less effective. As a result, we began to see many whooping cough outbreaks in North America. At first they blamed the outbreaks on “Anti Vaxers” but then it became undeniable, the vaccine was failing, the vaccine was responsible!

There has not been a measles death in over a decade in North America. There have been deaths from vaccines however. We have measles outbreaks in North America every year. Many years ago they increased the MMR shot recommendation from once to twice, for children and we have a vaccination rate of over 90% yet they still have outbreaks of measles! At first they blamed the ‘anti vaxers” but according to their own studies, the measles vaccine is failing, the measles vaccine is responsible! 

In a 3 year study, in Ontario Canada, (March 2006 – April 2009), it was discovered that several infants died and that 1 in 168 Canadian children end up in the ER after receiving the MMR vaccine. 
Parents need to stop pointing fingers at other parents and work together, for the greater good.

For the good .of our children,
Parents everywhere, need to ask questions! And demand safer and more effective vaccines for our children. Pharmaceutical companies should be given a clear message, that we want them to put more money and research into the existing, basic vaccines, which are presently failing to protect our children, instead of rushing to develop and license dozens of new, untested vaccines, for non-life threatening illness. 

Parents everywhere, need to demand that the manufacturer of vaccines be held liable and accountable, to ensure the quality, of the products they manufacture and sell to our children. Canada needs to create a vaccine injury compensation program for the thousands of children killed and injured by vaccines. Pharmaceutical companies should be monitored by an unbiased committee, or council of watchdogs, to ensure they are putting health and safety of our children before profits. 
Our children deserve to be protected! Our children deserve better! 

Measles has not killed a child in over a decade, in North America but vaccines HAVE killed and injured thousands. That is a painful fact, I live with. 

I am NOT “Anti-vaccine” I am pro health and safety of my children and your children. 
Do your research and demand better vaccines. 
From the heart of one mother to another…..~Christine Colebeck~

"...When I arrived, I couldn't believe my eyes. He had several bruises all over his body. I took him straight to the walk in clinic. They got us right back and as soon as the doctor walked in he noticed all the bruising. He immediately ordered a CBC (complete blood count) that revealed Noah had ITP and severely low platelets. I was instructed to go straight to the ER where they would be waiting for us. Noah's platelet count was at 5,000. A normal platelet count is 150,000-250,000. They were very confused at such low of a count and kept mentioning that that couldn't be right that they'd never seen a platelet count so low.

Noah was admitted for treatment. His doctor explained that ITP is very treatable and usually acute which means it resolves itself quickly with treatment. Noah started his first 12 hour treatment at midnight that night. After the 12 hour treatment his platelet count rose to only 16,000. After another treatment it didn't rise much more at all. His doctor was very concerned to why he wasn't responding to the treatments so we were then transferred to Blair E. Batson Children's Hospital in Jackson so that Noah could be treated by Pediatric Doctors who Specialized in Hematology and blood disorders."

Noah during his first hospital stay.
Over the next month, We were in and out of the hospital for days at a time. No treatment that they gave noah would help his platelet count hold at a normal and safe level. Because Noah was a toddler, they were worried about him hitting his head. He was fitted for a Pediatric helmet that he was to wear when his platelet counts dropped below 30,000. His risk for internal bleeding grew higher the lower that his platelets got.

[2015 May] A family destroyed: Six-month-old dies after clinic injects baby with 13 vaccines at once without mother's informed consent

"...But since 2008 at least 60 girls and women in Canada have convulsed or developed disabling joint and muscle pain and other debilitating conditions after receiving Gardasil.
Linda Morin's 14-year-old daughter Annabelle died two weeks after receiving the second injection of the vaccine Gardasil.
One needed a wheelchair, another a feeding tube. A 14-year-old Quebec girl, Annabelle Morin, died two weeks after receiving the second injection of the vaccine.
It was 7:30 p.m. on the night of Dec. 9, 2008, when her mother, Linda, found her in the tub, her head underwater and turned to the side.
The paramedics lifted Annabelle’s body on to a stretcher. “I put a blanket on her, saying, ‘She’s going to freeze,’ ” Linda recalled. “I did not know she was already dead.”
The Quebec coroner’s office said the cause of death was drowning, yet also said that any role Gardasil might have played should be further investigated.
In the cases discussed in this article, it is the opinion of a patient or doctor that a particular drug has caused a side-effect. There is no conclusive evidence showing the vaccine caused a death or illness.
Like Kenzie and Armstrong, many of the girls say the vaccine was pushed on them by school officials, nurses or doctors who understated the risks, sometimes claiming zero significant side effects despite the existence of a list of rare but serious vaccine-related reactions published by the drug’s maker...."

"...Right after Christmas Ben started feeling punk. The in-laws were in town, the house was still full of wrapping paper and toys that go beep, whirrrrr and zoink. But Ben had a fever, and the fever kept getting worse. Since it was the holidays the pediatrician’s office was closed and the calls were forwarded to the UNC hospital phone bank 30 miles away in Chapel Hill. The dial-a-nurse kept reassuring us every time we called that Ben would be alright, that children can endure high fevers and as long as he was drinking liquids and comfortable a 104 fever is nothing to be concerned about. She also said not to worry unless his fever gets over 105. When it got to be 105, we called again and again we were told not to worry, kids can take it.
On the evening of the second I was with my in-laws in the living room watching a game on the television, Ben’s mom traded places with me earlier to lay with Ben keeping an eye on him. It wasn’t long before I heard my name being called, I ran into the room as Ben was being lowered into a tub of water, “His fever is 107, we have to get him the hospital.” So we dunked Ben in the tub, dosed him once again with Motrin, dressed him in a tshirt and ran out of the house to the hospital. I dialed 911 on the way alerting them to the situation and called the doctor.
There were no rooms available in the emergency room, a nurse fumbled with the clip on his finger as Ben lay screaming on the gurney in the hallway. This was not turning out as I had hoped but Ben’s fever had dropped to 106 and was continuing to fall quickly for the next 20 minutes. No call back from the doctor, no doctor coming into the ER so I get back on the phone and start yelling. I believe I said something like, “If my son’s doctor does not call back in 10 minutes and something happens to my son, tell him I will find him and hurt him...”

On July 1st, 2008 Danny received his 12 month shots. MMR, HIb, Varicella, and DTaP. That night he was cranky and slept more than usual. The next day very fatigued, irritable, and loss of appetite and these symptoms only worsened. 72 hours after the shot he developed a fever. 30 minutes later he was dead.

From my friend: 

"The one to the top right my son now 7.5 was completely vaccinated and suffers extremely with a neurological disorder now- Tourette's. The one to the top left my daughter now 6- at the age of two months was hospitalized 10 hours after her shots. She was in there for almost a month. Fever of 104.9 for three weeks. She was on Oxygen and life support. We are very lucky she died die and didn't suffer any brain damage from the high temps and multiple seizures she took daily for two weeks. She was not vaccinated past that one round. The bottom two are vaccine free she is (2) bottom left, he is (4) bottom right and we are so proud of our decision! All attend regular school and regular daycare, with an exemption form of course smile emoticon!Sadly we watch our oldest suffer daily! Tourette's you suffer from multi symptoms including- sensory processing disorder, motor and vocal tics, OCD, ADHD like at times and anxiety. We have started to detox us all! No meds! All natural to calm tics and symptoms and it works wonderful! We even shocked the doctors! Teachers! Principles! Always fight for what you feel is right!"


From Andy:
This is my sister and our nieces and nephew. She was disabled from her dtp in 1992. Epilepsy, scoliosis, no motor fuction, g/j tube never talked or walked. Passed at 18 from aspiration pneumonia because she lost the ability to swallow.

She also was never able to sleep for longer than an hr or 2 at a time be cause she was in constant pain 

Another sad story: 

"On August 11. 2013 we sat in the PICU watching our baby girl struggle to breathe; it was exactly one week before her first birthday and this was her third admission to the PICU and her seventh trip to the ER for respiratory distress in her short one year of life. As we watched her sleep hooked up to all the monitors and machines, listening to the nurses and Doctors talking about having to intubate her we both had nothing left in us.... Something had to give here, she was going to die if this continued.

It wasn't until a few week later when things calmed down that I was going through Ella's medical records and I was listing all of her hospitalizations next to all the dates of her vaccines. Ella was brought to the ER for breathing problems every single time within 3-7 days after the receipt of one of her routine vaccinations.

I was always told that Ella was high risk and that she needed to be vaccinated more than any other "Normal" child.....

Nobody ever told me that because of her high dose corticosteroids she had to take for her asthma she never should have been vaccinated in the first place because her body could never mount a proper immune response anyways....

Nobody ever told me that children that fall under the allergic umbrella (asthma, eczema and food allergies) have an imbalance in their TH1/TH2 responses causing them to be in a constant state of an overactive TH2 and that vaccine adjuvants (aluminum) are specifically designed to elicit a strong TH2 response leaving her in a constant state of inflammation, her little body constantly attacking itself...."

An Excelsior Springs man has been awarded $7.4 million because his wife was left disabled by at least one of the vaccines she took before a trip.
On June 22, 2011, Carolyn Schutte went to the Clay County Public Health Center in Liberty for a round of shots. She was preparing for a trip to Africa and received vaccinations for various diseases, including tetanus, Hepatitis A and B, and typhoid. Two days later, she was debilitated with permanent brain damage caused by encephalopathy.

"The active lifestyle that we had before is over," said Jim Schutte, Carolyn Schutte's husband and now her guardian. "It's gone. We just have to make due with what's left."

The couple were once avid travelers.
Now, Jim Schutte is homebound, assisting with his wife's around-the-clock care.

"I provide most of her care," said Schutte, "But I can't do it 24 hours a day, so I have to have somebody coming in here and helping. It gets very expensive very quickly. It costs a lot more than you might think."

His wife, who was once the mayor of Excelsior Springs, needs a hydration tube and specially prepared food. She can't walk. She is paralyzed on one side. The only words she can manage are 'yes' and 'no.' But she seems to he able to comprehend everything around her.

"When I talk to her about private jokes that we had shared, she always laughs," said Schutte. "She calls for me in the evening. She wants me to come up and hold hands with her, and so we do that from about 7:30 until she's ready for bed."

Despite all the difficulties, Jim Schutte remains a passionate advocate for vaccinations.
"What happened to Carolyn is a rarity," said Schutte. "It's a freak of nature. It happens occasionally. But the chances of it happening to you are minimal compared to the risks of actually contracting the diseases you are being vaccinated against."
He's not just talking Internet research. He has a Ph.D. in human growth development and had done post-doctoral work in biomedical research.
One of his fears is that his wife's rare reaction to a vaccine will further fuel the anti-vaccination movement that he is so strongly against.
"I think people are taking anecdotal situations like Carolyn's and making it into something it is not," said Schutte.
He is frustrated with the resurgence of measles cases, which he blames on people refusing the vaccinate their children, which spreads the virus to immunocompromised children who cannot safely get the vaccine.
"I have friends who are still to this day crippled by injuries they received from getting polio back in the early 1950s," said Schutte. "So you can't say that the polio vaccine is a bad idea because it's not."
The settlement with the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services was reached on Monday. The money comes from the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program, which was set up for cases where someone is injured by a vaccine. The money covers the loss of her income and helps pay for her costly care. Schutte says payments will be split up annually over 20 years to pay for his wife's home-based care.
There is no judgement of fault, and the Schuttes' lawyer, Leland Dempsey, said no one did anything wrong. He explained that vaccines work on the immune system, and a relatively small number of people's immune systems respond poorly.
"You can't predict who will suffer that auto-immune response," said Dempsey.
Because Carolyn Schutte received multiple vaccinations at once, no one knows which vaccine caused her negative reaction.
Jim Schutte does wonder whether part of her reaction came as a result of having multiple vaccines at once. He says the Centers for Disease Control have not addressed the topic, but he reasons that since vaccines trigger an immune response, having multiple vaccines administered at one time could put a greater strain on the immune system. It's with that reasoning that his grandson is getting his childhood vaccinations in spaced out doses, just in case his logic holds up.
He said his wife still has much of her personality, but has difficulty expressing it. He focuses now on her care and future.
"It hurts, but you have to deal with the reality. And that's the reality we have," he said.
The Clay County Public Health Center issued the following statement:
The Clay County Public Health Center expresses its sincere empathy to Carolyn Schutte and her family. No words can truly ease the burden placed on the family over this tragic occurrence. We know that like any medical procedure, vaccination can have some risks. Although these events are very rare, individuals react differently to vaccines and there is no way to predict how an individual's immune system will react to a particular vaccine. We agree with and appreciate Jim Schutte's continued support of vaccines to prevent and eliminate diseases throughout the population.

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Theresa Black, right, with her daughter, Angelica, at their home in Panama City Beach, Fla. Angelica, who is 14 now, was 3 months old when she was diagnosed with a brain injury. 

As they started their family, Mooresville residents Theresa and Lucas Black dutifully got their children immunized, never doubting their doctor’s word that vaccines are safe and necessary.

But their faith in those promises was shaken in 2001, when their 3-month-old daughter, Angelica, developed life-threatening seizures and brain damage just three days after getting several vaccinations.

The child’s Charlotte neurologist diagnosed her with vaccine-related encephalopathy, or brain injury. And in 2006, the little-known federal “vaccine court” agreed, awarding Angelica nearly $2 million plus about $250,000 a year for medical expenses for the rest of her life.

Despite the ruling that vaccines caused her daughter’s brain damage, Theresa Black said she has felt bullied in recent weeks by reaction to the California measles outbreak that has spread to 16 other states.

The vaccination question
What experts say about vaccination
Health officials have stressed repeatedly that vaccines are safe, and some people have suggested that parents who choose not to get their children vaccinated are selfish and willfully endangering the lives of others.

“There’s people out there calling for us to get jailed,” Black said. “I am not a freak. I am not trying to endanger anyone’s child. … I actually think vaccinating is a good thing. My problem is I don’t think they are as safe as they could be. … There are bad things that happen.”

Today, Angelica is 14 and profoundly disabled. She has cerebral palsy and a seizure disorder. She is unable to speak. She uses a feeding tube and a wheelchair. Because she requires around-the-clock attention, her parents quit their jobs to care for her. The family moved to Florida in 2009.

Renee Gentry, the Virginia lawyer who represented the Blacks before the vaccine court, said she too has been bothered by some reaction to the measles outbreak. “People are saying there’s absolutely no evidence that vaccines cause brain injury, and we’re sitting here with all these cases. It’s rare … but they clearly have happened.”

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Malcolm Brabant's face – round, ruddy, full-featured, and crowned by a bald dome – is immediately recognisable. For 30 years he has been an award-winning member of the BBC’s team of foreign correspondents, bringing wars, natural disasters, political stand-offs and occasionally something a bit more cheerful into our living rooms on the evening news.

If the countenance is familiar, though, his current location isn’t. His usual on-screen sign-off is ringing in my ears — “Malcolm Brabant, BBC News, Athens” – but today he is welcoming me into his home in Copenhagen.

He is, he explains, currently living in exile from the Greek capital, and thereby “missing one the biggest news stories of my career”. The reason is the biggest personal story of Brabant’s 58 years. As he puts it with what I quickly learn is characteristic bluntness: “I went bonkers.”

In April 2011, he attended an Athens clinic for a routine vaccination against yellow fever before an assignment in the Ivory Coast. As well as reporting from Athens, he has also travelled the globe to cover international stories, winning a coveted Sony award in 1993 for his reporting from a besieged Sarajevo at the height of the Bosnian crisis.

His reaction to the vaccine, however, was anything but routine. “It fried my brain,” he states simply. Overnight a previously sane man developed severe psychosis. An agnostic, Brabant became so convinced he was the Messiah that he telephoned his bemused fellow correspondent, Allan Little, to appoint him “first disciple” and ask him to record his words of wisdom.

'I suffered mental torment after routine injection' 25 May 
One minute he was announcing that the Queen was aware of his divine status, the next he was claiming to be able to stop the traffic just by thinking about it, and control all technology. To prove the point, he flushed his Kindle down the lavatory.

It was utterly bewildering for those around him, especially when he switched into the persona of Winston Churchill, and then the Devil. Yet, because he had no insight into how strangely he was acting, Brabant also attempted to carry on reporting, with results that horrified previously admiring editors at the BBC.

With the corporation’s support, he was sent to hospital in Athens, then released, but shortly afterwards he experienced a second mental breakdown. Unable to work, broke and broken, he returned to his childhood home in Suffolk where he tried and failed to get the help he needed from the NHS. While there, and out of control mentally, he presented himself, clad only in cycling gear but minus a bike, at BBC Television Centre in West London, which was being picketed in a pay dispute. He demanded to see senior managers and generally caused such a scene that the police were called.

“I was the man in Lycra, come to solve the strike,” he recalls without flinching. “I really thought in my madness that I could do it but, of course, I was away with the fairies. That will have been the last time many of those people at the BBC saw me face to face.”

At one stage, he bumped into Frank Gardner, the BBC’s security correspondent partially paralysed after being shot in Saudi Arabia in 2004. Brabant attempted, Messiah-like, to effect a miracle cure by rubbing his back.

He ended up back in Greece and no better. He was persuaded by his Danish wife, Trine Villemann, to abandon their rented home, pack what few possessions they could fit into their estate car, alongside their 11-year-old son, Lukas, and the family dog, and drive across the continent in a desperate search for psychiatric help in Denmark.

Perched on the sofa beside her husband in their typically Scandinavian white-walled apartment in the Danish capital, Villemann grimaces when she recalls just what a state he was in. “I have been around mental illness before [her father hanged himself], but I have never seen someone so gone before. Malcolm was clawing around in the deepest, darkest parts of his mind,” she says. “It would have killed a lesser human being.”

She pauses as she pushes her long blonde hair back from her face. “I am ashamed to remember them now, but there were even times when I thought it would be better if he died because his suffering was so great.

“I have this nagging image in my head that won’t ever go away of Malcolm, sitting on his bed in the hospital, with his arms folded. He was rocking backwards and forwards, saying, ‘I’m the Devil, I’m the Devil’. Whatever anger I’d felt about the situation we were in evaporated in that moment.”

The Danish health professionals who slowly and painstakingly brought Brabant back to sanity told him that he would have to spend the rest of his life on medication. He decided otherwise.

“I was determined this wasn’t going to beat me. When I finally left hospital in 2012, I would rattle as I walked around because I was carrying so many pills. I was a one-man chemist’s shop. It took me another year and a half to reduce my medication. I stopped taking it in January of last year, and since then I have gradually been getting stronger and stronger.”

So much so that he is now back at work, and back on our screens after almost four years away. His unheralded return came earlier this month with his reports on the murder of two people by an Islamist extremist in separate attacks in Copenhagen.

Brabant says: “In the aftermath of those attacks, I was working in the old way: until I dropped. I need to. Because of my illness, we have lost everything. I have a 15-year-old son to support, and we don’t even have a car any more. I am the man from the BBC who arrives by bicycle. It makes me feel like a cub reporter again.”

Picking up the threads of his career and of his reputation is one part of his life today in Copenhagen. But Brabant and his wife are also pouring their considerable energies into spearheading a campaign that they hope will prevent others suffering as a result of vaccinations.

“My husband had absolutely no previous history of mental illness,” says Villemann. “There was nothing latent in him. I have no doubt at all that his severe psychosis was brought on by the yellow fever vaccine.”

Brabant adds: “I was not a one-in-a-million case. We are determined to make the manufacturers, Sanofi Pasteur, investigate what is happening. I have provided them with open access to all the doctors who treated me so they can hear what their vaccine did to me, but they haven’t been in touch. They are refusing to engage.”

Faced with this silence, the couple have been collecting reports from many others around the globe who suffered similar consequences to
Brabant. And it is not just a question of a few individuals sounding the alarm bells. In 2005, Dr Thomas Monath, a world expert on yellow fever, who sits on various World Health Organisation committees, confirmed publicly that the vaccine in question can cause “really severe and significant, serious adverse events”.

Even the manufacturer seems to be aware that all may not be well. In 2013 its head of vaccine innovation, Dr Ronald Neeleman, admitted to a conference that the vaccine in question had not been reviewed in many years. “[It serves] a small market, with very low returns, and there is not really an incentive to redevelop,” he said.

If Dr Neeleman was hinting that it is past its sell-by date, then, as Brabant points out, it remains a product “routinely available in high street chemists. It is given to British soldiers who are going overseas. And it is used widely in Africa, where there are few channels for reporting when people go mad after taking it”.

“We are not anti-vaccine in general,” stresses Villemann. “Yellow-fever vaccination saves lives, but what concerns us is that, when something goes wrong, there appears to be no help for people like Malcolm whose lives have been ruined.”

They are seeking financial compensation and they are prepared for it to be a bruising fight. To which end they have bared all in a book, Malcolm is a Little Unwell.
They are also working on a documentary film, using some footage they shot during the most gruelling chapters of Brabant’s illness.

Aren’t they tempted to draw a veil and just get on with their careers?

“Even if we wanted to,” Brabant replies phlegmatically, “we couldn’t. It’s out there anyway because of how I behaved.”
“No one rolls out the red carpet to welcome back people who have suffered a mental illness,” says Villemann. “That cannot go unchallenged.”

• Malcolm is a Little Unwell is published by Andartes Press

When Susan Lawson of Colorado hears parents declaring, unequivocally, that everyone should vaccinate their children because it’s perfectly safe, she says it feels “like a punch in the gut.” That’s because she’s seen another side of the story: Her daughter Julia, now 9, was left with permanent brain damage —an injury acknowledged by a federal court payout — after receiving her MMRV (measles-mumps-rubella-varicella) shot when she was a year old.

Lawson tells Yahoo Parenting that one morning, about a week after Julia received the shot, her now-ex-husband found their daughter in a terrifying state. “She was blue and cold and her body was arched, her eyes were looking in opposite directions, and she was covered in feces and vomit,” she recalls. “We thought she was dead.” She was rushed to the hospital, where doctors said she was having seizures, and she was put into a medically induced coma. Julia spent many days in intensive care and the neurology ward before being sent home with the diagnosis of encephalitis, or swelling of the brain.

Lawson, a veterinarian who had the utmost faith in medicine, had never before questioned vaccinations, and had always inoculated Julia right on schedule. But now she began to wonder. Hospital doctors dismissed any thought of a connection. But when Lawson asked a pediatrician about it, she was told it could be a possibility. Every family featured in this story received a payment by the United States Court of Federal Claims, which concluded that their rare injuries were caused by the vaccines.

“I felt shocked, bewildered, and guilty,” Lawson recalls. “We were trying to protect her, and instead I destroyed her. The guilt is huge.”

The pediatrician helped Lawson file a notice through the Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System (VAERS), a national vaccine safety surveillance program cosponsored by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) and the Food and Drug Administration (FDA). Lawson then hired a vaccine-injury attorney and began what became a trying, four-year journey through the country’s National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program of the US Court of Federal Claims — a specific, no-fault forum for vaccine injuries or deaths, set up by Congress in 1986 to ensure justice for children (and, as clarified by the Supreme Court recently, to protect vaccine manufacturers from being sued). At the end of it, in 2011, Lawson was awarded nearly $1.5 million for lost future wages, future life care, and pain and suffering on behalf of her daughter, whom she describes as “an eternal toddler,” with little language skills, constant medications, and daily seizures.

“Was it justice? I mean, they could have done nothing,” Lawson says. “But I just want my kid back.”

From my friend Ann who stopped vaccinating at 9 months:

At a week old my youngest son started crying and screaming non stop; slept no more than an hour at a time, constantly had his body scrunched up into a ball and acted as if he were in agony. At a month old our pediatrician stated he had "colic".

At two months old my son developed such severe eczema that he had open sores ... It happened directly after his two month vaccinations. 

He started having bloody, mucousy diarrhea.. I was told that he had a milk protein allergy and to cut out dairy and soy from my diet. When that did not help his list of symptoms I was advised to stop breastfeeding and to start him on Neocate or Elecare formula. We did, and our insurance did not cover the cost; we paid over $700 a month out of pocket.

When my sons symptoms slightly improved but did not fully dissipate we saw a pediatric allergist, my son skin test came back negative. The allergist suggested that my son may have a severe intolerance to milk proteins and that the bovine serum in the TDaP vaccine may be causing allergic reaction flare-ups. Our pediatrician stated our son was just sensitive and that vaccination would only help him. 

At four months he had a flat skin rash following vaccination, at 6 months it was the same. 9 months was full body hives.

My son did not, could not, would not eat any type of food until 14 months. Did not take naps until 16 months and could not sleep through the night until 3 months ago at two years old. (Would wake up screaming and vomiting). We were told he was "fine".

We were denied a medical exemption.

My son is not a " coincidence ". He is not a " one in a million" who has a reaction. And he is not an "exception to the rule". We are one of THOUSANDS, and we will be silenced no more.

From my friend Elizabeth:

My daughter developed terrible eczema after dtap @ 3mos old. She now 1 year later has food allergies and a hyper sensitive immune system. The doctors got irritated when I mentioned shots being the cause. We did a blood allergy test at 4 months old which revealed egg and dairy allergy. I was nursing so they told me it was my fault she was sick because of my diet. I had to quit nursing her. I tried everything. Oils, creams, changing detergents, air purifiers. We had break through when I completely changed her diet. She still has breakouts but not nearly as bad.

Terry received his vaccines on 6-3-14 and was in heaven the next morning.

From Ashley Walls

My son's name is Karsen Walls he is now 2 years old. He was up to date on all his vaccines and just had the "normal" reactions fever, fussiness, always got sick after vaccines. At that time i thought nothing of it other than i felt we lived in the dr Office nothing major no hospitalization or anything like that thank god. So July of 2014 he got 6-7 vaccines we went home over thenext few days he ran a mild low grade fever of like 99.? i did not have to give him any OTC meds he acted a little tired but he normally did after shots. He acted fine other than those symptoms. a few days later i noticed he was getting bruises in various places his legs, arms, back, butt sides of ribs to be honest it began to look like someone was beating him, my mom is our babysitter so i knew that was not happening.

So i started to take pictures and they continued to get worse so i took him to our pediatricians office and told them about his bruises and ect and the PA was more concerned about his mild 99.? Fever then the bruises he said since he just started walking they looked normal to him. um yeah maybe on his legs from falling but he was a late walker and once he knew he could walk he just did it there was no delay or practice or unbalanced walking he just took off and was walking like a pro. So i had to demand blood work to be done. I thought since i as anemic that maybe he was too and his iron levels were low. So the PA finally agreed to do blood work. My mom took him to our local hospital for blood work the next morning and by 7:30pm that day we got a very disturbing call from the Dr Office saying our son’s platelet levels were dangerously low and we needed to get him to the ER right away. 

So new parents that we are and our son is our world started freaking out we had no idea what platelets were or their purpose but we did as the said and took him to the ER. They took him right back to be seen and tested him again (cbc) and did a couple other test and his levels were still low 23K. So the ER dr got on the phone with Children’s hospital in Washington DC and made is an apt with them for the next morning at 10:00am and said our son had ITP and they would be able to explain more about it. We took him to children's hospital the next morning like directed and they did blood work again and we meet his Hematology dr for the first time. 

She explained everything to us and asked us lots of questions. 

Since July of 2014 we have taken him for blood work every week, then every two weeks, then every three weeks and now once a month unless he bruises again in weird unexplained places. December of 2014 his levels went up to the highest of 537K the dr at children’s hospital told us that his ITP was in remission i guess you could say and that it was very rare his levels would ever drop to low numbers again and for us to just monitor him for signs of ITP again. The end of Feb my son got a virus all symptoms was mild, a weird mild compared to previous childhood illness (colds and Viruses) well once again he started bruising everywhere again in weird places again it looked like my son was getting beat. (i have every single picture to share if need to) so i contacted our dr and we did blood work and sure enough levels down to 61K what a slap in the face. so we now believe that his levels will drop drastically every time he gets a cold or virus and i don't think our fight with ITP is over or every will be over. July 2015 will be one year my son had been diagnosed and has been fighting ITP. He now again has to do blood work once a month unless he gets peppered with bruises between that time. 

His levels have not been below 10K to receive any treatment and since the treatments are just as toxic and bad as the vaccines i do not plan to start any treatment. All those steroid are just temporary fixes and has side effects of their own and i do not wish to put my now 2 year old thru any of that. Since August we have been seeing a chiropractor that practices Homeopathy so she has him on a detox remedy, probiotics and vitamin D, K and B. 

Since i have stopped all vaccines he has been the healthiest. Over the winter he had two viruses and one cold all lasting a couple days and not as severe as previous colds and viruses. I didn't even have to give him any fever reducers which would have been treated with homeopathy anyway. So other than the ITP he is a healthy 2 year old. He was i guess you could say a late walker at 15 months but other than that he is meeting all his milestones and is smart as a whip.

Derek and Breanna lost their son, 6 month old Liam Archer Osterhout, suddenly on Thursday evening 3/26/2015. Liam was deeply loved and brought immense joy and love into the lives of his parents and all that knew him. 

It was a typical evening on Thursday when Breanna nursed her son and laid him down to sleep. After a short period of time, she went in to check on him and he was chilly and blue. She rushed him to his Papa, Del, who is a First Responder, and he did all he could to try to revive Liam until the ambulance arrived. Unfortunately, Liam could not be revived. Derek and Breanna have donated Liam's heart values so other families hopefully will not feel the pain and suffering they are feeling. In a split second, their lives have been forever altered.

Lorrin Kain's seizures began 2 hours after her shot.... The US Vaccine Court said the vaccine was the cause. The vaccine eventually took her life. —

He was awarded compensation from the vaccine court. This mom finally decided to speak out.

"within minutes ... he stopped breathing. far all he know is they don't believe vaccinations caused it." Right.. no way vaccinations caused it... 

WHEN Kellie Evans bought her 10-week-old baby into a Rockhampton medical centre, she didn't think twice about giving him his routine vaccinations.

But within minutes of young Brooklyn receiving two immunisations, he stopped breathing.

After being resuscitated by doctors at the clinic he started having seizures and stopped breathing twice more in that hour.

Kellie and her husband Darren have been with Brooklyn in a Brisbane hospital since Friday, when he was taken from Rockhampton Hospital by the Royal Flying Doctor Service.

Darren, who is a local jockey, said Kellie has been by Brooklyn's side 24/7 since he was hospitalised.

"He was pretty much dead," he said.

"They had to close the medical centre down and call the ambulance.

"We're pretty much shell-shocked … the worst part is just waiting."

Darren said doctors still don't know what caused Brooklyn to stop breathing or start having seizures, which have returned each day.

So far all he knows is they don't believe the vaccinations caused it.

"No one knows what it is, they're not sure what caused it," he said.

Darren said their only theory is a possible hole in his oesophagus which is sending air into his stomach and food into his lungs, but so far all tests results haven't shown anything wrong.

Darren and Kellie have been staying with family, while Darren's mother looks after their four-year-old daughter Chanel.

Brooklyn was initially taken to the medical centre last Tuesday to have medical staff assess an umbilical hernia, and while there they decided to give him his two-month check-up.

The National Jockey Trust has also lent a hand with counselling and accommodation closer to the hospital so they don't have to worry about paying for car parking, which has cost them $30 a day.


Sebastian Ryan Morley May 11, 2002 - January 22, 2003
Given DTaP, HepB, HIBV Sebastian began vomiting within hours of the vaccines, he turned yellow 2 days later, he was hospitalized for liver failure and died 37 days after his vaccines were given. — 

"...Clayton’s first DPT-P shot was administered at 8 weeks. Within hours, I could not hold him, try as I might, for he was arched right over backwards. His screaming was non-stop, at an unnatural, terrifying pitch I had never heard before. I later learned this is called ‘the encephalitic scream.’ I called our family pediatrician at 2 a.m. asking if I should bring Clayton in to the ER. No, I was told, this was normal, and it was suggested to me that I should just let him ‘cry it out.’ I was then told that Clayton would be fine, and that I should leave him be and go get some sleep. 

This went on for 16 hours! Still another call, with me more and more frantic. Being told to relax, as my hysterics could be exacerbating the problem. I was exhausted and fearful, and once again, asked if I should bring my son to the hospital. Again the answer was no, and again, told to just go to bed. Sleep! Though my mind and body were screaming for just that, sleep was the last thing on my mind. All I could do was sit on the bed and cry; I’d never felt such a keen feeling of helplessness, and isolation in my life. 

There was no family to call for help – the Dr’s were all I could count on to help us… or so I thought.

Clayton grew very quiet. At this point, I was able to encourage him to nurse weakly for perhaps a minute, before his little body shuddered, and he fell into a deep sleep. His limbs were flaccid and limp as I changed him and placed him into his bassinet.

Too nervous to sleep, I paced the floor, chewing my nails, still unsure as to whether or not Clayton was really okay. Sitting on the edge of the couch, I stared into the bassinet. Not long after he had fallen asleep, his skin turned gray and his lips blue. (again, for the second time in his short life – cyanotic)..." Read more here:


Two babies have died and 39 others are in hospital after suffering adverse effects following shots given under the National Vaccination Program.

The infants had been vaccinated against tuberculosis, rotavirus and hepatitis B early yesterday morning, but began suffering allergic reactions by 7:00pm last night. A total of 52 children were given the shots in the indigenous community of La Pimienta, San José and San Antonio del Monte, located in the municipality of Simojovel, Chiapas.

The Social Security Institute (IMSS) said it has launched an investigation and ordered the suspension of all vaccinations throughout the country. A team of health officials and experts has been sent to Chiapas to determine what happened.

The babies who died were just 28 and 30 days old. The others have been transferred to hospitals in the state capital, Tuxtla Gutiérrez, where one is in serious condition, 14 are in poor condition and another 22 are stable.

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From Joseph Sikora:

Lauren was vaccine injured 31 years ago .
Cerebral palsy , Epilepsy , and Autism 
are the results of that injury .

At 4 months old 
after receiving the DTP shot , she went into a 15 minute long Grand Mull seizure .

She was never the same .

I witnessed this with my own eyes , and held her while she convulsed . 

I'm her brother , and she's my baby sister.

She's a "lucky" one , over 5,000 children died from that vaccine by 1986 , but we given "mysterious" cause of death .

Thimerosal crippled my sister. 

Lyme disease crippled my sister.

Aluminum crippled my sister.

Formaldehyde crippled my sister.

MSG crippled my sister.

All those were/are in vaccines.

She cannot walk or talk or feed herself. 

She has a about 20 seizures a day.

She was born normal.


This is my friend Will Durden's son. 

"Ayden was 7 months old here and had already been trailing around the house at 5 months even before other kids his age could hardly sit up on their own. Just goes to show that Ayden was perfectly on track until the onslaught of vaccines occurred!!!!" 

Ayden is now autistic

From Melissa Sue Frohrib:

"I never will come to terms with my child's death, how can a person? But recently I found some clarity, thanks to an old school mate. I'll tell you my story. 

When Willow Schae Thomas was born she was the best gift I could have ever given her father, all he wanted was a baby and he finally got her. The best gift.. yet we barely had the chance to get all the wrapping off. 

She was born on Halloween last year 2014. And I loved it even more that she was born on such an awesome holiday. Sadly, In utero they saw her enlarged bladder on my last growth ultrasound and I was told I was then high risk pregnancy. When she was born we had scheduled an appointment with a urology specialist. Best, most experienced in the state. After many appointments she was on Oxybutynin for an overactive bladder. 

Willow's urologist had been in the business for years upon years and had no conclusion to why her bladder would not flow properly. 1 out of maybe 4 patients he was not able to help, or should I say limited to help because she was a mystery. Her urine would back up in to her kidneys. Even the medication wasn't helping. 

After infections, I was taught how to give her a straight catheter every 3 hours to relieve her so her kidneys didn't get destroyed, and eventually a catheter overnight made it easier on us but it was a lot of work. Anything for our baby girl though. 

Despite her issues and visits to her pediatrician, her specialist and 3 different hospital stays for 3 different infections, one being ecoli in the blood (thanks to all the cathing it was hard to keep bacteria from infecting her tiny body) she was still a very happy content baby.

She was absolutely amazing, so beautiful. Then all of a sudden, 4 days after Valentines day(such a happy day for us) (she was 3.5 months old) she passed away sometime in the morning of February 18th. It's so hard, so fresh in our minds still. 

My partner, her father found her in her crib with mucus all over her face. The worst 6 hours of my life, harassment from the police, no consoling from my partner because they split us up. He was almost arrested because he didn't want to talk to them, he was so distraught as was I. They treated us like we killed her n waited on a search warrant so they could look through all of our stuff. It was so traumatizing not being able to hold her, just couldn't stop wracking my mind that she was gone... you never think it will happen to you and then when it does it's a nightmare come to life. I just wanted to wake up. eventually they left and finally we talked to the coroner after her autopsy. She had sepsis, was extremely dehydrated. She'd gotten Influenza which turned in to pneumonia. She had NO symptoms other then a stuffy nose, which had gone away a few days prior. How could that happen? I thought about it ever single day, until an old friend got in contact with me and asked me about Willow's vaccinations. I told her she'd had them at the end of January. 

I hadn't gotten her 2 month shots right away, I got them at 3 months. She'd had her 2 month shots. And that's when my friend told me that I needed to look more in to it. I was shocked to realize the truth: that she had likely gotten sick from the vaccinations themself. 

It's not just a coincidence that 2 weeks after her vaccinations she suddenly died with no symptoms. Now that I'm at this point of clarity where I actually realize and understand what happened to my little beauty, I wonder if any other parents out here have suspicion or know their child had passed from a routine vaccinations?

Meet Nicholas Tidswell. Gone too soon. 

March 20, 1979- June 16, 2012

These are his mom's words. (Jane Mariouw)

Thank you, Debi, for considering 
my son, Nicks' story. It is not validated by a claim to the Vaccine Injury Board, though. We did settle out of court for the mistakes made by hospital staff during his birth. It may have contributed to CP and brain damage. But, he did not start having seizures that we know of until 13 months.

He was underweight so his first shots were delayed till he was over 10 lbs. at 3-4 months.
At around 1 year, he was SO sick. Looking back, it was after his shots. everything coming out of both ends violently, acting "strange"(which was seizures we were told at the hospital walk in).

It was few seizures a year for 12 years. at age 12 or so had another Hep.B shot. seizures became almost daily and continuous till age 33. Nick died of SUDEP in 2012. (Sudden Unexplained Death in Epilepsy)

From Lisa Joyce Goes

"Found this picture. The day after his injury occurred and I was told "not to worry's just the shots". I then went home and gave him mitochondrial disease by alternating Tylenol and Motrin and depleting glutathione; doctor's orders. 

We still battle chicken pox in his brain and heart and the damage the measles virus has done to his esophagus and intestines. We lost his neurotypical development and immune function completely the next day. 

The PICA set in, he quit drinking, could not suck, began licking walls and his eyes kept rolling back into his head. Cleveland Clinic told me it was behavioral. Except for the Chief Geneticist who whispered to us "I read you think it has something to do with the shots?" 

She nodded in agreement. While the pressure is intense, may I ask you, what is worse? Standing up for scientific truth in the face of bullying, or succumbing to it and spending your life and savings undoing the damage done? If the child is lucky enough to survive...nothing...nothing that is ever truly beneficial needs to be mandated. Think about it."
the REV

Courtesy of Sane Vax:

Gardasil: The decision we will always regret

By Kim Robinson, Red Hill, Pennsylvania
Katie's Gardasil Experience

By all accounts, our daughter was normal before receiving the HPV vaccine. Katie performed very well in school. She was conscientious, hard-working and took pride in getting good grades. She loved dancing having taken dance classes since she was 3 years old. 

Katie always danced and twirled throughout our home and anywhere else she happened to be. When Katie was 10, she joined cheerleading and became involved in competition cheerleading. She was very active, taking four hours of dance class every week plus spending many more hours practicing with her competition cheer team. Katie was healthy and vibrant.

We were very diligent with our children’s health. We never missed an annual check-up and we also followed the pediatrician’s recommended vaccine schedule including annual flu shots. Our pediatrician recommended the Gardasil vaccine. The Gardasil vaccine was heavily advertised on TV. We read the vaccine Disclosure. It said that the vaccine should not be given to those with HIV. Katie did not have HIV so we signed the Consent. 
On September 2, 2010 at the age of 11, Katie received the first Gardasil vaccine. Katie’s first day of middle school was September 7, 2010. Initially, we believed that her fatigue and headaches were being caused by having to get up much earlier in the morning for middle school. However, she never adjusted to the new schedule and soon her symptoms began exploding. 

Katie would often tell us “I don’t know what’s wrong, I just don’t feel good.” She began sleeping a lot – over 12 hours a day and even more on the weekends, which would allow her gather enough energy to go to school a few days before she crashed again. She missed days at school, dance lessons and cheer practices. Soon her illness was visible on the outside too. Katie didn’t look good – constant dark circles under her eyes, her skin color was ashen and she appeared listless.

To us, it seemed that her symptoms must be related to the Gardasil vaccine. Katie’s earliest symptoms began after receiving this vaccine. We searched the internet but only found vague information – nothing that matched our daughter’s symptoms. We asked Katie’s pediatrician and other specialists if the Gardasil vaccine could be related to her symptoms but our inquiries were quickly dismissed as not having any correlation to her illness. Katie’s earliest symptoms were a constant headache or migraine that did not respond to pain relievers, stabbing 24/7 bilateral ear pain, fatigue not relieved by sleep, abdominal pain, nausea and joint pain. We called and visited her pediatrician repeatedly. We began taking Katie to specialists including Neurologists, ENT’s, GI, and an OBGYN and made several visits to the Emergency Room. Katie also received many blood tests, CAT scans and an MRI. Nothing any of the doctors did relieved Katie’s symptoms. As a matter of fact, the drugs prescribed to alleviate her symptoms only made her feel worse. Our pediatrician and other doctors involved with Katie’s care began suggesting that her illness was psychosomatic and recommended that we take her to a psychologist. We soon found that we were on our own, dealing with a medical issue we did not understand but trying desperately to help our daughter. 

When searching the internet with Katie’s symptoms, Lyme disease would always come up as the search result. In addition to asking all of Katie’s doctors if the Gardasil vaccine was the cause of Katie’s illness, we also began asking if Lyme disease could be the culprit. In October 2010, Katie was first tested for Lyme disease. The results were negative as were two later rounds of testing. We read on the internet that ELISA and Western Blot tests for Lyme disease are unreliable and that many people who actually had Lyme disease tested negative. Since this information is all over the internet, we thought it was common knowledge to doctors as well.

Instead, we were emphatically told by doctor after doctor that this was not true, that the testing for Lyme disease is highly reliable and that there was no way Katie had Lyme disease. In April 2011, Katie could no longer go to school or participate in dance or cheerleading – the pain and fatigue was all consuming. Nothing any of the doctors did provided any relief yet every doctor refused to consider Lyme disease or that the Gardasil vaccine was related to her illness. 

Katie’s list of symptoms included the following: 24/7 headaches and migraines, 24/7 stabbing ear pain, hyperacusis, fatigue, abdominal pain, nausea, all over joint pain, constant sore throat, visual disturbances, light sensitivity, cognitive issues such as memory and severe comprehension problems, random numbness and tingling, weird “bug crawling” skin sensations, generalized weakness throughout her body (it was difficult for Katie to just sit in the shower to bathe), dizziness, fainting and heart palpitations. She slept long hours and stayed in her bedroom shielding herself from the noise of everyday living. 

In May, we requested testing through a lab specializing in tick-borne disease testing. Katie’s pediatrician reluctantly signed the lab Requisition Form. This time the test results showed that Katie was highly positive for Bartonella Henselae, a tick-borne disease also known as a co-infection to Lyme disease. She was also highly positive for Mycoplasma Pneumonia and the testing showed that her immune system was struggling. Katie’s Western Blot for Lyme disease was negative. 

We took those results with us to a long awaited CHOP Diagnostic Center appointment (think the “Dr. House” of the Children’s Hospital) and also to her CHOP Neurologist. Katie even had the classic Bartonella rash (looks like purple and red stretch marks) surrounding her breasts and hips which is confirmation of an active Bartonella infection. Both doctors told us that these test results only showed that Katie was “exposed” to Bartonella – it did not mean she had an active infection. Both came to the same conclusion that her Bartonella rash was actually just stretch marks. That was particularly hard for us to believe. Katie was muscular and lean from years of dance and cheer. 

Neither doctor was concerned about her blazing Mycoplasma Pneumonia infection nor was the fact that the testing showed her immune system impaired. Instead, CHOP Diagnostic Center diagnosed Katie with the beginning stages of Dysautonomia (a malfunctioning automatic nervous system). We were told that there was no cure and that symptoms were managed with medications. The CHOP Neurologist wasn’t in agreement with CHOP Diagnostic Center; instead she stuck to her prior diagnosis – Chronic Migraine Disorder with Chronic Ear Pain Neuralgia. The Neurologist recommended that we continue with the same treatment of 20 pills a day even though it did absolutely nothing for Katie other than increase her nausea and head pain. We felt utter disbelief, despair and anger.

We found our way to a local support group for those suffering with tick-borne diseases, which provided recommendations to LLMD’s (Lyme Literate Medical Doctors). Katie’s first appointment with an LLMD was in June 2011. This physician spent an hour reviewing blood tests and other medical reports we collected and asked a lot of questions that had never been asked before. He clinically diagnosed Katie with Lyme disease and agreed with the test results that reported active infections with Bartonella Henselae and Mycoplasma Pneumonia. He told us that Katie was very sick. Ironically, upon hearing that news we felt utter relief. This was the first doctor, since Katie’s illness began over nine months before that acknowledged she was ill. Since that time, Katie was diagnosed with chronic Strep, HHV6, hypo-coagulation, susceptibility to bio-toxin illness (mold and environmental sensitivities) and has acquired autoimmune thyroid disease. 
It has been three and a half years since Katie received the Gardasil vaccine and she still remains chronically ill. She was unable to attend school in 7th and 8th grades. This year, Katie decided to repeat 8th grade again rather than begin high school still sick. Katie has an IEP plan in school which reduces her daily schedule to three core classes only. Unfortunately, Katie is still too sick to attend school with any regularity. Most days, a teacher comes to our home to review the lessons she missed at school. Some days, Katie’s pain levels are too high so that she can’t even tolerate home tutoring. Although she longs to get back to dancing again, she spends most days in her room sleeping or resting and trying to cope with chronic pain. At 14 years old, Katie’s life closely resembles a sick elderly person instead of an active vibrant teenager she should be. 

After Katie was finally diagnosed with tick-borne diseases, we put our initial suspicion about the Gardasil vaccine aside. Since the treatment of tick-borne diseases is considered emerging medicine, I am always combing the internet for new information on tick-borne diseases, the latest research or treatments. To our utter disbelief, I came across an article reporting that the Gardasil vaccine can activate a latent Bartonella infection that was otherwise being suppressed by a properly functioning immune system prior to vaccination. We now believe our earliest suspicion was correct.
We found many stories about devastating health changes post-vaccine. These stories are eerily familiar to our daughter’s. The Gardasil vaccine is known to activate latent infections and viruses, such as Epstein Barr and Bartonella. 

The Gardasil vaccine deregulates the immune system and that allows latent infections and viruses, which were kept in check pre-vaccine by a then properly functioning immune system, to activate post-vaccine. Now, there is evidence that the HPV vaccine is linked to the onset of autoimmune diseases. 

We recently consulted Katie’s LLMD and also her Primary Care Physician, who reviewed Katie’s vaccine log and extensive medical records. Both agree that Katie’s immune system was injured by the Gardasil vaccine and that it was the catalyst to her cascading health problems and chronic illness. Katie’s LLMD is now treating her for a vaccine injury in addition to treating multiple tick-borne diseases, other infections/viruses and autoimmune thyroid disease. 

At this point, we are totally outside our insurance company and most everything is out-of-pocket. The overall expense of Katie’s illness greatly outpaces our income so many expenses are put on credit cards. But the biggest cost by far is the toll that the Gardasil vaccine has taken on our daughter’s health and well-being. We wonder if she will ever be able to reclaim her health and get back to living a normal life free of pain.

We deeply regret consenting to the Gardasil vaccine. We had no idea of the severe side effects some experience post vaccine. Every day, we wish we had been more informed. Parents beware of blindly following your doctor’s recommended vaccine schedule. Do not rely or expect your doctor to know everything. You must do your own research and ask plenty of questions. Our family found out the hard way that it is possible for a vaccine to have lasting and devastating effects.

* ARIELLAS STORY * courtesy of Vaccine Injury Stories

Everything was going perfect we planned the pregnancy so I knew from the start. It was a very happy and healthy pregnancy, birth, everything. Birth was natural with no epidural. Four pushes she was out, and perfectly healthy. 

She was simply a very happy baby always smiling never sick. She was Rolling over, trying to sit up on her own a little. Doing everything a 4 month old should be doing. Her Pediatrician even made a comment that she was above average on her motor skills.

Then she got her 4 month vaccines.
3 shots including 6 vaccines;
DTaP, Hib, IPV, Rotavirus, PCV, Hep B 
I could feel God tugging at me to decline them. I did. I told the nurse no. She assured me my baby was fine and would remain fine. She told me DCF could be called if any one finds out my baby isn't vaccinated, that it is medical neglect. I was so scared so I turned my back on my baby. I just looked the other way and said "fine" and she got her shots as she sat in her daddies lap. I knew in that moment I had failed her. I felt it in my gut, but I ignored it. 
Within the hour our baby girl completely changed. 
**She started having seizures and/or spasms.
** Screaming a horrible high pitched scream.
**She no longer smiles, coos or laughs. **Can no longer hold her head up, or sit up on her own. 
**No longer rolling over.
**No longer interested in toys. 
**clenching of the fists
Gradually she got worse.

**She started arching her back horribly, and trying to push her head back all the time almost touching her bottom. 
**Eyes go back into her head after seconds of focusing on something, especially after a seizure or spasm. 
**At times she is hypersensitive and has a spasm by just a soft rub on the face by our hands or kiss on the cheek, but not always. 
**stiffness in joints, especially arms and neck.
As You can imagine we were very concerned I knew something was terribly wrong. Our worse fear had come true. 

I called the doctors they said it is perfectly normal. They told me to give her Tylenol. 

I took her to see her Pediatrician for her 5 month check up who said I was overprotective and that she is just teething and gassy and below average on motor skills. But wait just a month ago she was above average, that doesn't make sense. Anyways I kept asking questions regarding vaccines or anything else just knowing gas and teething isn't the cause. However he was reluctant to answer and instead said he would call me if he or any other parents had questions since I know everything.
Her 6 month appointment she was seen by a different Pediatrician. We explained all the same symptoms and concerns. She immediately picked our daughter up and checked her out feeling her head. She then immediately referred Ariella to Joe DiMaggio Children's Hospital. Explaining that the fontanelle (soft spot on the top of her head) had completely closed prematurely.

We immediately rushed her there. They ran a cat scan to determine the cause of the fontanelle closing. Finding that the brain had stopped growing at 4 months of age, decreased in size alittle, and she has a few cysts on her brain.
So they admitted her and the tests began. 
**urine tests
** countless blood tests
**spinal tap
After 3 long days of constant testing they sent her home. Only to return 2 days later for an appointment for more tests. 
**more blood
**hearing test
The next 3 weeks all we could do is pray and hope for the best, as we waited for the results. 
Finally they came but it wasn't good. 

Her galactocerebrosidase was low. Indicating it could possibly be Krabbe disease, or another disease similar.

Now Krabbe disease is 100% genetic. Meaning both parents have to carry the gene. As well as every one else in both of our families. It is so rare the doctors that worked her case will never see it in their life again.
They said they needed to do a DNA test to confirm it. However we had to pay out of pocket. We went down to the lab payed right then and there and got the test done. 

In the meantime they are already convenienced she has it and will pass soon. Advising us to enjoy our last few days with her and to make her comfortable. 
They then proscribed her gabapentin and clonidine. Claiming they are both all natural, no side effects, and I couldn't overdose her if I tried. 
I researched them. 

Finding out - 
**of course they are not natural. 
**there are serious side effects including death for both. 
**they proscribed her twice the amount of gabapentin my grandfather who is an amputee is proscribed. 
**clonidine is not for children under the age of 3.
**gabapentin is not for children under 12. 
**both slow the heart rate. 
**these two mixed eventually would have stopped her heart. 

So the test results from the "DNA test" came back and turns out it wasn't the DNA test they did. It was the same test he was holding the results from when he ordered the DNA test, the test that comfirmed her galactocerebrosidase was low. They did the test twice. And now claim they can't do a DNA test on her, or us. Only the fetus if I get pregnant again. 
They refuse to give us answers as to why they can't do the test now. They change the subject as quickly as possible when I say it happened within an hour of her shots. They claim there is no link to autism and vaccines. I am not questioning that link tho. My child is not autistic. My child's brain completely stopped growing, my child stopped development and lost all development she had. My child's brain shrank. And they wouldn't help me save her. They gave up on her. They tried killing her, tried stopping her heart.

They also tried putting her on hospice. After explaining to both the referring doctor and the nurse that called that we are not in the least bit interested, that we refuse to give up. They still randomly showed up and after yet again explaining we don't need the service they almost immediately started explaining the sedation process and started getting out the sedation tools, mean while my child was already sleeping. I continued to refuse it. Explaining this all started with the vaccines. Then all she cared about was rather we spoke to any attorneys. Asking us 5 times within 15 minutes in different ways. As we answered the same way each time, Stating we are only searching for doctors.

I have now discontinued going back to see them. They refuse to address the fact the vaccines caused this and We refuse to watch her die.
From research and speaking with other doctors I have found that the vaccines could cause low levels of galactocerebrosidase also. So that answers that question. I am working on getting a DNA test to role out Krabbe. I have however gotten a DNA test done showing what meds she can and cannot have based on her DNA make up. 

We have changed her diet to all organic home made baby food, a goats milk recipe referred by the doctor with added colostrum, extra virgen olive oil, unrefined coconut oil, flax seed oil, dha, black molasses, a greens mix powder, and three different mixes of herbs for brain and nervous system healing and repair, and in her morning bottle I add her probiotics and daily vitamins. We also made her a tea from fresh organic turmeric, black pepper, ginger, garlic, cilantro and whole lemon. She drank an ounce of that each day for three weeks. I did detox baths everyday for awhile but now only do it maybe once a week; epsom salt, bentonit clay, and baking soda baths. Gently brushing her body towards the heart with a soft bristle brush before each bath. I use pure organic unrefined Coconut oil for diaper cream, and add equal part extra virgen olive oil for lotion and chapped lips. I just started December 8, giving her DDR prime essential oil to repair DNA, damaged cells, and skin tissue. In the beginning of January I also started giving her an oxidation liquid to kill any microorganisms in her body. I am also using a zap machine on her, something similar to a riff machine to help heal her body and kill microorganisms in the skin tissue. And will soon start putting drips of Ozone in her ears. If You can think of anything else I could do it would be greatly appreciated.


When Katie Green was 15, like thousands of schoolgirls she was given a jab against the human papillomavirus (HPV). This has been linked to cervical cancer and, under an NHS scheme introduced in 2008, all girls aged 12 to 15 are offered the vaccine against it.

In November 2009, Katie brought home a school note about having the jab. Her mother Carol, 50, a teacher in the family’s home town of Upton-upon-Severn, Worcestershire, was happy to agree.
‘Katie had all the other vaccinations and was fine,’ she says. ‘Apart from asthma and allergies to pets, her health had always been robust.’

But shortly after her first shot of Cervarix (one of the two brands of the vaccine), Katie’s arm swelled. ‘It stayed swollen for days and she felt groggy,’ says Carol.

These side-effects are not uncommon and are warned of in literature given with the vaccine.
A month later, Katie had the second of the three-course jab and her ordeal truly began. ‘Next morning, she was uncharacteristically late rising for school,’ says Carol. ‘When I woke her, she didn’t seem with it. She had wet the bed, which was completely unusual. Now I wonder if she had suffered a fit in the night.’

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I had my daughter ten years ago. She was born healthy. Very soon after, she started to become very sick, a very sick baby. Two to three times a month we were in the doctor’s office. She was prescribed antibiotic after antibiotic. We were made to believe that this was normal; that all babies are sick, or that sick. At her twelve-month well baby visit, she was vaccinated. That night, she started screaming. It was a different cry than before. We had been to emergency a lot before, but this was different. This was a pain scream.

We took her in. They did let us know that she was complaining about her head at that time. They wanted to run a lot of tests to make sure that everything was okay with the head. I believe they did an EKO and a CAT Scan. They came back and let us know that they’re trying to rule out swelling in the brain. The one thing the doctor did ask us was when was the last time she was vaccinated. We told him, “Actually, it was yesterday.” He actually asked us what vaccines she got, and at that time I couldn’t even tell him. I had no idea. Just took her to her well baby and did was I was supposed to, and that was it.

They ended up releasing us, and when they were releasing us, he came … It sounded like he was speaking Chinese. Everything he was telling me, names … We needed to follow up with the doctor was ultimately what I got out of it. I called to make the appointment the next day. We had an appointment for the following day. She woke up the next morning covered in a rash everywhere. We took her in and found out it was measles. She had had her MMR three days before that.

Still very sick, kind of continued on the same, but we did notice that the sickness was now not going away; it was constant. There was very few times she was not sick after that. I never questioned anything; I believed the doctor, everything the doctor said at that time. Three months later, she had her fifteen-month shots, where she had over nine inoculations that day. That was the day that we lost her. We took her in, fine. Took her home. It was severe sickness after that.

The symptoms of it, at that time, masked what was actually going on. As the symptoms were subsiding, after almost three and a half weeks of a fever, runny nose, cough, trouble breathing, we noticed she wasn’t talking. She started to get frustrated and seemed confused. There would be zombie-like moments where she would just stare out the window, and you could yell her name as loud as you can, and she wasn’t even going to respond.

I took her back in, and I said, “Okay. There’s something wrong.” I asked the doctor, “Could this be from the swelling in the brain from the vaccines?” What alarmed me the most was the reaction the doctor had. It was an immediate defense of vaccines. It didn’t make any sense to me when she did that. Before we left the doctor that day, I asked for my daughter’s medical records. We got them the next week, and my heart just broke reading these records. There was pattern. Vaccinate, vaccine, hospital visit, sickness, over again. Repeat, repeat, repeat. Here I was, this mom making people wash their hands to hold my baby. I’d have ten pacifiers in case one fell on the ground to keep her from germs. I was keeping her sick this entire time.

From there, it was a couple months later that she was diagnosed with autism from after that. I knew they can call it autism, but it was a clear indication of when it started, how it happened, but I had to keep quiet. It was a time before it was … There was nothing out about it, really. It was still this controversial “nobody talked about it.” I remember getting so frustrated that I had the truth right there and I had to keep it quiet. I couldn’t share her story. You’d say the word and this red in peoples’ eyes. They just wanted to let you have it the minute … without ever hearing the story.

At that time, I had a son who was two months old. Started to do my vaccine research. It was funny that I actually did the research, and now I was told I was misinformed, when I had never researched anything on vaccines before. I’d never picked up a book, anything. I had no idea. We stopped his vaccines. He got sick after his two-month, and that was at the same exact time as hers was. That was probably the best decision as a parent I’ve ever made was stopping his. After that, we went through a period; I call it the dark period, of having no idea what to do, where to go with my daughter. Then Jenny McCarthy’s book came out. It was like this shining light of, “I have a recipe now. I have something I can do. I’m not just sitting here hoping somebody’s going to come along and make her better. I can actually be a part of this.”

We started the biomedical, we started the supplements, the diet. Within a month, she was talking again. We piled on the therapy on top of that, behavior therapy, speech, OT; we did everything we could. It’s had ups and downs, and I’m happy to say in seven years, she’s never been sick one time. My son is eight; he’s been sick that one time, after his two-month shots. There’s no other evidence I need than my two children. I have right here, right there. As far as she’s come, yesterday she graduated from second grade. She got a real report card like the other kids did. Even though it has a happy ending, I still think that the story needs to be told, because I think it could prevent other people from having the same story. That’s why I really want to get her story out.

I oppose mandatory vaccination because before I was informed, and before I was educated about it, I was vaccinating my kids, and I was presumed then as the educated parent, having never heard, read, studied, asked any questions about it. Now I come in and actually do my research, actually look at both sides, and now I’m told you can’t make that decision now. We need to make it for you. I’m going, “Wait a minute. Now I actually know what’s going on, and you’re going to take away that from me? Why didn’t you come in to these parents before and say, ‘Hey, are you educated?'” There was nothing there. Now it’s, “Your education’s wrong.” That’s the part that really bothers me. These parents should have the choice. Just like my daughter got measles from her shot; I should have the choice how my daughter gets measles, if that’s the case.

Like I said, I think my son would have been my daughter had I vaccinated him, and I think my daughter would have been like my son, had I not vaccinated her. Again, I think vaccination should be my choice. If they can’t tell me 100% that vaccination is safe, and I have nothing to worry about, then they have to give me the option of making my own informed decision about vaccination.

If you’re a parent on the fence about vaccination, I would say, “Research.” I would say, “Pull your child’s medical records.” I would say, “Get to know the genetics behind your child. Know the cousins. What’s going on with the older cousins? Is there anything that would correlate, that could be?” Go that avenue, put that time in, and make sure that you’ve done everything you could before you decided. That’s what I wish I would have done.

From Traci Born -

This is MY son. This is HIS story. In this picture he is 6 months old. Looks healthy, other than the fact he's in the hospital with an IV, right? Do you see MY eyes? The fear? The pain? The worry?

We were waiting to know what was wrong with him. Turns out he has Histiocytosis. His doctors believe that initial onset and ALL 6 relapses were directly related to vaccines. You see, the thought process is that when his body created the immune response to defend itself against the antigen that was introduced, the immune response was too immature to turn off. So it continued to send out more and more cells to fight something and eventually those cells turned and attacked him, accumulating in his lungs, liver, skin, ear canal, and a 6 cm x 7 cm x 4 cm mass in his chest that displaced his heart, crushed his airway, flattened his arteries. Everytime he got better and we did another vaccine, within a week the symptoms would return and a scan would reveal a new lesion/tumor somewhere in his body in addition to what we would see on his little legs.

Vaccines are NOT safe for everyone. My son is proof of that. His doctors agree that vaccinating him would not be advisable. However, they also feel he doesn't qualify for a medical exemption under their companies protocol. He is a Kaiser patient. 

I can not afford to take him to a different doctor, and frankly a different doctor would not write an exemption without being his primary doctor. So instead MY child will not be allowed to attend school. He will be FORCED out of school, for as long as we live in Caifornia.

He turns 7 on Friday, June 19. They didn't expect him to survive. This state wants to take away his rights to an EQUAL education, provided by the state. While I am fine with homeschooling, I am NOT ok with it not being MY DECISION, without coersion. 

SB277 is not about protecting children. It's about taking control away from parents and giving it to the government.

First they attack my right... and you won't stand for me. What will happen when they attack YOUR right? Will you expect me to stand for you?

edited to add: for those just reading this I ask you read my wall. Watch my public videos... especially ones posted after this post was posted. Look at the pictures. I will keep posting pictures of him at different points. In some, he will appear healthy. In some he will even BE healthy. In some... it will be apparent something is wrong.

Erin Holmes called the $250,000 she got from the Vaccine Injury Compensation program for her son, Jacob’s, death in 2002 at the hands of a MMR vaccine “blood money.” Holmes was awarded the money in fast order after filing her claim, but it was something that sickened her, as it could never bring her son back and there was a very robotic feeling to the process.

Jacob went through a half a year’s worth of seizures, was in and out of ER’s, before he finally succumb to the injury. “I can’t even describe the feeling. They’re like, ‘Oh, well, we’re sorry we killed your kid. Here’s some money,” she said. But Holmes wasn’t done, in fact, her anger and frustration remained so much so, that even after the payoff from the Vaccine Injury Compensation program, she decided she wanted more. And her attorney told her that was more than possible.

Because the VIC pays out the sum to the deceased child, Holmes was still able to personally sue Merck and Co., who created the MMR that was injected into and eventually led to Jacob’s untimely passing. Her attorney, Marty Keach, said, “there’s nothing in that statute (the National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act) that takes away the parent’s claims.”

Of course, things took a twist for the worse…

(via But the 9th U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals ruled that Holmes could not sue for negligent design or failure to warn, because the National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act pre-empted Holmes’ strict product liability, negligent design and failure to warn claims.

“If we were to conclude that the parents of those suffering a vaccine-related injury could bring design defect and failure to warn claims … we would be acting contrary to the statute’s central purpose of managing vaccine manufacturers’ liability because our construction would do little to protect the vaccine manufacturers from suit,” the court said in its opinion.

The court did say the other six claims are “unaffected” by the National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act, “and each of these provide a possible remedy to the injuries that they suffered as a result of Jacob’s illness and death.”

But Keach said the remaining claims would require proof that a specific batch of vaccines was manufactured incorrectly or that the vaccines were produced in a certain way that was not approved by the Food and Drug Administration, which were not viable in Holmes’ case.

In a statement, Merck said “nothing is more important … than the safety and effectiveness of our vaccines and medicines and the people who use them.”

“We remain confident that MMR II helps protect against measles, mumps and rubella as described in the labeling for the vaccine,” its statement said.

It went on to say that while “no vaccine or medicine or completely without risk … MMR II also continues to be recommended for routing administration to children by public health authorities around the world, including the CDC and the FDA.”

The Edgy Truth

From Vaccine Impact:

"My daughter Chiara is 13 years old. She was an athlete with a history of Hashimoto’s thyroiditis with elevated levels of anti-thyroid peroxidase antibodies. We discovered it much before receiving HPV vaccine.

I can tell you that she was a good athlete. Hashimoto’s did not stop her from participating in the World Championship Karate in Caorle twice. In 2010, she won the brown belt. Chiara’s other hobbies included painting, singing and practicing sports. That was before Gardasil.

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"...Matt went on to tell me that Zara had a doctor’s appointment the day before, just her normal well baby visit and had received her scheduled 15 month immunizations. The next morning she was found dead in her crib. It was unimaginable, unthinkable and heart-wrenching. I couldn’t even fathom it. Of course I sent everything that I had to them right away. ..."

"...My usual workflow includes documenting all sessions on my blog and I really wanted to do whatever honored and helped this family in any way. I wanted Zara’s memory to live on, I wanted everyone to know what a beautiful, vibrant, loved, and full of life little girl Zara was. I knew I needed to talk to Carla, and I finally had a one on one conversation with her over the phone. She told the story of holding Zara on her lap after her doctor’s appointment as she experienced symptoms so many parents see after immunizations. Sweet little Zara had a fever and was a bit fussy. Carla checked her injection sites and noticed nothing odd or off, and so held her as she looked through the images that I had sent her, we texted back and forth about her images. She put her to bed as she normally does and the family settled in for the night. Little did they know that life would never be the same for them. When they awoke in the morning, they awoke to every parent’s worst nightmare, Zara had passed away during the night. 

I have served as our hospital’s bereavement coordinator for the past 9 years, but at the time we spoke, I felt I needed to just listen, to just let her tell her story and there would be time to share that later. It was later that I shared my role in the bereavement community, and we once again both felt it was much more than coincidence that brought us together.

As Carla talked I could hear the agony in her voice, the questions she so desperately needed answered. She clung to the hope that Zara’s autopsy would shed light on the cause of her death. She expressed her greatest fear being that they would rule it SUDC (Sudden Unexplained Death in Childhood). We decided to wait until autopsy results were obtained before sharing her story on my blog, so that we could link my post to whatever organization they wanted to donate to. She wondered how a healthy, happy baby girl could pass away less than 24 hours of receiving vaccinations without there being some sort of link or underlying health condition...."
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Anne L. Clear shares with us her son Jordan Jay Brunner.

Sweet Jordan was born on 04/13/2009. He passed away on 06/21/2009 (Father's Day), less than 3 days after given the 2 month shots while he had a higher than normal temperature. 

The 2 month shots in 2009 are the same as today, they give vaccines for 8 diseases DTaP, Hib, Hep B, Polio, Pneumococcal and the oral Rotavirus vaccine. 

The vaccines he was given less than 3 days before he died were not even listed on his autopsy report.

There was no vaccine injury claim filed with the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program. Nothing was ever reported to VAERS either by Jordan's pediatrician and nothing was reported by the mother because Jordan's cause of death was ruled SIDS. 

The doctor nor medical examiner or anyone who could've spoken up, ever informed Anne that her sons most plausible cause of death was the vaccines. She had to do her own research.

Look up all of the vaccine package inserts, learn what was injected into this baby during that well baby checkup that left him lifeless. 

It's hard to believe any of these babies survive these shots. 

We know of NO adult that has been given the vaccines tiny infants are being given these days. Not one.

We honor his life and many others up there with him. RIP Jordan, you will be remembered. Thank you for working hard to raise awareness down here.


From My friend Annie Hunter:

Two years ago today Adaline was admitted to the hospital and we didn't yet know what was going on. Two months later, we were in the hospital again and that time it was even worse and we finally knew why. I took the time to lay out the photos next to each other to show how much vaccines affected my baby. And the unknown today on why my kid has CP. I can tell you why. 

My happy healthy baby was given shots to protect her. And it did not work. No one warned me this was a possible outcome. No one warned me how common it was. No one told me i had the right to say "Not today" to vaccines. Just know, you DO have that right. Educate yourself before you vaccinate. Vaccines are not for everyone. I learned that the hard way. Don't make the same mistake I did.

This is my friend Denise Ellenwood's son after his 6 month vaccines.

This is my friend's child 7 days after the DTaP vaccine. Mom was concerned about vaccines, so was doing them one at a time. She did not connect the vaccine to the rash or the 3 month cough that followed.

She went to 3 different doctors who could not tell her what the rash was. One pulmonary doctor misdiagnosed asthma. 

Believing the doctors, she took the child in 6 months later for the booster and the same thing happened. This time it was followed by a 4 month cough that was diagnosed as the RSV virus in the ER.

Her child now has eczema and is on a special diet to help with skin issues. Her doctor agrees no more vaccines!!

(ANSA) - Rome, July 2 - Italian authorities have launched an investigation after a two-month-old baby died following a mandatory vaccination in a Sicilian hospital.

The baby died on June 29 after having been administered the vaccine in the Maria Paternò Arezzo hospital in Ragusa, southern Sicily.

Police have ordered an autopsy following a report by the child's parents, which is due to be carried out on Thursday.

Investigations are "aimed at establishing with certainty the causes of death of the infant, with the goal of shedding light on any responsibility due to medical negligence on the part of employees of the hospital," prosecutors said in a statement.

Noah's story by Lisa Joyce Goes

Just told Noah's story AGAIN. For those whose lives have not been affected by vaccine injury, please give me this one self-indulgent moment. 

You really have no idea what life is like. really don't. Not because you are unkind, or unsympathetic. Because, this issue has not touched you. You have no idea how hard it is to not fall into despair. 

What if we had decided to do something else September 13, 2007? What if one of us had gotten sick, or we just didn't feel like going to the doctor and made other plans? Why didn't we get into a car accident, or have to help a friend with an emergency? Why didn't a pipe burst? I was six months pregnant and so tired from planning the interior of our "dream home". So, for the first time, Dave took Noah for his well baby visit. Dave held him down for four jabs. 

Influenza Sanofi Pasteur In UT2456CA VIS DATE 16 JULY 2007
MMR Merck and Co. 0527u VIS DATE 15 JAN2003
Prevnar Wyeth-Ayerst Labs B08692A VIS DATE 20 SEPT 2002
Varicella Merck and Co. 1014u VIS DATE JAN 2007

The "Baby's First Years" book stops forever that day. 

September 13, 2007. I cannot even look at it. For awhile, I pretended milestones were met so that he would have something to reflect on. After all, he was just delayed. Developmentally delayed. That's benign. He'll catch up. We were told 7 times that he would catch up. He had "toddler diarrhea" for SIX YEARS. He didn't speak because...well..his older sib was a girl right? They like to talk for their brothers.

What would life be like if we did not keep pushing and investigating and working and fighting for appropriate diagnostics? Why should any parent have to police the system that harmed their child to ensure they properly CARE FOR THAT CHILD? 

Hundreds of thousands of dollars. 7 years later. Noah has the soul of an angel. The face of a child model. The physique of a budding football star. The social skills of a 24 month old. The anxiety and stress of a war veteran. The central nervous system of an Alzheimer patient. The immune compromise of a cancer patient. Food and environmental sensitivities that defy comparison. 

Is he honored for trying his best to be a part of a world that repeatedly tells him HE DOES NOT EXIST?! He is made up. The illusion of "goofy, celebrity following" parents. Rare. So uncommon he could not possibly be studied (except uhmmm...he is 1 in 50 by skewed CDC standards, 1 in 21 by actual academician statistician standards). But so very rare and unheard of. Maybe...not real? Yes, that sounds right. Not real. 

Is he hailed as the hero he is for getting up everyday and trying desperately to overcome his societal "deficits" which are the result of an assault?
Assault by a pharmaceutical megalith that cannot ever be held responsible for the damage they've caused...because...FOR THEM...and for them ONLY...killing and maiming children is 100% PERFECTLY LEGAL. 

As was everything Hitler accomplished during his reign. 100% LEGAL. 

I have told our story to geneticists, doctors, educators, bus drivers, journalists, TV producers, family members, countless crowds of strangers. Friends. It never gets easier. What if we had done something else that day? What if I had listened to that perfect stranger getting coffee in Princeton who walked up to me, pointed at my protruding belly and told me not to vaccinate. That was 2005! Beautiful professional woman. My thought? "College town...whhhhaaaaaaackkadoodle! Riiiiight...Don't vaccinate. Did not expect that from a fellow suit." Smiled. Walked away. Wrote her off. Had I only listened. What if what if what if. I do a pretty good job if tabling this so I can get through my days. But, now I have to tell it again, to the senators who will be voting on Illinois SB 1410. I have to preserve my right to religiously object to what was injected into my son, September 13, 2007. I have to write it, I have to tell it. I have to speak it...over and over and over again...

With the friend...that it will not you.

With a sad and heavy heart, The Rev

Trent Micheal . . . shared by his mother on September 6, 2014
My name is Christa. I am 24 yrs old. I had a son on March 29, 2012. He was perfect! He looked just like me and hardly ever cried or fussed. Wonderfully healthy but preemie(he was born at 35weeks 3days gestation because I had severe preeclampsia) He spent about 2 weeks in the NICU.On December 22 (His father and I are together and it was his fathers birthday) I took him to the doctor for a wellchild visit. They wanted to give him 7(I think) different vaccines in 4 needles. I had missed an appointment so I believe that his doctor office was trying to catch him up, but that's just my personal opinion. I tried to refuse and suggested we break the shots up. His nurse practitioner said she could not do that and proceeded to insinuate that I was a bad mother so I allowed the shots. I feel so much guilt because I broke down and allowed the shots. I should have picked my son up, said "have a nice day" and walked out. Hindsight is 20/20 though. They did say Trent was perfectly healthy. I went to stay with a friend at the hospital that night, she had gotten in a car accident and had broken her back and several ribs. She had no family living in the area, so my mom kept Trent for me. I received a call from my mom that Trent had been taken to the hospital because he had stopped breathing and my grandparents were coming to get me. I arrived before the ambulance because the other hospital was so close. When the ambulance did arrive, they had my precious 8month old baby hooked up to so many machines all I could do was cry! They told me they were unsuccessful at getting a pulse but they needed my permission to stop trying to revive him. That was absolutely the toughest heart-wrenching thing to say EVER! I had to say "yes you can stop trying to save my little 8 month old baby boy" He passed away that night 12hours after shots. Coincidence? I think not. I went to his doctors office and all they said was "oh I'm so sorry" that didn't really help any. I still cry just about every night when putting his younger sister to bed. My father suffers from PTSD because his grandson passed away in his home and I am in therapy. This has had a huge impact on all families involved. Thank you for taking time to read this. ~ Christa

Gracie Briana Lynne . . . shared by her mother on September 26, 2014
It's been 3,652 days. 522 weeks. 10 years. 1 decade since I held you in my arms as you took your last breath. In some ways, it seemed to fly by. In other ways, the time crawled. Every moment of the last ten years my heart has ached with the loss of you. Here I am, all these years later, and I still feel like I have a gaping wound in my soul. It will never heal. That hole will never be closed. I love and miss you with all that I am, Gracie Briana Lynne. I'm in no hurry to leave this earth, but I'm joyous knowing that when I do, we'll be reunited and enjoy eternity together in His kingdom. ♡

From a friend:

"This is my now nearly 18 year old daughter and pictures of her vaccine reaction. This sickened her for a week and landed her a hospital admission for 3 days. Those welts spread out and up her trunk. 

They turned white in the center and looked as though they may break open. The rash was accompanied by a 104+ fever. She would not eat or drink which is ultimately why we had to hospitalize her. During our ER visit, we were asked permission to photograph her rash, which by then was far more atrocious than these pictures depict, for medical textbooks. 

They told us she may have the same lesions on her internal organs and that if the lesions began breaking open she was in real trouble. We were admitted and stayed for 3 days. I never attributed this to vaccination. It wasn't until I saw the recent picture of another child floating around on FB with a similar rash and confirmed DTaP reaction that I realized that's what had happened to her.

She had a DTaP the same week this happened. My son had different reactions and ultimately he is the reason I stopped vaccinating. I feel so badly that I had no idea. I feel compelled to post this so that maybe another recognizes what a reaction looks like."

This is from a friend:

"She was vaccinated, within hours explosive diarrhea (never had before) to the point that we had to cut clothes off - 5 outfits of diarrhea through car seat, through high chair, "tremors" stiffening of body and leg shakes night one (hours after vaccines), rash developed, she stopped saying words.

The second photo is when it started, first photo is what they looked like by day 2

Lost voice day 2 1/2, breathing trouble. Now she is "better" by most standards

She ended up admitted to hospital a couple days after vaccines for inability to breath properly.

We had her at pedi hours before because I though she wasn't breathing correct. He said bronchitis and sent us home. When home I saw her gasping for air and rushed her to ER. At ER she was admitted on the spot and given help to breathe.

If I listened to pedi who said to take her home and let her rest, I shutter to think.... We were home an hour and I said something is worse now.... Let's go to ER.

This happened a year and a bit ago. Her gut isn't right. Still she needs high dose pro biotics everyday in order for her stool to pass

She got words back, but it took months and she now has what appears as apraxia (her words at times are not understandable)

She also went from being a great walker, to now having balance issues to this day.

It all happened immediately after vaccines.... No Dr would admit, not even in hospital... All coincidence I was told.

I have a video of her talking two months before that vaccine and talking clear with no jumbled words . Then videos after....difference is shocking.

Who would have ever thought a single injection of the HPV vaccine, Gardasil, could bring my precious daughter to the brink of death? My daughters, Ashlie and Lyndsie, were both injected with the Gardasil on the same day. Lyndsie had no adverse reaction. Ashlie was not so lucky.
Ashlie has always been bigger than life. A girl who we know can handle anything. At the age of 4, Ashlie decided she wanted to dance. She was shy and didn’t like people staring at her, so we knew that this little endeavor would be short lived. We could not have been more wrong. As Ashlie became older, we knew she had found her passion and career in life. She was going to be a professional dancer and she was on her way.
How could we have known one vaccine would change our lives and her life so drastically?
In the middle of June 2009, Ashlie received her first and only Gardasil vaccine. Ashlie’s older sister Lyndsie was also vaccinated with Gardasil on the same day and had no adverse reaction. For that I am thankful.
However, approximately 16 days later Ashlie began to complain that her legs were not working correctly. Looking back, I am not sure what I thought it was, but I had her take some Tylenol. The next morning, I came downstairs and Ashlie was lying on the couch watching TV. She told me that she had crawled from her room and down the stairs to get to the couch. She informed me she could not walk. I asked her to stand. She tried and fell to the floor. 
She was quickly taken to our local ER. The doctor threw his hands in the air saying he had no idea and it must be growing pains. She was given crutches and a prescription for steroids. I took her home convinced the doctor was wrong, as I am a mother of 5 daughters and had never witnessed growing pains like that.
Ashlie had been diagnosed with epilepsy when she was 10-years-old. I thought she perhaps had had a new seizure I was not aware of, so I called her neurologist. I was assured it was not a seizure, but to bring her to the ER (a different ER) in the morning as they were very crowded and she would be seen faster in the morning and we would get home quickly. 
Later that night, I helped Ashlie in and out of the bathtub because she could no longer walk. I went to hand her something and to my horror discovered that her arms and hands were not working either. She literally could not pick up what I was handing her.
After a few phone calls, I rushed Ashlie to an ER over an hour away, the same ER we were to visit in the morning. I carried her in, and for a crowded ER on a Saturday night, she was seen within 1 hour.
One of the phone calls I had made was to my dad. His friend is a doctor, who told my dad that I needed to ask if it was “ascending paralysis”. While we were with the doctor, I asked him if it was “ascending paralysis” and he said yes. It appeared she had Guillain-Barre’ Syndrome (GBS). 
I was asked if she had been sick and I informed them she had not. I could not figure out how she got this.
She was kept in the ER until a room became available in the “step-down” unit or intermediate ICU. At this point I still had no idea how serious this was. Once she was admitted to the hospital and not an ER patient, they handed me a bunch of literature on GBS. My answer to how she contracted GBS was in the first sentence that I read, and it said that you can get GBS from a vaccine. She had just had a vaccine, the Gardasil vaccine earlier that month.
Ashlie after one injection of Gardasil
Ashlie after one injection of Gardasil
As Ashlie lay in the hospital bed I watched her go from a vibrant young girl to a shell of non-existence. She was unable to walk, she was unable to get up to use the bathroom and as she couldn’t eat, an NG tube was placed in her nose so they could feed her. She was given intravenous immunoglobulins (IVIG), in the hope that this would stop the paralysis and start it descending. 
She became delirious, and she began talking like a baby in her sleep. She was in extreme pain and I had no idea what to do, or even still did not realize at this point how serious GBS was. 

Within 24 hours things went from bad to worse. Her respiratory system was shutting down. The GBS was paralyzing her to the point that she could not breathe.

She was rushed to the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit (PICU). Within minutes of being there she stopped breathing and they had to “bag” her. I could not believe what I was seeing. My baby girl was dying before my very eyes. 

She could no longer talk and would finger spell (sign language) to communicate. They put her on a bi-pap machine to help her breathe and on July 1, 2009 Ashlie was intubated. She could no longer breathe on her own to keep alive, a machine had to do the work for her. Her heart was racing, ranging between 160-180 bpm. It seemed as though her heart would come through her chest. For the next 2 1/2 weeks, I sat and watched as she continued to get worse.

Guillain-Barre Syndrome is most common in older people, not children. It was the worst case the children’s hospital had seen in over 3 years. All treatments done to “reverse” GBS are done on adults. The hospital had to take adult treatments and alter them for a 12-year-old. She had more IVIG treatments done, she had plasmapheresis, MRI’s, and nerve tests done. The damage done to her nerves was horrific. The GBS not only destroyed her myelin, but it went into and began destroying the axon.

"Life after losing a loved one to vaccines is very painful. With a heavy heart, we share Sebastian Ryan Morley’s story. He was a healthy boy whose life ended after routine vaccinations. Sebastian’s mother and grandmother have worked many years in both the veterinary and human healthcare fields. What they were taught in school led them to believe vaccines were safe, but now they will never vaccinate again. We thank his family for coming forward and sharing very important information the public isn’t usually made aware of..."

From VacTruth:

"Robin Stavola is a mother who tragically lost her young daughter, Holly, to the second MMR vaccine dose, which was a requirement for Holly to attend kindergarten in New Jersey.

After Holly suffered a severe reaction to the vaccine, leaving her convulsing, brain damaged and on life support, her family was told by the doctors that Holly would remain in a vegetative state and would not recover. Holly’s parents felt helpless and they reluctantly agreed to have their daughter removed from life support.

Robin was awarded compensation for Holly’s death after it was determined the MMR vaccine caused Holly to suffer acute encephalopathy.

After a long battle and without success, Robin fought to change the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program. She learned most parents that file a vaccine injury claim get denied compensation.

With support from the governor of New Jersey, Holly’s Law was created. This law can save your child from receiving a potentially lethal second dose of the MMR vaccine, required for some children to attend school, if no vaccine exemption was filed on their behalf.

The second MMR vaccine dose, listed on the CDC recommended vaccine schedule, is not actually a booster vaccine; it is recommended or mandated because Merck states two to five percent of children don’t obtain levels of protection from the first MMR dose and that all children should get a second dose, to cover those who didn’t gain protection from the first one.

When Holly lay suffering for 65 hours in the two hospitals she was transferred to, her pediatrician did not even show up to visit her. Pediatricians push the vaccines but often don’t show up to the hospital to help care for your child when they become vaccine-injured.

Even the hospital chaplain wasn’t sincere when Holly was fighting to survive. Grieving family members are led to believe hospital chaplains are there to help them grieve, but some of them are actually paid to help increase the number of organ donations..."

In honor of Holly, her mother Robin shares,

“Holly Marie Stavola was born January 18, 1995. She was born on time and was born a healthy baby, with no complications. We trusted the doctors giving her vaccines and followed the schedule as recommended.

I wasn’t given any vaccine information sheets or information on how to recognize a severe vaccine reaction. When it was time for Holly to receive her first MMR vaccination at sixteen-months old, she was given the MMR and Hib vaccines during that visit.

After she received the vaccines, she was back in the office with a fever, lethargy, no appetite, crying more, ear pain, and a cough that lasted for seven consecutive weeks.

She skipped three weeks where we didn’t go into the pediatrician’s office. We returned one-and-a-half weeks later, when Holly had another fever and no appetite.

We returned once again one-and-a-half weeks after that, due to a continued fever.

Unbelievably, eleven days later after this stretch of pediatric SICK visits, Holly’s doctor gave her an oral polio vaccine (OPV) and her fourth DTaP shot.

I was told Holly reacted normally to the previous shots and to continue vaccinating. The doctor didn’t seem the least bit concerned and no doctor warned me Holly shouldn’t get any more vaccines because she could suffer a more severe reaction.

Up to this point, I trusted my pediatrician and had never heard of vaccine reactions back in 1996. When this all occurred, we didn’t have the ability to learn from other parents how much these reactions were really happening.

On January 18, 2000, Holly celebrated her fifth birthday.

On Tuesday, January 25, 2000, a week later, I took Holly in for her five-year well checkup. At this pediatric visit, Holly received another oral polio vaccine (OPV), which was no longer recommended as of January 2000, but she received it anyway, along with the MMR, DTaP, and Mantoux TB test.

The Mantoux TB skin test is a screening tool for tuberculosis. It’s similar to an allergy test. It seems like an allergy test, put an allergen underneath your skin to see how you react but it’s done using an intradermal injection. I like to mention this test because it shows how much they did to her, in the office that day. My nine-year old son Tom received the Varicella (chicken pox) [vaccine] that day as well.”

Holly Ended Up On Life Support
“We went home from the five-year well checkup and Holly started complaining of arm pain, but all seemed fine to me, as I was unaware of the Vaccine Information Statements and told not to worry. I didn’t know that vaccine adverse reactions even existed in children. I was only led to believe they were safe.

On Sunday, January 30, 2000, five days after the vaccines were given to her, she was outside sledding in the snow, shortly before the adverse reaction manifested itself.

Holly complained of arm pain for the whole week following that visit, I was told that this was normal. This led up to the horrible nightmare we all lived through, which occurred seven days after her checkup.

On Tuesday, February 1, 2000, seven days after she was vaccinated with the second MMR, Holly had a 104 degree fever, ear pain and a sore throat.

We went into the pediatrician’s office only to be given an antibiotic, with no mention of her MMR, OPV, fifth DTaP and the Mantoux TB test that she received seven days prior. The doctor also didn’t consider Holly’s reaction to the first MMR.

Holly and I went to pick up the Suprax® (cefixime) antibiotic at the local ACME store and I gave her the first dose.

By noontime, Holly was taking a two hour nap. Holly didn’t take naps anymore, but I assumed it was because she wasn’t feeling well. The pediatrician didn’t think anything unusual, other than an infection, so therefore, I didn’t think anything was serious. Well, that all changed.

As I was sitting on the bed with Holly as she was sleeping, she had fallen back asleep at 6:00 pm, and awoke at 8:00 pm. She woke up having a grand mal seizure and a temperature of 107 degrees. Her eyes rolled back and she foamed from the mouth.

From this point onward, it was a calamity of errors, starting with the 911 operator who was unpleasant; the volunteer EMS worker initially wasn’t able to find our house and then Holly was taken to a hospital incapable of properly caring for her.

We were screaming for help; they did a spinal tap to check for meningitis, and with increasing brain inflammation this should not have been done. She was shivering because hypothermia set in due to them trying to cool down her 107/108 fever.

Then Holly was rushed to another hospital that was also incapable of caring for her. My daughter was naked, vomiting, could barely speak (ataxia), and had tears in her eyes. Holly’s last words in the ambulance were, “Mommy, help.”

She was at two local Monmouth County hospitals that were clueless and incapable of caring for a child with acute disseminated encephalomyelitis, which is what Holly had, until I, the mother, had to alert them to the fact that she had vaccinations the week prior.

At the second hospital, I asked the neurologist 18 hours in if Holly was on pain medicine and then I overheard him ask the nurse why Holly was not given pain medicine and to start her on Fentanyl. Fentanyl is an opioid medication, sometimes called a narcotic.

After hours of grand mal seizures, fever as high as 107/108 degrees, lots of blood work, plasmapheresis, and drilling through her forehead in an attempt to release intracranial pressure and physically put through hell, we were told she would never return to her normal self and would never wake up, she would be a vegetable and not breathe for herself, ever.

I was saying the rosary nonstop for 65 hours and didn’t sleep or eat. Unbearably, we removed her from life support at the suggestion of the doctors.

On February 4, 2000, Holly Stavola, a daughter and sibling, died tragically and unnecessarily from acute encephalopathy, due to her second MMR vaccination. The hospital and her pediatrician finally concluded this diagnosis.”

Holly’s Vaccine Reaction and Death Was Reported To VAERS
“We had no idea Holly’s vaccine reaction was so severe and life threatening until five hours after the initial seizure. When Holly suffered this adverse reaction to the second MMR, that is when we realized it was the vaccinations being the culprit.

Even in the hospital, it was me who brought up the fact that Holly was recently vaccinated and she was not sick when she received the vaccines, she only became sick afterwards.

We felt deceived and completely let down by Holly’s pediatric group in New Jersey. They failed us in so many ways. Holly suffered 65 hours before becoming brain dead and having to be removed from life support.

Holly’s pediatrician, who saw her for her five-year well checkup the week prior and that morning before she was admitted to the hospital, did not show up at all during Holly’s 65-hour painful and horrible ordeal at the two hospitals, nor did any other pediatrician that worked in the same group.

Holly’s pediatrician and their office also failed us immensely by not informing us of the risks associated with vaccines and not attributing her symptoms to a possible reaction the day it began.

I had found out from a very prominent pediatrician that Holly could have been saved if things were handled differently by the medical personnel, from the pediatrician to the hospital staff.

After Holly’s death, we had the bottle of Suprax® (cefixime) tested at a laboratory and it was found the Cefixime was of approved quality and approximate in quantity.

Holly’s pediatrician did report her reaction to the Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System (VAERS).” [1]

"I Didn’t Know Vaccines Could Cause So Much Harm"
“When our daughter became severely sick, we, the EMS and the hospital medical people were unable to figure out what was happening, until I finally brought up the vaccinations at the hospital.

It did not occur to me that a vaccination could cause such a reaction as I was not informed of the risks. Before every vaccination, the doctor or nurse should provide you with a VIS for each vaccination your child will be receiving. Federal law states that you are to receive these related sheets to help make an informed decision.

Download and review the Vaccine Information Statements (VIS) which are available from the Center for Disease Control’s website. [2]

These papers will give you a summary of details about each disease and vaccination on the CDC recommended schedule. These VIS sheets are also at your disposal in the doctor’s office.

However, better than these sheets are the actual vaccine package inserts for each vaccine; take a look at the adverse reactions. You need to become knowledgeable and informed, before making your decision to vaccinate.” [3]

Robin Was Asked To Donate Holly’s Organs
When Holly was on life support, hooked up to a ventilator and clinically declared brain dead, her mother Robin was approached by the chaplain, who asked her to donate Holly’s organs.

The chaplain at the hospital seemed so very caring and nice to Robin until she said no to donating Holly’s organs. Robin found that very strange and was left to feel the hospital lost out on a business deal.

Most parents are unaware that some chaplains are involved in the organ trade business. To increase consent for organ donations, some chaplains are being hired by hospitals to help get parents and next of kin to donate their loved ones’ organs.

Using a professionally trained chaplain in a hospital setting to approach the issue of organ donation has proven successful in getting more people to say yes to donating organs. [4]

Robin stated,

“In our situation, it was very disappointing, one more person, the chaplain, was not sincere during our nightmare. The chaplain is the last person one would expect to not be sincere.

Our family admires any grieving person who donates their loved ones’ organs, and we do not want to be judged for this immediate and difficult decision we had to make at that time.”

Parents are speaking up and advising others that when their vaccine-injured child ended up on life support, a doctor declared their child “brain dead,” so they had grounds to ask them to donate their child’s organs, only later to find out on the autopsy report that the child was not really brain dead and likely could’ve survived.

However, in Holly’s case, the grand mal seizures and severe case of acute encephalopathy did leave Holly “brain dead.” Although to this day, Robin wishes that she was given 48 hours to think about the decision to remove Holly from life support and wonders, to this day, if she should have kept her daughter on life support, in the hopes of a miracle.

Holly’s Blood Samples Were Discarded Without Permission
Robin wrote,

“I knew after Holly’s death, we needed to get an autopsy, which we did. We asked the hospital to ‘preserve blood samples’ and wrote this on the signed autopsy form by us.

We also asked and put it in writing that they not shave her head, how horrible to have to put this in writing and put our dead daughter’s body through an autopsy, but we wanted to make sure every stone was unturned.

Unbelievably, the pathologist ‘forgot to save any blood samples’ and there was nothing we could do about it.”

Holly’s Symptoms Were Caused by Vaccination
“The doctors eliminated all possible infectious, bacterial and viral diseases; all her symptoms were due to the MMR vaccination.

Before the last round of vaccines Holly received, she was a completely healthy, bright, kind and beautiful five year-old child. The day she received her vaccinations at her five-year well checkup, HOLLY WAS NOT SICK!!

Pediatricians will attempt to downplay Holly’s reaction by asserting that this tragedy happened because she was sick. This could not be further from the truth; she was an extremely healthy child, and not immunocompromised in any way.

Encephalopathy is a vaccine table injury on the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services HRSA division. It can occur between 5-15 days after the vaccine is given, as stated on the table of injuries.” [5]

Holly’s Family Won Their Vaccine Injury Case When Most Are Denied
“Roughly only one-quarter of vaccine injury claim petitioners get awarded compensation, while about three-quarters get denied. Eighty percent or more of the compensated awarded claims are based on negotiated settlements where the court will not conclude, based upon review of the evidence, that the alleged vaccine(s) caused the alleged injury. [6]

The government states that compensation awarded for the majority of those injured/deceased does not necessarily mean they are agreeing their injury was caused by a vaccine.

Because of this unfair reality, we did not want to file a vaccine injury claim, because we did not want to accept the compensation without placing fault on someone. We wanted accountability.

After one-and-a-half-years, we decided to file a claim with the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program (NVICP). [7]

The deadline to file was two years after Holly passed and we decided if we won, we would use the money to do something in her honor and to help save others from going through this. We had an attorney who handled the whole process with the NVICP.

We did not want to accept any money without responsibility that the vaccine caused this; once we filed, we took the whole two-year time period before accepting the blood money. The federal government conceded that Holly’s death was compensable due to the MMR vaccine.

We were compensated by the United States Court of Federal Claims, after filing a vaccine injury claim. They conceded that Holly’s death was a result of the MMR.”

“I Needed Something Good To Come Out Of Holly’s Suffering”
“When I learned about the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program and was told I must file a claim, to receive any compensation, I was shocked and felt deceived how the vaccine program was set up to fail parents.

According to the Health Resources Services Administration, approximately 74 percent of vaccine injury claims/deaths are denied. I desperately wanted the opportunity to make a difference, to help parents, and to make it known that Holly’s death was vaccine related and that the system has many flaws.

In September of 2004, I was nominated by the Department of Justice/Vaccine Litigation Unit to serve as a General Public Member: Parent of a Vaccine-Injured Child representative on the Advisory Commission on Childhood Vaccines.

I needed to then apply with my resume to receive this position, which I did, and was ultimately accepted onto the Commission.

The Advisory Commission on Childhood Vaccines (ACCV) is made up of nine voting members, most of whom are pro-vaccine and working for what is in the best interest of the government. [8]

At the ACCV meetings, members get together to discuss the vaccine injury program, to offer advice and give recommendations to the Secretary of Health and Human Services, to make changes to the existing rules.

I was excited to make a difference. I served for two years following Holly’s death, attending meetings and giving suggestions, as a parent of a vaccine-injured child.

The meetings were held in Rockland, Maryland, at the United States Department of Health offices. It was hard because I had to leave my family to attend the meetings and it became futile, frustrating and apparent, that I could not make an impact, to change the current and unjust vaccine program.”

Holly’s Family Formed “The Hope from Holly Foundation” To Help Other New Jersey Children In Need
“We wanted to help others in Holly's memory, so right after Holly's death, we formed the non-profit NJ organization, The Hope from Holly Foundation.

The purpose was to help NJ families who were financially struggling and whose children were seriously ill and/or had overwhelming medical needs.

We raised a significant amount of money, over $550,000, in three years. However, we decided to dissolve the organization because Holly’s Law was a huge commitment of time for our family.”

Holly’s Mother Continued To Fight And Helped Pass Holly’s Law
“The legislative process did work in our favor on January 14, 2004, and we passed HOLLY’S LAW in New Jersey, IN MEMORY OF OUR BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER, HOLLY STAVOLA. However, the process was both arduous and stressful, given Merck, the AAP, the NJ Academy of Family Physicians, and various other doctors fought against our proposed bill.

New Jersey’s Holly's Law promotes the antibody blood titer test most parents don’t know exists. Through God’s grace, and the support of many friends and family, Holly’s Law passed unanimously in both houses in New Jersey. [9]

If you or anyone you know is getting ready for school with vaccinations, take advantage of Holly’s Law, which gives parents a choice before allowing their child to receive the second scheduled MMR vaccine.

Unfortunately, pediatricians fail to inform parents this option exists, due to the fact they are unaware of the dangers of vaccines, not liable if anything happens adversely to your child, financially incentivized to give more shots and are unwilling to agree that there are adverse reactions. So, for these reasons, they do not provide you with an objective opinion and may intentionally not want you to know about Holly’s Law.

Different states may have a similar law in place; do your research and check with your local Health Department before having your child receive the second MMR vaccine.”

About the Antibody Titer Law (Holly’s Law)
The New Jersey Department of Health and Senior Services explains this about the MMR vaccine and the titer test available for parents to decide if they want to consent to their child receiving a second MMR vaccine: [10]

“The Antibody Titer Law (Holly’s Law) (NJSA 26:2N-8-11), passed on January 14, 2004, concerns vaccination of children with the Measles, Mumps, Rubella (MMR) vaccine. The law allows parents to seek testing to determine a child’s immunity to measles, mumps, and rubella, before receiving the second dose of the vaccine.”

“Written laboratory proof of immunity exempts a child from the 2nd dose of MMR vaccine.”

“According to the national Advisory Committee on Immunization Practices (ACIP), children should receive two doses of the vaccine because about 2%-5% of people do not develop immunity after the first dose of vaccine.”

The first dose is usually given at 12-15 months of age and the second dose is usually given at 4-6 years of age. The second dose is not a “booster”; it is intended to produce immunity in the people who did not respond to the first dose.”

Holly’s Law Can Save Your Child
Holly’s older brother, Thomas Stavola, Jr., was nine years old when his younger sister Holly passed away from the MMR vaccine. Tom began researching vaccines and now is an outspoken advocate for vaccine choice. The loss of his close sister is still very painful to deal with. He reminds people to learn about Holly’s Law and utilize this option if available.

In memory of his sister, Thomas shared,

“Although we know that vaccine-induced antibodies do not provide true immunity (one can only achieve long-term immunity from the natural acquisition of a disease, thereby stimulating the innate, cell-mediated immune function), Holly's Law allows parents to substitute a harmless antibody test for an ineffective, dangerous, potentially deadly MMR vaccine.

Sufficient antibody levels are the standard by which the medical community tests vaccines for efficacy, and thus showing sufficient antibody levels with Holly's Law will demonstrate that the person has immunity (even though the latest science states that antibodies are only part of the equation).

Holly's Law has and will continue to save countless lives, in addition to protecting people from possible adverse events.

Vaccine-induced herd immunity is an unproven hypothesis that is thoroughly debunked in the medical literature through observation of disease outbreaks in 95-100% of vaccinated populations.

Clearly, if outbreaks are occurring in completely vaccinated areas, the vaccine(s) are not effective in providing protection. Thus, it follows that vaccinated individuals do pose a risk to the immunocompromised; in fact, more so than unvaccinated people, due in part to the possibility of viral shedding (for several weeks to months) post-live vaccination.

The assertion that unvaccinated people are magnets for illness couldn’t be further from the truth. We all carry germs; vaccination does not make people “sterile” or disease-free. On the contrary, it severely burdens the primary defense mechanism (immune system), thereby increasing the probability for illness in those individuals.

All of the aforementioned statements are confirmed in the peer-reviewed medical literature; one only needs to search if one wishes to uncover the truth.”

MMR Vaccine Associated With Neurological Adverse Reactions
Holly’s mother shared,

“Vaccine advocates like to say Holly’s reaction was ‘one in a million.’ The truth is, 1 out of 168 children end up in the ER after vaccination.

Holly’s reaction was not an allergic reaction. The MMR vaccine information statement states, "serious allergic reaction occurs in (less than 1 out of a million doses)," however, it does state, "seizure (jerking or staring) caused by fever occurs in (about 1 out of 3,000 doses).” 

Vaccine advocates also like to say that even though we were compensated, it doesn’t mean anything. The federal government conceded that Holly’s death was compensable due to a vaccine. The Vaccine Injury Compensation Program (VICP) has paid out more than $3.18 billion to date. [11]

The doctors eliminated all possible infectious, bacterial and viral infections that could have been causing Holly’s symptoms. How many coincidences can occur before there are no longer coincidences? There are three requirements of causality and Holly passed all three.

If you don’t think your child will end up like Holly, I never did, either. She was perfect and our choice to have her vaccinated, based on what we knew, took her away from us.

It’s also worth mentioning, New Jersey has one of the highest rates of autism compared to other states in the U.S. Many parents know the MMR vaccine contributed to their child becoming autistic; this is another reason parents may want to utilize Holly’s Law. [12]

Take a look at the MMR package insert from Merck. Scroll to the adverse reactions section, starting on page 6. Page 7 highlights encephalopathy, which is one of the potential reactions of the MMR.” [13]

Losing a Sibling To Vaccines Is Unimaginable, Too
More than ever, siblings are speaking up against vaccines. Parents aren’t the only ones who feel a part of themselves was lost; siblings feel a tremendous loss, too. When you vaccinate your children, other existing or future children may not get to watch their brother or sister grow. It is really difficult for them to go on and many are speaking up about the harm vaccines cause.

Tom Stavola, Holly’s older brother, was only nine years old when Holly died. He advocates for vaccine choice and reminds people to learn about Holly’s Law.

Holly’s younger sister, whom she never got to meet, made this video for her. Just two days before Holly lay in a hospital bed while suffering acute encephalopathy, brought on by the MMR vaccine, she is seen riding a sled in the snow, while spending time with her family.

This video holds some precious memories of Holly’s short life.

Hope From Holly
“Currently in our country, the unvaccinated are being labeled, marginalized, demonized, and ‘fired’ from pediatrician’s offices. We left the pediatric group in New Jersey who failed to show up for Holly and went with a doctor who spoke to me on the phone for hours, expressing his sorrow, and desire to conduct a séance for Holly. 

Considering we were grieving, vulnerable and desperate parents at the time, we accepted his offer. We went through the awkward séance where he ripped his shirt open and claimed to have heard from Holly.

We then had a few office visits with my then nine year-old son; he prescribed a very expensive asthma treatment. I questioned a very high charge on the asthma treatment, to which this ‘wonderfully caring’ doctor responded, by telling us to leave his office.

Following this disaster, I found a caring woman pediatrician whom we have remained with for the past 15 years.

To give Holly and others a voice, by raising needed awareness, we created this page to help provide NJ Physicians and parents with more knowledge about childhood vaccines, immunity and the MMR vaccine.” [14]

We leave you with words from Robin:

“My family and I hope that Holly’s story will make a difference and help you realize that you must be aware of the risks of vaccinations, just as you make yourself aware of the risks of any medical procedure.

We hope to make change, and one very important improvement must be that the pediatricians acknowledge that there are vaccine reactions, that moderate to serious and even fatal vaccine reactions do exist and occur at least 100 times more than is reported to the Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System (VAERS). 

We are still very disappointed and disgusted with the actions (or lack thereof) of all involved concerning our daughter Holly’s death. We are also both very upset and angry with the continued injustice and fallacies promulgated regarding vaccinations.

We lost faith in the medical and legal system from this experience.

Holly’s suffering was painful to watch, but at least now we know there have been lessons learned from Holly’s story. Her death was not in vain; sometimes it takes a tragedy to shed light on an important issue.

If you or anyone you know is getting ready for school with vaccinations, take advantage of New Jersey’s Holly's Law, the antibody blood titer test passed in 2004, and named for our daughter Holly, who died from the MMR vaccine in the year 2000.

I would love to hear from the parents that utilize the antibody blood titer test. I would be interested to know if the child’s physician provided the information.

Thank you to the VacTruth team and everyone involved in writing our story. Thank you for caring about the vaccine-injured, what happened to them and how their stories can help others. We appreciate the time all of you have devoted to this extremely important and worthy cause.

We have our faith that comforts us with the knowledge of Heaven and eternal life, but we will always be saddened that she never got to grow up and fulfill her dreams and wishes. We are also comforted by many people that have helped us get through this tragedy.

May God bless you and your families; thank you for taking the time to read about our dear Holly who suffered needlessly and did not have a peaceful death. Thank God we are strong believers regarding the beautification and that Holly is in the presence of God, where we will be united again someday.

Finally, our Christian faith compels us to forgive all those who failed Holly from the perspective that Jesus would want us to forgive others if we are to receive His forgiveness.

Please help fight against unnecessary vaccine mandates in New Jersey and elsewhere, considering the parent is the one who will carry the burden if something goes wrong, like we do.”

God Bless,
Robin Stavola

In Loving Memory of Holly Marie Stavola
January 18, 1995 – February 4, 2000
She died from acute encephalitis caused by the MMR vaccine.

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"My daughter Lyla Rose Belkin died on September 16, 1998 at the age of five weeks, shortly after receiving a Hepatitis B vaccine booster shot. The following comments are intended to be a heads up to parents and potential parents about the risks of the Hepatitis B vaccine (HBV), and a firsthand report questioning the scientific legitimacy of the vaccine industry, which provides $800 million of annual revenue to Merck – the company which makes the Hepatitis B vaccine distributed in the US.

Lyla Rose Belkin was a lively, alert five-week-old baby when I last held her in my arms. Little did I imagine as she gazed intently into my eyes with all the innocence and wonder of a newborn child that she would die that night. She was never ill before receiving the Hepatitis B shot that afternoon. At her final feeding that night, she was agitated and feisty -- and then fell asleep and didn’t wake up.

The autopsy ruled out choking. A swollen brain was the only abnormal finding. Most doctors I spoke to at the time said it must have been Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS), a catch-all diagnosis for unexplainable childhood mortality.

The first instinctive reaction in such a situation is for parents to blame themselves. For many weeks, my wife and I agonized over what we might have missed or could have done differently. Meanwhile, the logical part of my brain kept returning to the obvious medical event that preceded Lyla’s death -- and that internal voice kept asking the question could the Hepatitis B Vaccine that Lyla received that afternoon have killed her?

Most doctors I asked scoffed at that notion and said the vaccine was perfectly safe. But I began to search around on the Internet and Medline and discovered disturbing evidence of adverse reactions to this vaccine.

In the US, the Hepatitis B disease mainly infects intravenous drug users, homosexuals, prostitutes and promiscuous heterosexuals. The disease is transmitted by blood, through sex or dirty needles. How could a newborn baby possibly get Hepatitis B if the mother was screened and tested negative, as my wife was? It is almost impossible. Unless a newborn child is having unprotected sex or sharing needles with an infected junkie, it is extremely unlikely to get the Hepatitis B disease.

So then why are most US babies inoculated at birth by their Hospital or Pediatrician with the Hepatitis B vaccine? That is a question every parent should ask before getting this vaccination. I’ve discovered the answer is -- an unrestrained health bureaucracy decided it couldn’t get junkies, gays, prostitutes and promiscuous heterosexuals to take the Hepatitis B vaccine -- so they mandated that all babies must be vaccinated at birth. Drug companies such as Merck (reaching for new markets) were instrumental in pushing government scientists to adopt an at-birth Hepatitis B vaccination policy, although the vaccine was never tested in newborns and no vaccines had ever been mandated at birth before. It is widely recognized that newborns have under-developed immune systems, which can be overwhelmed or shocked.

My search for answers about a link between the Hepatitis B vaccine and my daughter’s death led me to a Hepatitis B vaccine workshop on October 26th at the National Academy of Sciences (NAS), Institute of Medicine entitled Vaccine Safety Forum -- Neonatal Deaths. The NAS was concerned enough about reports of Hepatitis B vaccine-related infant deaths and adverse reactions to hold a special workshop on the subject. Doctors and scientists flew in from all over the US and Europe to attend. I sat in the back and soaked it all up. It was a real eye-opener. There were basically four constituencies represented: 1) Serious scientists observing or presenting research studies. 2) Center for Disease Control (CDC) pseudo-statisticians and FDA officials. 3) Merck and other corporate drug officials and 4) Parents of vaccine-related dead or severely injured children.

The presentations included a study of Animal Models of Newborn Response to Antigen Presentation, which showed that newborn immune systems were undeveloped and strikingly different than those of adults. The message I received was that immune response in a newborn to shocks such as being injected with a vaccine was potentially unknown, since newborn T-Cells have a radically different behavior then those of adults. Another presentation was Strategies for Evaluating the Biologic Mechanisms of Hepatitis B Vaccine Reactions, in which vaccine researcher Dr. Bonnie Dunbar of Baylor College related numerous Hepatitis B vaccine related cases of nervous system damage in adults, such as Multiple Sclerosis, seizures and blindness. On the more positive side, the FDA presented a seemingly reassuring study from its Vaccine Adverse Effects Reporting System (VAERS), which showed only 19 neonatal deaths reported since 1991 related to Hepatitis B vaccination.

I found the VAERS study data to be completely deceptive. Since I was sitting in that room and my daughter had died during their sample period and wasn’t counted -- I wondered why. In fact, the New York City Coroner called VAERS to report my daughter’s Hepatitis B vaccine related infant death and no one ever returned their call! What kind of reporting system doesn’t return the calls of the NY City Medical Examiner -- and how many other reports were ignored? This is supposed to be the emergency 911 number for disasters such as bad lots of vaccine that could poison thousands of other babies. With the personal knowledge that the VAERS data was completely flawed, I sat in that room and listened in amazement as CDC officials and Merck’s head of vaccine safety made disparaging comments about any possible risk from Hepatitis B vaccination, despite the evidence just presented by impartial scientists.

I studied statistics and econometrics at UC Berkeley and have developed innovative methods of applying probability to financial and economic data in my consulting business with some of the largest financial institutions in the world. That training and experience qualifies me to criticize the statistical legitimacy of the VAERS study, on which Merck and the CDC pseudo-scientists based their pro-vaccination stance. Their comments were scathingly dismissive of any possible risk from the vaccine.

But that VAERS study is not a legitimate sample of a data set from which any conclusions about the larger population can be made. VAERS doesn’t return coroner’s calls, leading to the suspicion that deaths and adverse effects from vaccination are woefully under-reported. To conclude that the Hepatitis B vaccine is safe because VAERS only reports 19 deaths is scientific fraud.

In fact, I obtained the raw data from the VAERS system and found 54 reported SIDS cases after Hepatitis B vaccination in just the 18 months from January 1996 -- May 1997. That’s almost 15 times as many deaths per year as their own flawed study reported. There are 17,000 reports of adverse reactions to Hepatitis B vaccine in the 1996-97 raw data. Clearly something is fishy about VAERS.

VAERS was set up by the FDA and CDC. If there are 17,000 reports and VAERS doesn’t even return the NY Medical Examiner’s call, how many other deaths and injuries go unreported?

I came away from that NAS workshop with the distinct impression that Merck and the CDC didn’t know and didn’t really want to know how many babies are being killed or injured by Hepatitis B vaccination. This is a bureaucratic vaccination program that is on auto-pilot flying into a mountain.

The CDC bureaucrats have a vested interest in the status quo. If there were 17,000 reports of a dangerous disease in an 18-month period, the CDC would be all over the case. But when there are 17,000 reports of adverse reactions to a vaccine the CDC advocates for "public health" -- the CDC dismisses it as a coincidence. Merck makes $50 a shot from the three-shot series and has sales of upwards of $800 million a year from vaccines.

Vaccination can be a lifesaver if an epidemic is raging, but in this case the risk of vaccination outweighs the risk of infants getting the disease. Surely, the hepatitis B vaccine doesn’t injure every child that gets it, but in some unknown number of cases, it appears to be a death sentence and/or a nervous system toxin to innocent children who are at no risk of getting the disease the vaccine is supposed to protect against.

My observations of Merck and CDC scientists at the Vaccine Safety Forum left me with the distinct impression that they had absolutely no idea which babies might be killed or injured by this vaccine. Furthermore, they used obviously flawed scientific data to arrogantly steamroller any opposition to their power.

Parents should be aware that the Hepatitis B vaccine is not administered for the well being of their child. Rather, it is delivered by the long arm of some incompetent and mindless bureaucracy in the name of stamping out a disease most babies can’t possibly get.

The Drug Company/CDC/FDA alliance has really pulled the wool over the medical profession’s eyes with the Hepatitis B vaccine. The American Academy of Pediatrics bought the alliance’s sales pitch and now recommends that all infants get this vaccine at birth. So now the first thing most babies get in life is a shock to their immune system from a vaccine against a non-existent risk of contracting Hepatitis B.

Clearly, the interests of newborn babies were not represented on the CDC panel that created this vaccination policy in 1991. This vaccine has no benefit whatsoever for healthy newborns born to healthy mothers, in fact it wears off and they will need booster shots later in life when they actually could get exposed to the disease. This is simply a case of ravenous corporate greed and mindless bureaucracy teaming up to overwhelm common sense

Nothing will ever bring my lovely daughter Lyla back, but other needless deaths and injuries can be prevented if this senseless Hepatitis B newborn vaccination program is halted. Please contact Belkin Limited in New York City if you are aware of other infant deaths that may be related to the Hepatitis B vaccine."

Emily Wood shared her gut-wrenching story on a group that I am in, and gave me permission to share. I hope her story will be a cautionary tale to many - parents, grandparents, not yet pregnant, etc. I would especially love if any nurses and doctors involved in the administration of vaccines would take the time to investigate stories such as this. This is only the tip of the iceberg. There are millions of families with similar stories. They need to be taken seriously. They need to be heard.

"Thanks for the add. I have found my tribe.

My oldest son was fully vaccinated and I always said "see, he's vaccinated and healthy" he just has severe asthma, life threatening nut allergies and eczema. Oh how blind I was.....for ten years

My second child was born last November. He rarely smiled and was very quiet. I thought he was just a serious baby. He quit smiling after his 2 month vaccines. The day of his 4 month vaccines was the last day he rolled over and yet we were told there was no correlation. His pediatrician actually said "some babies just don't like rolling." I continued on with my head in the sand. The day after his 6 month vaccines he began seizing. He was diagnosed with Infantile Spasms at the children's hospital 2 days later. IS is a form of infant epilepsy combined with developmental regression and delay. My son is 11 months old and functioning at a 4 month old level. Every single specialist refuses to acknowledge a link between the vaccines and the onset of this disorder. Our neurologist said that the vaccines didn't cause his IS but could have triggered it, most likely it would have happened anyways. That's the closest I've gotten to a confirmation. My mom gut knows the truth and he will never have another vaccine. He is 4 months seizure free and finally rolling over again at 11 months thanks to his amazing therapy team. The docs keep pressuring us to begin vaccinating him again. 
Not gonna happen."